Mom lost a piece of her when I died

Tallulah reporting from the Rainbow Bridge earth window...I have been very busy learning all the ropes here, there is always something to do and friends to help...we do have fun up here....


Well I haven't been around much lately not only because I have been busy, but mostly because Mom is now having a hard time coming to my page...when she was busy with spreading the word about breast cancer is wasn't so hard, now that it is slowing down a little Mom has been very sad.

You see Mom has realized that when I died she lost a piece of her and she knows she will never get it back....this has been so hard on Mom she fought so hard for me and hoped against all odds that I would be one in a million that I would survive, but that wasn't to be, God had other plans for me.

Moms heart is so broken, she is lonely without me with her on earth and so sad...she hides it mostly she doesn't want others to know, but I know one day down the road she will feel better. I thought bringing her and Tu Two together would help her and she is don't get me wrong she has helped, but no one and I mean no one will ever be able to give Mom back that piece of her that I took with me....I was so special to her, we loved each other so much, the bond we had was so special especially when I got sick that bond grew even more...how do I help Mom, I am not sure I can help her except come to her in the night and give her little angel kisses...most of the time now she doesn't know that I am there except in her heart she knows I am with her...she grieves for me all the time, some times it is easier for her and out of the blue she will cry, it doesn't matter where she is or what she is doing she will think of something about me, think she sees me and she will cry...

Well I gotta go to another class that is one that teaches me how I can help my Mom more, I know the piece I took with me can't be given back but I am going to try to help her though this...Mom I love you and will always be right there with you...

Tallulah signing out for now....know that I am watching over you all, praying for you, sending healing dust to those that need it...and Mom is here to help support others, maybe that is one way for Mom to heal to help others like she has been doing...

QT Angel in Pink

Breast Cancer Awareness

Angel Tallulah from heaven, sorry I haven't been in writing in my diary been busy learning all of the special things us angels do in heaven...I have been watching over some of my friends Kaci, doggies Sunny and Quincy. Us angels have been kept very busy and when one of our friends makes their journey we are all there to meet them with open paws and wings. An Angels job is never done!!!I have been with Mom too she still needs me to be with her.

Now the important thing I need to say to all of our friends...

Mom has been sending lots of our catster friends and Moms my picture, story and kitty breast cancer ribbon...

MY PICTURE IS ALL OVER THE UNITED STATES, IN ENGLAND, CANADA AND AUSTRALIA...WOW CAN YOU BELIEVE IT....

Kitty breast cancer is being spread everywhere and Mom has asked my to THANK ALL OF YOU THAT HAVE MY PICTURE AND STORY, SHE IS SO OVERWHELMED AT HOW OUR FRIENDS ARE HELPING TO SPREAD THE WORD, NOT JUST FOR ME BUT FOR ALL THE KITTIES THAT HAVE OR HAD BREAST CANCER...WE ARE SO PROUD THAT I AM REPRESENTING ALL OF US...OUR HOPE IS TO EDUCATE PET PARENTS AND HOPE TO KEEP LITTLE GIRL KITTIES FROM GETTING THE NASTY BREAST CANCER...

There are no words we can say except THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF OUR HEARTS....we love you all, thank you for helping and supporting me when I was still on earth and now in heaven. Know that I am watching over all of you....

Sending much love and lots of hugs from heaven...

Well I need to go and watch over some special kitties and doggies that are in need of our angel love and help...

Talk soon!!!!

QT angel in pink

IT WILL BE 2 MONTHS TOMORROW

Tallulah reporting from heaven can you all believe it has been 2 months since I made my journey to the bridge. I am with special kitty angels, we are having a wonderpurr time waiting for our human Moms and Dads to come be with us...

I send my Mom butterflies and some of my special friends butterflies too..know that I am with you all and love each of you..

Since I have gone Mom has cried so much, I do hope with time she will not cry as much I know it takes time for humans to heal. I have given her a gift of sweet Tu Two she is helping Mom, but she still misses me. I will be with Mom and help her through this time she feels me and knows I am right there with her day in and day out.


A PET'S LOSS

In your heart, you probably realize that in time the sadness you are feeling will fade.
For now, just know that it's all right to hurt
I hurt with you
it's all right to cry..
I share your tears.
It is only through crying that you learn what it's really like to laugh..
only after feeling sadness can you really experience joy.
So allow yourself to feel what comes natural...
but know that someday life will be better..
it will be easier to smile.
Renee Duvall


This is for you Mom from Me all the way from heaven....

