January 24th 2011 1:00 pm
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We who choose to surround ourselves
with lives even more temporary than our own,
live within a fragile circle,
easily and often breached.
Unable to accept its awful gaps,
we will would live no other way
We cherish memory as the only certain immortality,
never fully understanding the necessary plan.
Taken from Heal Your Heart Coping with the Loss of a Pet a CD of affirmations and inspiration by Karen Litzinger
Mom got this CD in hopes it will help her heal, I sure hope it will help her, everyday is a hard day for Mom, she misses me so, she just wishes to hold me and kiss me....I have now been gone for 5 months as of yesterday & I miss Mom too.
Mom went to the Cat Fanciers cat show on Saturday, she wore the T shirt Chai Latte's Mom sent to Mom, she had my beautiful necklace on and my 2 charms named in my honor. When people saw the front of the shirt with the Crazy Cat Ladies they asked Mom about it and she told them my story, she passed out my pins to cat owners and Vendors...everyone she talked to did not know about kitty breast cancer...so now there are more helping Mom spread the word about breast cancer.
It was hard for Mom to talk about me, but she knew she had to do it and let others know what happened to me. She also went over to the Friends of Cats booth where she adopted me from to talk to them, the man she used to volunteer with was not there, but she did talk to the others that were there. Now when she can write a letter to Friends of Cats she will let them know, but not now she is not ready.
Oh and I guided Mom to a Vendor that had T shirts that I wanted Mom to see....They had shirts made up to help breast cancer because some of the ladies that show cats or are judges have or had breast cancer....this was there way of supporting them...
Mom looked at them and could not believe it the shirt she got was pink of course pink for me, it has a white kitty with black and it says Purr for a Cure...Mom bought it right then and there...she took a picture now she needs to put it on my page so you all can see...Mom thinks it is purrfect!
Well I have been so busy with my beautiful garden and all of the butterflies...so many of my angel friends from catster and my family angels are working with me to make this a wonderpurr garden for all of us. We are now putting in fountains and benches, so peaceful and we all meditate. We put beautiful kitty and doggie angel statues around too and we have bells with all of our names on them. Every time they ring another angel receives their wings.
I was also busy getting ready to crown my baby sisfur Tu Two princess, after all I am the Queen and I helped her find Mom, so she is now Princess Tu Two watcher over butterflies that we send to earth for our Moms.
Sending all my love and angel kisses, healing purrs for all that are sick, not feeling well.
January 19th 2011 2:19 pm
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My memories are keepsakes
From which I'll never part
God has you in his keeping
I have you in my heart.
Although your presence is gone
And you cannot be touched
I thank God for the memories
They will always mean so much.
November 22nd 2010 7:29 pm
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Tallulah my sweet angel and special friend has been gone 3 months tomorrow. I am writing this tonight because I know I will not be able to be on catster tomorrow, just too hard for me.
I still miss my girl so much, she fought a good fight, but in the end it was not to be...she was needed in heaven to help others...I have continued her fight with reaching out to others and letting them know about kitty breast cancer, not just for my Tallulah but for all of the kitties that have lost their battle with breast cancer & those still fighting. Know you are not alone....
This has been not only a hard time for me, but a special time with Tallulah helping 2 Moms walk the 3 day breast cancer walk, being honored by them both Chai Latte's Mom and Calvin Knead On's Mom. There are so many honoring her all over the world by helping to spread the word.
There are so many to say thanks to I can't begin to name you all but you know who you are, thank you from the bottom of my heart for helping me, support me and loving my girl...So many gifts I have received, getting her memory box from special Moms the Crazy Cat Ladies a big thank you again what a loving gift my beautiful box and a surprise. I received a beautiful necklace made by Amelia'a Mom I wear it proudly.
Now Simba from the UK his Mom asked if she could name her pretty pin charms after my sweet girl, of course I said yes another way to honor my Tallulah...she is sending them to me as a gift and I will take pictures and put on her page.
Tallulah my angel in pink who would have known you would be known all of the world helping pet parents learn about kitty breast cancer, learning about you and your fight, having T-shorts made because you were a mascot for 3 day walk in San Francisco....I am amazed and I know you are happy too...
