Dear Alfie

I am so tired tonight Alfie. It's been a long day and I am so glad that it's Friday and I have a couple off days of work.

Ollie and Dave have been fighting all day. A neighbour said that every time Dave tried to go anywhere today outside, that Ollie was there waiting for him and just kept attacking him for no reason. He is a jealous puss and he does like to let Dave know who is boss. He is going to be so sorry one day Alfie because Dave is a really big cat and if he decided to retaliate he could probably hurt Ollie, but thankfully Dave is a big softie.

You and Dave were the best of friends. The day we picked you up from the vets and brought you home to live with us, Dave was horrified and growled at you like dog. He did not like the way you ran so fast and darted around the room, and then we realised that this great big softie was frightened of you. You used to wait until Dave was asleep and then you would just gradually creep up to him and start playing wih his tail. It didn't take him long to realise that you were a fantastic playmate. I used to find you curled up together on the sofa and in the basket asleep together.

Dave, like the rest of us is missing you Alfie, but he is getting there. He is curled up on the sofa asleep and he looks like a great big soft teddy laying there.

I am off to bed now Alfie because I need some sleep.

Goodnight sweetheart. Goodnight.

Dear Alfie

It is now just over 6 weeks since you died. Where did the time go? It is really hard to believe that the time has passed. When you died I didn't think I could make it through day, let alone 6 whole weeks. I thought the hole in my heart would never heal. It was such an incredibly hard and lonely time.

6 weeks later I find that I have survived what I can only describe as an ordeal. Something I never want to go through again. I cannot believe how painful and how devastating it was. The intense pain has turned to sadness but I can now smile again when I think of you.

We have been both been very fortunate Alfie, if it had not been for the Catster website I would not have had so much love, comfort and support and I would never have known about Rainbow Bridge. You Alfie would not have had the love and comfort that you have received from Angel Alfie and Moma Ivey who look after you and keep you safe. All the lovely kittens who have recently journeyed to Rainbow Bridge would not have had you their to greet them and show them the way.

I believe you were taken so young for a very special reason Alfie, but I will always wish that you were still with us. You will always hold a very special place in our hearts. You were and still are our beautiful darling furbaby.

God Bless you for the joy you brought us.

Goodnight little darling. Goodnight.

Dear Sweet Alfie

Today was just a normal day - no fantastic highs and no depressing lows - just a normal ordinary day....

Alfie a special friend is going through a tough time and we need to look after her. Please ask Angel Alfie, Moma Ivey and all the little kittens to send some Angel magic her way because she needs it. She is a very special lady and she is hurting.

I looked at lots of your photos today Alfie and they brought a smile to my face. The hole in my heart is mending. You did that Alfie because you are such a special, beautiful boy.

You are Mummy's special soul kitty and I love you.

Goodnight precious baby. Goodnight.

Darling Alfie

Oh how I miss you Alfie. I would do anything if I could just have you back for a short time so that I could cuddle you and you could snuggle up under my chin.

Your memories are so sweet. I can just see you and Dave playing together. The way you would run and tempt him into chasing you was just a delight to watch. He would pin you down and when you drove him mad he would just lay on you and you would squeal for me to save you. It was just so much fun.

For the first time in a while Alfie I feel happy. It is a lovely feeling.

Something tells me you are working your magic on me from Rainbow Bridge.

I love you Alfie. Goodnight sweetheart.

Dear Alfie

I'm tired. I've had one of those days today. The Monday morning blues. I hate Mondays plain and simple.

You got DDP again today Alfie. You've had a lot of congratulatory emails. You've had a couple of lovely pictures sent to you which I'll be putting on your page this weekend so that everyone can see them.

I am going to create a page for Ollie this weekend. I am beginning to feel guilty that he hasn't yet got his own page. He is a right character Alfie and I know that you were very wary of him and rightly so. He was jealous of you when you arrived Alfie. To say he was not best pleased when you arrived is an understatement. It is going to take ages to find some really nice pictures of him when he was a kitten because they are real photos. Ollie was born in 1998 and we didn't have a computer then let alone a digital camera. How times have changed.

If you had lived Alfie I am sure that Ollie would have come round to you, perhaps not in quite the same way that
Dave came to adore you but I think he would have liked having you around in the end.

I love you Alfie. Goodnight sweet darling.

Dear Alfie

Today was busy. It was Gemma's (our daughter) 30th birthday today and we all went out for lunch. The food was lovely and I didn't have to cook so that was a bonus. We were all there, Me, Dad, David (son) his girlfriend, Gemma and Patrick, Reece and Chloe (grandchildren). It was a lovely gathering Alfie and everyone had a good time.

I was watching TV earlier and there was a programme with a sad scene in it. All of a sudden the tears were flowing and I was cuddling the cushion thinking of you. I suppose this is how it will be at sad moments.

I am not always sad Alfie, that would be just too much to bear. When I think of you trying to get the snooker balls on the TV and how puzzled you were when they disappeared, and how you went behind the TV to try find them. These are the thoughts that lift my heart Alfie and make me smile.

You are a sweet boy, who has given us sweet memories.

Goodnight sweet darling. Goodnight.

My Darling Alfie

It is one month today since you died. I cannot believe that the time has passed.

I can remember watching you fall to sleep in my arms. It was so peaceful you just closed your eyes and it was over.

The doctor at the hospital said that you had not yet experienced any pain that you had felt "grotty", but that you would soon. We did not want that for you Darling Alfie we wanted to spare you pain.

This last month has been a real rollercoaster of pain and emotion. It has gone from intense pain to extreme sadness to laughter at some of your antics to heartswelling love when I've looked at pictures and back again.

We know that you loved us Alfie we could tell when you looked into our eyes.

We will all be together again one day Alfie, but until that day comes you fly free at Rainbow Bridge.

Goodnight my sweet baby. We love you.

Dear Alfie

I read little Milo's diary tonight. He has been at Rainbow Bridge for a week. His mummy's diary mirrors my own feelings a week after you died.

The intense pain has dulled to sadness and the memories bring joy.

I will always miss the way you used to snuggle up to me on the sofa with your head under my chin. It was pure magic.

Goodnight my sweet baby.

Darling Alfie

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I have been reading the thread above. It made me so mad, and so upset. How can there be so much cruelty. It is just so frightening to think that this can happen.

Alfie you had a very short life, but I know that you were very happy. I remember the nurses at the vets telling me that when all the other little kittens in your litter had been collected and you were on your own before we came to get you, they used to wear you around their neck like a little collar and took you everywhere with them. You loved it and they adored you.

When you came home with us we played with you and looked after you and loved you. Dave growled at you and didn't like you to begin with, but in a very short space of time and you were his best friend. He loved you too!

In your very short life Alfie you were very fortunate that you never experienced cruelty only love.

You were a much loved member of our family. We miss you and were very lucky to have you.

Darling Alfie

Oh how we miss you. I cannot believe that four whole weeks have passed since I last saw your beautiful little face. It seems such a long time ago and yet it seems like yesterday.

The days are not so sad now. I have times when I even smile when I see pictures of you. Dad found some video footage of you on the camcorder, but I can't bring myself to watch it yet even though I want to.

Things are getting better day by day Alfie. You are still the first thought on my mind in the morning and the last thought on my mind before I go to sleep. Sometimes I swear I can feel you laying on my shoulder before I go to sleep. It is a really lovely feeling Alfie.

I know you are safe at Rainbow Bridge Alfie with Moma Ivey and Angel Alfie to take care of you.

Goodnight sweet baby. Goodnight.