It is OK to cry, you have lost me on earth, but I am always with you in your heart & memories, I will never leave....just look for the butterflies and look at Tu Two remember I have sent her to you to help bring you joy again and love...she loves you already, you know it don't you...I know you are hurt and you grieve for me that is OK Mom we had a wonderful bond and we had a special relationship you and I....I know you did everything you could for me and more...you gave me a wonderful home and life, I am just sad I had to leave so soon. I know you wanted me to grow old with you and I had every intention of doing just that, but God had other plans for me...I am your special girl always Mom so cry and grieve for me, but one day it will get better and you will have a smile on your face again when you remember me...and then one day I will see you coming to the rainbow bridge and I will run so fast and jump into your arms so we can snuggle again and I can get your kisses and love, then your other babies will join us, we will be all over you and you will have the biggest smile on your face, your heart will be over joyed with love once again...til then I am here with your other sweet babies-Sidney, Dartie, Bobby-Lynn, Chunk, Bo and Star...we are all waiting for you Mom to come be with us..

Tallulah you angel in pink in heaven

Tonight

Tonight Mom was on Tu Two's page seeing all of her gifts for being Diary of the Day...oh how proud I am of my sweet little sisfur Tu Two...

Well Mom saw the picture of me as an angel on heavens stairs and all of a sudden she started crying and crying...she realized that yes I am really gone and a beautiful angel now...she isn't crying for sadness she cried because I am so loved and so beautiful as her an angel like I was on earth..

The out pouring of love for me is still here and everyone is so wonderful to Mom..and wants to help Mom with letting others know kitties and doggies too get breast cancer...I guess when she saw my pictures it was overwhelming for her to see me as gone, but not forgotten..

This is what Catster is all about LOVE AND MORE LOVE, SUPPORT AND MORE SUPPORT for families that need the love and support..like we so lovingly have gotten, not all of the other things that are not that important...sometimes you don't realize it until it is too late...SO EVEN THOUGH MOM CRIED WHEN SHE SAW MY PICTURE IT WAS FROM THE LOVE SHE HAS FOR ME NOW AND FOREVER AND FOR THE LOVE ALL OF YOU HAVE SHOWN US...

Queen Tallulah Angel in Pink

MOM RECIEVED A SPECIAL GIFT TODAY

Hello my friends Tallulah here for Mom today!

You see when Mom got home from walking dogs she found a package on our front porch. She brought it in and when she read who it was from she had no idea who sent this package...

To Mom's surprise the CRAZY CAT LADY FRIENDS sent Mom a MEMORY BOX OF ME...YES OF ME....

It is a wooden box and on the top is the most beautiful painted tile of me, yes me from the picture of me wearing my Calvin breast cancer awareness collar...it looks just like me...Mom is amazed that someone we don't even know could paint my picture on a tile and she got me just as Mom remembers me...her Sweet Tallulah..

When Mom saw it she just sat in her chair and cried and cried and cried...not from sadness, yes a little sadness because she still misses me, but mostly from seeing this beautiful box of me and to know how loved I was by Cat Moms that we only know from being on Catster never have met them in person...the love mom feels from this precious gift is overwhelming and she will cherish this beautiful gift always, she will not only think of me and all of the ladies that so lovingly gave to Mom...Now I let Mom type to you.

THERE ARE NO WORDS TO SAY TO THE MOMS EXCEPT THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR GIVING ME MY MEMORY BOX OF MY PRECIOUS TALLULAH

CRAZY CAT LADY FRIENDS:
CAROL BINKLEY
FELICIA BURNETT
JEANETTE CERESKE
MARTHA CIATTEI
DANA DUNN
KELLY HAUTALA
SARAH MELCHER
TERRY MORINVILLE
JENNIFER ROGERSON
JO ANN SIZER
WENDY SPIESMAN

I would like to thank each of you personally so if you would let me know your cats name so I can do so...I do know a couple of you, but as we all know we know kitty names not always their Moms names...

THANK YOU FOR GIVING MY MOM THIS BEAUTIFUL GIFT SO SHE CAN PUT MEMENTOS OF ME IN IT...SHE HAS SOME OF MY HAIR, A WHISKER AND A CLIPPING OF MY CLAW IN A LAMINATED POUCH TO PUT IN AND MY COLLAR WITH MY ST FRANCES OF ASSISI MEDAL ON IT AND MY SPECIAL COLLAR FROM CALVIN AND HAZEL LUCY THAT MOM WILL PUT IN MY BOX...