3 months ago tonight it was our last night together, you came to slept with me our last, when I woke my hardest decision came to me, I knew I had to let you go, my sweet I know in my heart you are at peace and you are continuing the fight from heaven.
Thank you my Tallulah for the beautiful butterfly and showing me that you were Ok, for showing me Tu Two on TV so I could become her Mom, to love her and for her to help me heal. She is not you, but she is bringing me love and smiles again.
I have not forgotten you one minute, I cry all the time, I look at your picture, I take care of your grave, you are always in my heart, but boy do I miss you and just wish I had more time with you, to snuggle with, to smell you, hear your meows and watch you play with the dogs...I love all the butterflies you send to me I see them and it brings a smile to my face and I know you are here.
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU TALLULAH MY SWEET ANGEL IN PINK, YOU ARE IN MY HEART FOREVER...OUR BOND IS NOT BROKEN BY DEATH.
DON'T GRIEVE TOO LONG
Don't grieve too long for now I'm free
I've followed the path God set for me
I ran to Him when I heard His call
I swished my tail and left it all.
I could not stay another day
To meow, to love, to romp or play
Games left unplayed must stay that way
I found such peace; it made my day.
My parting has left you with a void
Please feel it with remembered joy
A friendship shared, your laugh, a kiss
Oh yes, these things I too shall miss
Be not burdened with times of sorrow
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow
My life's been full, you've given so much
Your time, your love and gentle touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief
Lift up your head and share with me
God wanted me; He set me free!!!
As we all go through losing a kitty we all feel the same and grief in our own ways, it is not easy it takes times, I realized it is so much harder than I even thought it could be. A part of me died with her and I am not sure I will ever get it back...some days being on catster is too hard for me, I still cannot go into groups except for pen paws. The depth of my sorrow is so deep, I pray that one day it will be easier for me.
QT's Mom Peggy
November 8th 2010 5:25 pm
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Tallulah reporting from the Rainbow Bridge earth window...I have been very busy learning all the ropes here, there is always something to do and friends to help...we do have fun up here....
Well I haven't been around much lately not only because I have been busy, but mostly because Mom is now having a hard time coming to my page...when she was busy with spreading the word about breast cancer is wasn't so hard, now that it is slowing down a little Mom has been very sad.
You see Mom has realized that when I died she lost a piece of her and she knows she will never get it back....this has been so hard on Mom she fought so hard for me and hoped against all odds that I would be one in a million that I would survive, but that wasn't to be, God had other plans for me.
Moms heart is so broken, she is lonely without me with her on earth and so sad...she hides it mostly she doesn't want others to know, but I know one day down the road she will feel better. I thought bringing her and Tu Two together would help her and she is don't get me wrong she has helped, but no one and I mean no one will ever be able to give Mom back that piece of her that I took with me....I was so special to her, we loved each other so much, the bond we had was so special especially when I got sick that bond grew even more...how do I help Mom, I am not sure I can help her except come to her in the night and give her little angel kisses...most of the time now she doesn't know that I am there except in her heart she knows I am with her...she grieves for me all the time, some times it is easier for her and out of the blue she will cry, it doesn't matter where she is or what she is doing she will think of something about me, think she sees me and she will cry...
Well I gotta go to another class that is one that teaches me how I can help my Mom more, I know the piece I took with me can't be given back but I am going to try to help her though this...Mom I love you and will always be right there with you...
Tallulah signing out for now....know that I am watching over you all, praying for you, sending healing dust to those that need it...and Mom is here to help support others, maybe that is one way for Mom to heal to help others like she has been doing...
QT Angel in Pink
November 1st 2010 5:17 pm
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Angel Tallulah from heaven, sorry I haven't been in writing in my diary been busy learning all of the special things us angels do in heaven...I have been watching over some of my friends Kaci, doggies Sunny and Quincy. Us angels have been kept very busy and when one of our friends makes their journey we are all there to meet them with open paws and wings. An Angels job is never done!!!I have been with Mom too she still needs me to be with her.
Now the important thing I need to say to all of our friends...
Mom has been sending lots of our catster friends and Moms my picture, story and kitty breast cancer ribbon...
