Bitten by tha Love Bug Leo

My sweet furrrriend Leo tagged Kitty Pryde and angels too to play! It's a New Game- Lovebug Tag! To play, copy the 6 questions below and paste/answer them in your diary! Then tag some friends to play, too!

1. Meow! Are you a noisy kitty or a quiet kitty?
I was a noisy kitty when I was with my Mommy 'but not in a meow kinda way-I liked to purrr and chirp and chatter and whisper. Now that I am an angel, I am quiet to Mommy, but Kitty can hear me (she was watching me all last night MOL!)

2. Litterbox! Cover your business or let some other kitty cover?
Yes! with poopies like mine, I had ta!

3. Happy! Favorite Daily Routine?
Morning time kisses and bedtime snuggles-Evfurry morning I would wake Mommy up by touching her cheek and at night when she went to bed, I would hop right in and knead the blankie and cuddle to get to sleeps.

4. Hiss! Least Favorite Routine?
trying ta cut my nails! and Mommy trying ta clean my stinky booty!

5. Ding-Dong! What do you think about visitors to your house?
OMC!!! I LOVED VISITORS!!! You weren't allowed in tha door unless you said hello ta me furst MOL!

6. Friends! Do you like other animals?
Well...I did love my sisfur and I did come from a shelter with other furs, but after I got spoiled at home, other animal smells scared me so I became a grumbly puss-so I'm sure I would like them! I just need time!


Sooooo-if you are reading this and you want to play, consider yourself tagged! Be sure to let your friends know they've been tagged by sending them a message or rosette! Angels can play, too! Tell us about your life at the bridge or your life at home before the bridge!

Love Indy

MOL's of Loves and Purrrrs

MOL! It's fun ta be invisibles from Mommy's eyes sometimes! I know that's not tha most purrrfect thing ta says, but it's true! Last night it was late and I was visiting Mommy and Kitty P and a'course Kitty could sees me and she was zippping and zooooming awwwwls ovfur tha place! Climbing up tha bookcase and tha curtains and tha couch and she even made a hooooooge jump and jumped awwwl tha way ovfur tha bed onto tha window seat ta catch me! I did let her has a rest though, so I could sit besides Mommy, even if she didn't know I was there. I miss that soooo much-sitting besides her on tha couch and stretching out super long against her when it's time fur sleepies. I know she misses it too 'cause she says it out loud when she talks ta me sometimes.

I miss my home a lot. Tha treats fur sure, even though I gots a lot of them here, but it's not tha same when it's coming from Mommy love.

I am also such a vry lucky Indiana because my Pawtastic Catster furrriends love me and my mommy and Kitty Pryde so very much. They sent Mommy tha most wonderful painting of me! So wonderful that Mommy got so sad and cried fur me a lot more. It's almost been two whole months and it's seems like a distant memory sometimes and yet still feels like I just went ta sleeps furevfur yestfurday. (that's what Mommy says too when she talks ta me) This weekend was 'specially tuffs and all I wished was that I could be there ta licks tha tears from her face like I used to and put my paw on her cheek like I always did ta give her some POTP.

Mommy's very good furrriend Fong told her that it's ok that a piece of her heart is missing and will be gone furevfur because that piece of her heart belongs to me and she can love it and cherish it and hold onto it furevfur, even when it hurts so bad. I know my mommy has lots a'sadness happening in her heart right now and the thing I wish most of all is that I could be with her right now because I know just the right ways ta cuddles her and help tha sadness disappear fur a little bit.

You know what my most amazing furrriends did too?? they sent Kitty Pryde a huuuuuuuge basket of toys just fur her too! And something special too fur Mommy in a card ta helps. All I know is that it means tha world ta me that so many people love Mommy and Kitty and me so much-so much that they care and want ta share tha sadness and the special heart place with us.

No matter how much hearts can hurt and be broken, it's tha furrriends that share the Power of the Paw and Purrrrrs of Thunders that help get us through it all and fur Mommy and Kitty ta has that, well, it means the world ta me.

Thanks furs and furrriends and pawrents fur being tha best support that Mommy and Kitty evfur had. I feel good and happy knowing that you all has stepped in and helped take ovfur my Nurse Indy powers with such Love.

Purrrrs and bonks,
Indy

Indiana...this song is my song for you

Little one, how long I've waited here
Waited for so many lonely years
Nobody ever could make me smile
'Til you came 'round with your pretty style
And I will love you so And I will love you so
'Cause I was made for you
And you were made for me
And that is all I know
You're all that I can see
'Cause I was made for loving you
And all the little things you do
Remind me who I am inside
Happiness is such a fickle thing
Nothing compares to what you can bring
You can bring meaning to what I do
That is why I want to be with you
And I will love you so And I will love you so
'Cause I was made for you
And you were made for me
And that is all I know
You're all that I can see
'Cause I was made for loving you
And all the little things you do
Remind me who I am inside
My darling, I need you I'd give myself to please you
My darling, I need you I want you to be mine
'Cause I was made for you
And you were made for me
And that is all I know
You're all that I can see
'Cause I was made for you
And you were made for me
And that is all I know
You're all that I can see
'Cause I was made for loving you
And all the little things you do
Remind me who I am inside
Remind me who I am inside Remind me who I am inside...

one month Rainbow Bridge annipurrrsary

Dear Indy,
I can't believe that tomorrow will be one whole month that you have been gone. When I go to bed at night and wake up in the morning I still sometimes expect to hear your little chirp and feel you jump into and out of bed with your sleepy eyes and knead the blankie to put you to sleep and to wake up.