Thank you all, this is what catster is all about!!! the love for one another!!!!

Tallulah from heaven with my pink wings &

Mom

PS. Mom took pictures of my memory box and now she needs to put it on my page for all to see...QT

Two things to report

This is Tallulah Reporting one last time about this weekends San Francisco 3 day walk...everyone is home, resting, all the pink tents are gone, all is quite...they have moved on to the next city that will have the 3 day walk...

Well it was so emotional this weekend for Mom, not this sadness but with joy and happiness to know that our work to spread the word about kitty breast cancer was happening thanks to Chai and Guido's Moms...Chai's Mom Jeannette was the walker and Guido's Mom was working but she did talk about me...

Jeanette finally called Mom and she wanted Mom to know that she had a T shirt for everyday when she walked. The first day she met a wife and husband she told them about me and kitty breast cancer...they didn't know kitties got breast cancer as so many don't know either...they love cats and will do research on it just like Mom did when she found out I had the nasty C....

Well out of all of the people walking Jeanette ran into them another day when they were at one of the stops and the lady told Chai's Mom that she remembers her because of Tallulah and kitty breast cancer, she told her she will always remember her...WOW that is amazing just think how many people were there and they saw each other again...was it meant to be so this lady would let Jeanette know how much my story affected her...I think so!!!!it made it all worth I think!!!!

Chai's Mom also told Mom about seeing the butterfly I sent to let her know I was there...Mom told her I would send one and I didn't let them down...Angels always show humans they are there, you just have to believe...Mom does believe and she sees butterflies all the time...she knows I am there always and always.

So one final word is there are no words to express how we are feeling now...but thrilled and this is so awesome for so many to want to help us get the word out about kitty breast cancer.

We pray for all those that have died, those that have been diagnosed with it and those that are sick from it...know we are praying for you all and as an angel now I will be watching over them all and sending love.

Signing out from San Francisco...this is QT angel in pink and so proud of Jeanette for the 60 miles she walked, helping Mom and Me..

Lastly my new sisfur I helped Mom see and adopt, my name sake got her last shot today I am flying over her putting my fluffy pink wings on her and helping her tonight, she isn't feeling good and it always worries Mom when her furbabies get shots, I will watch over her all night...

QT

DAY 3 OF THE SAN FRANCISCO BREAST CANCER WALK

Hi my friends this is Tallulah reporting on the last day of the Crazy Cat Ladies walk and journey to the end of their 60 miles in San Francisco....

It was a foggy morning with the sound of the fog horn in the background, then hearing the zippers of the walkers pink tents being opened as they were awakening to begin their final journey to finish their 60 mile walk & to celebrate..

They walked to Union Square, it was a beautiful misty morning walking on and through the Presidio and Golden Gate Park so peaceful walking today, Jeanette Chai's Mom & team was almost done, I was there whispering in her ear you can do it you can do it, just a little more and you will reach the end..

On to the Civic Center that was around 12:12pm and only 4.5 miles to go

Still cheering her on and helping her & the team get to the end of the journey, @ 2:35pm today Jeanette & team finished they made the 60 mile walk....HIP HIP HOORAY GREAT JOB AND WELL DONE!!!!MOM AND I ARE SO PROUD OF YOU...

WOW 60 MILES THEY WALKED IN 3 DAYS FOR A CURE...

Crazy Cat Lady Team Mom and I thank you for the pleasure of being your mascot and helping to cheer you on these last few days...to know that you honored me with making me your mascot we thank you from the bottom of our hearts...you and Calvin's Mom started this all for me and Mom to keep my fight going to get the word out about breast cancer in kitties, but we are fighting too to get the word out about other deadly illnesses in pets...and we will keep the fight one way or the other.

Well my friends we are waiting to hear from Jeanette tonight, she told Mom she has a great story to share with Mom...Mom can't wait!!!!

So in closing this 3 day walk and me being Crazy Cat Ladies Team Mascot it has been an amazing 3 days seeing all of the people sharing in the same cause breast cancer, seeing all of the pink, people cheering them on, bringing the butterfly to show my team I was really there with them...I know it was very emotional for everyone, one day with help of so many people there will be a cure for breast cancer, til then please help me and Mom help pet parents know that they need to check their pets for lumps, get pets spayed and neutered by 6 months it my save their pets life...