MY PICTURE IS ALL OVER THE UNITED STATES, IN ENGLAND, CANADA AND AUSTRALIA...WOW CAN YOU BELIEVE IT....
Kitty breast cancer is being spread everywhere and Mom has asked my to THANK ALL OF YOU THAT HAVE MY PICTURE AND STORY, SHE IS SO OVERWHELMED AT HOW OUR FRIENDS ARE HELPING TO SPREAD THE WORD, NOT JUST FOR ME BUT FOR ALL THE KITTIES THAT HAVE OR HAD BREAST CANCER...WE ARE SO PROUD THAT I AM REPRESENTING ALL OF US...OUR HOPE IS TO EDUCATE PET PARENTS AND HOPE TO KEEP LITTLE GIRL KITTIES FROM GETTING THE NASTY BREAST CANCER...
There are no words we can say except THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF OUR HEARTS....we love you all, thank you for helping and supporting me when I was still on earth and now in heaven. Know that I am watching over all of you....
Sending much love and lots of hugs from heaven...
Well I need to go and watch over some special kitties and doggies that are in need of our angel love and help...
QT angel in pink
October 22nd 2010 3:11 pm
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Tallulah reporting from heaven can you all believe it has been 2 months since I made my journey to the bridge. I am with special kitty angels, we are having a wonderpurr time waiting for our human Moms and Dads to come be with us...
I send my Mom butterflies and some of my special friends butterflies too..know that I am with you all and love each of you..
Since I have gone Mom has cried so much, I do hope with time she will not cry as much I know it takes time for humans to heal. I have given her a gift of sweet Tu Two she is helping Mom, but she still misses me. I will be with Mom and help her through this time she feels me and knows I am right there with her day in and day out.
A PET'S LOSS
In your heart, you probably realize that in time the sadness you are feeling will fade.
For now, just know that it's all right to hurt
I hurt with you
it's all right to cry..
I share your tears.
It is only through crying that you learn what it's really like to laugh..
only after feeling sadness can you really experience joy.
So allow yourself to feel what comes natural...
but know that someday life will be better..
it will be easier to smile.
This is for you Mom from Me all the way from heaven....
It is OK to cry, you have lost me on earth, but I am always with you in your heart & memories, I will never leave....just look for the butterflies and look at Tu Two remember I have sent her to you to help bring you joy again and love...she loves you already, you know it don't you...I know you are hurt and you grieve for me that is OK Mom we had a wonderful bond and we had a special relationship you and I....I know you did everything you could for me and more...you gave me a wonderful home and life, I am just sad I had to leave so soon. I know you wanted me to grow old with you and I had every intention of doing just that, but God had other plans for me...I am your special girl always Mom so cry and grieve for me, but one day it will get better and you will have a smile on your face again when you remember me...and then one day I will see you coming to the rainbow bridge and I will run so fast and jump into your arms so we can snuggle again and I can get your kisses and love, then your other babies will join us, we will be all over you and you will have the biggest smile on your face, your heart will be over joyed with love once again...til then I am here with your other sweet babies-Sidney, Dartie, Bobby-Lynn, Chunk, Bo and Star...we are all waiting for you Mom to come be with us..
Tallulah you angel in pink in heaven
October 7th 2010 9:38 pm
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Tonight Mom was on Tu Two's page seeing all of her gifts for being Diary of the Day...oh how proud I am of my sweet little sisfur Tu Two...
Well Mom saw the picture of me as an angel on heavens stairs and all of a sudden she started crying and crying...she realized that yes I am really gone and a beautiful angel now...she isn't crying for sadness she cried because I am so loved and so beautiful as her an angel like I was on earth..
The out pouring of love for me is still here and everyone is so wonderful to Mom..and wants to help Mom with letting others know kitties and doggies too get breast cancer...I guess when she saw my pictures it was overwhelming for her to see me as gone, but not forgotten..
This is what Catster is all about LOVE AND MORE LOVE, SUPPORT AND MORE SUPPORT for families that need the love and support..like we so lovingly have gotten, not all of the other things that are not that important...sometimes you don't realize it until it is too late...SO EVEN THOUGH MOM CRIED WHEN SHE SAW MY PICTURE IT WAS FROM THE LOVE SHE HAS FOR ME NOW AND FOREVER AND FOR THE LOVE ALL OF YOU HAVE SHOWN US...