Kitty has decided she likes to sleep on your blankie too-not the one you and I cuddled on in the living room (that one is special for you and me only) but the one on the bed with the lambs face. She even started to knead it too and you know she never did that except on my tummy sometimes! She misses you a lot I think, even if she is zip zap zooming all over the apartment! She still mews and looks around and I think it's because she still thinks you might pop out somewhere...she also took over your spot on the one window perch in the bedroom you liked and on the tree in the dining room.

I miss you so much. Even cleaning up your stinky poopies of deaffffths! MOL! I hope you are happy and have made lots of furrriends at the Bridge. I met this nice man too who is going to help me not to be so sad and who will teach me to think only the good thoughts about you, because he said you wouldn't want me to be so sad and lost without you.

Tomorrow I think I am going to watch some Indiana Jones movies for you! I still haven't found the purrrfect place for you to "rest" that's not right beside me, but I pawromise I will find a special place for you.

I Love you and Miss you!

the reason I became an Angel kitty

Mommy got the results from my necropsy this morning. She is too upset to write fur herself, so I wanted ta spread my Angel Wings of Love and write it for her.

From what the doc doc read, I became an Angel because of a bacterial infection in my chest cavity, which was caused by some kinda injury that had to have taken place at most, a week before my trip to Heaven...but Mommy also read that it could be something from a hurt on my chest a long time ago and it takes awhile fur tha clinical signs ta show...she doesn't know what ta thinks...some of tha bacteria was made of normal feline oral bacteria, which means it may have come from a bite, which could have been as teeny tiny as a pin point puncture, and that's why it coulda been missed, since there were no boo-boos on me or anything. Or it could've come from injesting or inhaling a bacteria in the air or something, which creates kinda a block where it can't heal 'cause the bacteria just keeps getting bigger and more, which is what the doc doc said that the lab doc said-that I had bacterial lumps formed all ovfur or something(Mommy won't be certain about the details till she reads it for herselfs)

Because of where it was in my insides, tha infection was kinda stucks and I guess that's why the hospital doc didn't see it? She only knew I was furrrrry sick and had an awful infection I was fighting cause of my WBC count, and that I had fluid in my chest, but tha xrays only showed how big my liver was. It would've been hard ta treat too, she told Mommy. And she told Mommy that it was such a sad and awful accident and tragedy but that she did evfurrything right and I was just too sick.

My liver was a strange color too, but tha lab doc doc, from what the doc told Mommy, didn't find a specific cause for that.

She is gonna get tha paperwork tonight so she can read it fur herself. I just haff ta say again, thank you all fur loving me so much and my mommy too, and Kitty Pryde. I know Mommy is having a tough time right now and is upset that what if Kitty bit me and that caused this, but Kitty is my sisfur and her baby girl and didn't mean anything, if that's what happened. Mommy also was gonna try ta send out thank yous too, but she needs ta wait again now, 'cause from what I can see and feel from the Bridge, it's gonna be hard ta read all your wonderful messages again right now. But THANK YOU!

I love you all so much and so does Mommy and Kitty Pryde.

Love and treats furevfur,
Indiana

PS: Mommy has been reading now on tha computer about this, and a couple places said if it was a bite, that it would be one from a long time ago...soooo confooooosed!!! And I was indoor only so I don't know if I would'a gotten something from tha outside, but the doc doc mentioned something like that to Mommy too, so maybe bacteria came in from tha windows?

http://www.petplace.com/cats/pyothorax-in-cats/p age1.aspx
http://www.petmd.com/cat/conditions/respiratory/c _ct_pyothorax

I am home.

Well guess what! I, well, my ashes were sent to mommy and Kitty Pryde yestfurday. Even though the Bridge is kewl, I am happy that some part of me is back with them. Mommy got a huge shock and surprise 'cause fur some reason my necropsy results are taking furevfur and the lady at the hospital said I wouldn't return ta her until evfurrything was complete, but then she called and they said all this othfur stuff and somehow I was finished way befure she thought or anticipated. Plus, the place made a nice box fur me with my name in gold on tha top too, when the hospital said it wouldn't be fancy at all, so I am golden like a top cat now with my golden crown and my name in gold!

I did watch Mommy though when she and Kitty opened tha package...I felt so sad that I couldn't be with her and give her my paw fur comfurrrts. Kitty sniffed tha box and then Mommy opened it and got so sad and I watched as she sat there fur like furevfur...ok it was just like an hour I thinks...just looking at tha box trying ta figure out what ta do with it and wondering if she should open it. Just ta see and make sure I am alright in there. I usta not like tha dark so much so she always left a light on, I guess 'cause I was always clumsy MOL!