My next journey watching will be to cheer on Calvin's Mom in November, she will be wearing a ribbon with me, Ava, Queen Mu's and other I might have forgotten in our memory...so I will be there helping her walk her 60 miles...we hope to let you know how she is doing on her walk....we will see if we can!

Queen Tallulah Angel in Pink signing out for tonight...

sending love and hugs from heaven, when you see butterflies think of me and who knows it may really be me checking on you and visiting with my friends...I send butterflies to Mom all the time...MOM I LOVE YOU AND THANK YOU FOR SAYING YES TO ME BEING THE CRAZY CAT LADIES TEAM MASCOT...

QT

Angel Queen Tallulah Reporting from the 3 Day Walk Camp

Hi my friends from the grounds of the camp for the San Francisco 3 Day Walk it is a little after 9 pm on October 2, 2010...

I am outside of the Crazy Cat ladies pink tent, one of hundreds of pink tents...what a pretty sight to see...oh how I love pink....

Well Chai's Mom Jeanette and her team started the day out with fog, after eating their breakfast and getting ready to start their 20 mile walk they were on their way...

They were greeted by the Coasties ringing the bells, what a wonderful sound it was...they walked over the Golden Gate Bridge what a sight that was to see...all the people walking mostly in pink a sea of pink so pretty...

They also walked in Sausalito a beautiful place to take a walk...they marched on and on.

Mom told Jeanette to watch for a butterfly because I would send one to her to let her know I was there for her...

you know what I sent her a Monarch butterfly (it is another word for King or Queen)...Mom knows it was me letting my team know I was really there for them, I couldn't let them down now could I....they are helping Mom and I wanted to make them so proud of me so I came to them like I come to Mom in the form of a beautiful butterfly.

Now that the day is done, they are all fed, showered and settled in for he night in their pink tent...hope they don't have anymore mousies...

So nite from the camp grounds of pink tents for the 3 day walk. Tomorrow is the last day another 20 miles to go and then the celebration will begin for them..

This is Crazy Cat Ladies team mascot Tallulah signing out for the evening...next report tomorrow evening when they are all done...til then sending heavenly kisses and hugs to all my friends!!!

QT angel in pink

Reporting from San Francisco

Hello friends, I am reporting to you from my teams tent this evening...they are having fun, finished their walk but they are tired...

They are telling the walkers about me and my story, they are all touched by my story...hope they will tell others and help spread the word...

Jeanette thank you for helping me and Mom you are a true supporter of breast cancer both in humans and kitties....you rock and keep on walking!!!!


Mom got some text messages tonight from jeanette telling her they are having an amazing time too...they also told Mom they are in their tent and there are mice, so guess what I will be doing tonight besides watching over my team....yes you are right getting the mice out of the tent or should I say trying to.

Well it is time to for me to get busy..you all have a wonderful evening and thanks for stopping by...this is Tallulah reporting from San Francisco in the tent of the Crazy Cat ladies...more tomorrow on their progress...

QT team mascot and angel in pink

3 DAY BREAST CANCER WALK

Hi my friends all the way from heaven,

The next 3 days I will be busy you see I have an important job to do on earth, I will be with Chai Latte's Mom Jeanette and her CRAZY CAT LADIES TEAM in San Francisco I am their team mascot so I have to be there every step of the way.

I will be cheering them on, keeping them safe and I will even try to send Jeanette Chai Latte's Mom a butterfly to let her know I am there, but with all of the crowd of people walking it may not happen.

Even though I can't be there with them in person me and Mom are keeping in touch with Jeanette via phone, email and even blogging. As we get information Mom and I will update you.

This is so fun and so important because they are wearing T Shirts with me on them and they are spreading the word about kitty breast cancer our hope is to reach out to let humans know that YES KITTIES AND EVEN DOGGIES DO IN FACT GET BREAST CANCER...

So for the next 3 days please help me and tell at least one human about me and how breast cancer does affect kitties and doggies, girl kitties die from the cancer, if not breast cancer then the tumors attack the lungs and that is what I died from...

This is an important job me and Mom are doing and we hope you my friends will help out.

So I gotta go I need to catch up with Jeanette and her team I think I will try to get the butterfly to show up for them...I am on a mission...signing out for now QT

Angel In Pink....


PS...Tallulah's Mom if any of you would like Tallulah's picture and story I have made to pass out please let me know and I will send to you so you too can spread the word not only about my Tallulah but other kitties that have been affected by breast cancer.

Sending love to you all

Peggy and Talulah my angel