August 1st 2011 2:31 pm
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I visited with CK a long time last night and he let me know he was ready to fly….I gave mommy the sign and she knew in her heart, it was right for him….she also found comfort in knowing I would be there to escort him in my angel wings of sunlight and peace. With the loving help from our family, I watched CK very peacefully fall asleep today at 1:45pm-----he was not afraid and felt so loved….Once mommy and daddy had held him one more time and kissed him good-bye, I gently lifted his tired 22 year old body and started our journey back to the Rainbow Bridge…..Fly Free in Peace with me, Angel Brother of mine.
Don’t be afraid of the journey as the sun shines so brightly from the rainbow bridge. I am with you always….and swept you peacefully from mommy’s loving arms and tear stained checks to be with me. So many other angels were with me for your journey, as well. As we fly through the peacefulness, Ck and I turned our heads for one more glance to see our mommy and daddy for the last time....together again for a moment, all of us….. Now I led CK to the warmth of the sun and the colors of the rainbow to fly free and be forever with me.
We will miss you mommy, as you will us! I know losing another beloved fur baby deepens your grief for all those you have already lost…. I know many truly understand the bond we all had...I look back on all we have been through and know we could have asked for nothing more. The love and care you and daddy gave us was more than words can express…....We have been through more than most and not nearly as much as some....but together, we always found our way. Death can never take that away. Please remember that mommy! We are always your strength...Always your heart….nothing can take that away.
As far as CK goes, mommy, you and daddy gave him a beautiful loving life….you rescued him from a horrible situation of pain and despair and helped him through all his challenges and obstacles he had to face….he was your special needs boy…You gave him more that most….the best life and the best death ever. You made a promise to rescue him, care for him, love him, and make him know that not all humans are bad….....and you told him, as you once told me…. you would let him go peacefully when it was time....I know it broke your heart as I saw it and felt it so deeply…and the pain is so raw....but I thank you for loving him enough to let him go. Our hearts will always be one and I know yours is filled with a huge hole that no one can fill.....reach out to others, mommy....Sissy is there for a tad bit longer and CK and I will be back for her when the time comes....all of Catster/Dogster are there....when you are ready mommy reach out.....be gentle with yourself...as you are with others. I know Daddy is hurting so much too.
Mommy, I remember when Daddy was so sick with Cancer and could no longer speak to us….when CK could not hear his voice, he starved himself for weeks….you forced feed him and kept him alive as he was Daddy’s strength…..I know he was a difficult kitty, but you never faltered and loved him no less….your love was more generous because of all his challenges. He knew how much you loved him….as I watched the two of you sleep together last night; he would gently purr…..it was his way of saying thank you for all you gave to him in this life.
I thank each of you, my Catster/Dogster friends for coming into my heart and leaving forever paw prints. Thank you for accepting CK as he was….and being there for him after I left for the bridge….he was such a shy boy and I am so grateful he finally found his way on Catster.
Ck and I will watch over all of you. Thank you for walking this journey with us...and know, my heart can never really express how much I love and appreciate each of you. CK is at peace and so very grateful for all the love he found from everyone. Mommy is now “catless” for the first time in her life in 21 years. We are worried about her as Sissy will come be with us soon, too.
It was time for CK to spread his wings and fly.....
Here is CK’s Biography written by mommy: July 7, 1992-August 1, 2011
“My husband (then boyfriend) and I were taking a walk. We heard loud dog barking/growling noises and squealing kitty noises which really concerned us. We followed the noise....and were totally stunned by what we found. We will spare the details as it is gruesome and graphic....we just knew we had to get the cat away from that situation. When the man with the dog saw us, he pulled the dog away and left....and the cat ran off. Luckily we found him under a car....catching him was a whole different issue. This cat was hurt and scared beyond belief. We finally got him and took him to the vet. After he was released from the vet, he went to live with my boyfriend (now husband) across the street. He remained under the bed and couch for weeks/months and would not let anyone near him. If you approached him or touched him, he would attack you and fight for his life. Not a good situation.
We were not sure we could handle him, but we had to try...he deserved a second chance at a good life. We knew if we didn't keep him, no one would....so we did. In his golden years, he calmed down some and learned how much we loved him….always will; however, he could still be defensive, somewhat aggressive and had reactionary trust issues. Who could blame him? However, it did make it difficult in certain situations. We have had him for almost 20 years and despite all the love, he still attacked on occasion when he became scared. It is simply a fear based reaction. He did try so hard to be gentle and loving...and he was, in his own special way. He was my special boy. We love him and accept him for who he was.....We simply allowed him to be.
Before we knew a lot about him, we wanted to name him Cuddles....but given his personality we changed his name to CK....the short version of Cuddles Kitty. He has been a great addition to our family and has a special place in our hearts. He is our special needs kitty who really learned to be a part of our family with the help and support of his bridge kitty sister, Jazzi Sunshine Angel. They are together again….which I know brings them both comfort.
Twice is CK’s life time, he almost grieved himself to death: The first time was when my husband had cancer and could not speak for months due to radiation to head and neck….CK missed his voice so much, he stopped eating and for weeks, I had to force fed him to keep him alive….The second time was after Jazzi left for the Bridge….he almost grieved himself to death and went into kidney failure. We were lucky enough to have him another three years. Thank you for allowing us to be your humans and for teaching us about pain, suffering and healing….. We love you, Mom, Dad, Sissy and Jazzi Angel.
With love and appreciation, Jazzi Sunshine Angel and CK, our newest angel
P.S. A message from mommy: Thank you for all the pmails, love, support, rosies, calls, etc............I hope you truly understand I can not even begin to respond to them....I know I will even have difficulty reading them. I need some time and I hope you all understand...it is so hard right now and I simply can't do it, especially knowing we will soon make that decision for Sissy, too. I thank and love each of you....you make our lives’ complete. Our hearts will always be connected by paws….always.
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Sending you and your family purrs and prayers. Now you are together again at the Bridge flying free! Sprinkle angel dust on your family and watch over them each and every day.
Hugs and purrs,
Simon & Reuben(an angel)
CONGRATULATIONS!! Warm thoughts are with you and your family Sweetie.
The Bush Furs
Concats Jazzi! Our hearts go out to you and your family.
Love, Midnight and Family
Happy diary pick Jazzi! You wrote a beautiful diary about CK who is such a beautiful kitty and is so photogenic.
I'm so sorry you all have to feel sadness now as it is so sad CK had to fly on up to the Bridge.
Lots of Love, Tabatha xo