Kitty has been taking such good care of Mommy fur me tho, and mommy is taking good care of her. She had some sleepover advenshuuures this weekend with my buddy and they cuddled, I guess 'cause I wasn't there ta have my dude time. Omc! She even met a HUUUUUGE snakie named Vincenzo! I checked out that dude's cage but I nevfur saw'd him! Kitty akshully watched him and mewed and mewed at Mommy until she woke up and led her ta check him out too! That's my sis! Taking ovfur tha Watchcat duties MOL! I still am the head Watchcat, even tho I'm at the Rainbow Bridge-I even sent myself as a kitten into Mommy's dreams and she saw I was ok.

I guess that all fur now! There's so much ta do! I just got wings you see, and am gettin some flyin lessons!

Purrrrs,
Indy tha Angel

I Miss You

Dear Indiana,

My sweet little boobalicious, I cannot believe that it has already been a week since you've been gone. I miss you more than words can even comprehend and my heart aches so much. My heart is so heavy because of how much I LOVE AND MISS YOU and it's so full of love at the same time from all of the support I never even knew or expected to have. I am shocked and blown away with the outpouring of love and support from all the people and furrriends who loved you soo much and are missing you too.

Kitty Pryde is heartbroken too. I bet you knew that though-that even when you would chase her and try to play tag, that even when she ran she still loved you. She's been looking for you and has been asking me where you are and why you had to go away. All I can do is love her and comfort her like she is comforting me.

I've been having a fight with myself between my head and my heart. My heart loved you so much and is making me feel that somehow I failed you because you've always been a little more fragile and delicate than Kitty, and how couldn't I have known better and taken you to the doctor sooner, or made stronger choices when taking you to the vet doc doc, but my head keeps telling me that I need to forgive myself because I did the best I could and took care of you better than anyone else would have. I know you knew how much I loved you though and maybe that's why you decided it was time to go while I was in the next room, because you knew how much harder it would've been. You knew me better than I knew myself because even when I fought my feelings when I was sick or sad, you always were right there to comfort me and love me unconditionally, and put your paw on my cheek to let me know everything would be ok.

I understand now that I didn't love you more than Kitty Pryde, you just needed more love because you knew you wouldn't be with us forever.

I could write so much more, but right now I need to stop because it still hurts so much. No one will ever replace you. I love you and miss you. And I am so thankful for all the love everyone has for us. Thank you for giving me and everyone else that gift.

Love forever and ever,
Mommy

so many thank mews!

Hi furrrriends,
I can't believe I'm an Angel! This is so kewl! I have met so many furriends here when I got to tha bridge, and made new furriends too! I miss my mommy though and even my sisfur. It's so weird, all I remember is being with my mommy and then the nice vet doc and then I heard lots of saddness and felt lots of love in the air and then I wasn't hurting anymore.

My mommy is so grateful for all your messages and love that you have all sent. I know she wants to say thank you to everyone, and she will try as soon as she can. I want to thank you too because I know I'm not as popular as some kits on here, and yet I feel so loved.

Its such a hard thing. I never thought I wouldn't grow old. I just started ta get my man whiskers too under my chin. But I'm not feeling bad and that's awwwl that matters. I will try ta write more soon. I'm still trying ta get used to this lovely place. I gotta get wings too! Maybe someone can halps me when you has extra time :)

Love always and Bonks,
Indiana

Indiana made his journey to the bridge

This morning Indiana went to the Bridge. I still can't believe it or understand it, but he started having trouble breathing while I was waiting for him at the vet, then I heart him scream out and then they were doing CPR. He was too far gone though. I'm still processing this...I am getting a necropsy though because I have to know what happened.
Thank you for all the purrrrrs. We love you so much
Love Kitty Pryde and Kristin

Indy is very sick

Hi Furrriends,
This is Indy's mom taking over this morning. I'm at the animal hospital right now to pick Indy up to then take him to another specialty vet where he will be seeing an Internist and get an ultrasound. Everything is kind of a blur right now, but he started acting unlike himself this weekend. I knew something was def wrong by Monday because he hadn't eaten really since Sunday afternoon and he wouldn't go potty and he was hiding from me.

He did seem to be a little better Monday because he was peeing and drinking a little, so I didn't take him to the er yet because I was following advice from the holistic doc I had recently been seeing. Tues he was not better so I took him in. Basically, from what I remember now, his levels on all his bloodwork are way off. His wbc count is higher than they could imagine, and they did the test more than once to make sure. His liver is enlarged(why he's getting an ultrasound) but basically they think he may have leukemia or even worse, maybe FIP.

I know it doesn't help to worry but I just can't stop crying. I thought I was taking good care of him, how could I not know he was so sick??? He has been ok for the most part, and with this holistic vet he seemed to be great. I am sicking with scientific medicine for now-I know at least there is science behind it. Please purrray for indy. Kitty has been mewing around the house since last night, she knows something is not right. I'm not sure what till happen once I go to the new play, but will keep you posted on my boobalicious.

Love Kristin