Queen Tallulah Angel in Pink
October 6th 2010 5:25 pm
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Hello my friends Tallulah here for Mom today!
You see when Mom got home from walking dogs she found a package on our front porch. She brought it in and when she read who it was from she had no idea who sent this package...
To Mom's surprise the CRAZY CAT LADY FRIENDS sent Mom a MEMORY BOX OF ME...YES OF ME....
It is a wooden box and on the top is the most beautiful painted tile of me, yes me from the picture of me wearing my Calvin breast cancer awareness collar...it looks just like me...Mom is amazed that someone we don't even know could paint my picture on a tile and she got me just as Mom remembers me...her Sweet Tallulah..
When Mom saw it she just sat in her chair and cried and cried and cried...not from sadness, yes a little sadness because she still misses me, but mostly from seeing this beautiful box of me and to know how loved I was by Cat Moms that we only know from being on Catster never have met them in person...the love mom feels from this precious gift is overwhelming and she will cherish this beautiful gift always, she will not only think of me and all of the ladies that so lovingly gave to Mom...Now I let Mom type to you.
THERE ARE NO WORDS TO SAY TO THE MOMS EXCEPT THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR GIVING ME MY MEMORY BOX OF MY PRECIOUS TALLULAH
CRAZY CAT LADY FRIENDS:
JO ANN SIZER
I would like to thank each of you personally so if you would let me know your cats name so I can do so...I do know a couple of you, but as we all know we know kitty names not always their Moms names...
THANK YOU FOR GIVING MY MOM THIS BEAUTIFUL GIFT SO SHE CAN PUT MEMENTOS OF ME IN IT...SHE HAS SOME OF MY HAIR, A WHISKER AND A CLIPPING OF MY CLAW IN A LAMINATED POUCH TO PUT IN AND MY COLLAR WITH MY ST FRANCES OF ASSISI MEDAL ON IT AND MY SPECIAL COLLAR FROM CALVIN AND HAZEL LUCY THAT MOM WILL PUT IN MY BOX...
Thank you all, this is what catster is all about!!! the love for one another!!!!
Tallulah from heaven with my pink wings &
PS. Mom took pictures of my memory box and now she needs to put it on my page for all to see...QT
October 5th 2010 8:48 pm
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This is Tallulah Reporting one last time about this weekends San Francisco 3 day walk...everyone is home, resting, all the pink tents are gone, all is quite...they have moved on to the next city that will have the 3 day walk...
Well it was so emotional this weekend for Mom, not this sadness but with joy and happiness to know that our work to spread the word about kitty breast cancer was happening thanks to Chai and Guido's Moms...Chai's Mom Jeannette was the walker and Guido's Mom was working but she did talk about me...
Jeanette finally called Mom and she wanted Mom to know that she had a T shirt for everyday when she walked. The first day she met a wife and husband she told them about me and kitty breast cancer...they didn't know kitties got breast cancer as so many don't know either...they love cats and will do research on it just like Mom did when she found out I had the nasty C....
Well out of all of the people walking Jeanette ran into them another day when they were at one of the stops and the lady told Chai's Mom that she remembers her because of Tallulah and kitty breast cancer, she told her she will always remember her...WOW that is amazing just think how many people were there and they saw each other again...was it meant to be so this lady would let Jeanette know how much my story affected her...I think so!!!!it made it all worth I think!!!!
Chai's Mom also told Mom about seeing the butterfly I sent to let her know I was there...Mom told her I would send one and I didn't let them down...Angels always show humans they are there, you just have to believe...Mom does believe and she sees butterflies all the time...she knows I am there always and always.
So one final word is there are no words to express how we are feeling now...but thrilled and this is so awesome for so many to want to help us get the word out about kitty breast cancer.
We pray for all those that have died, those that have been diagnosed with it and those that are sick from it...know we are praying for you all and as an angel now I will be watching over them all and sending love.
Signing out from San Francisco...this is QT angel in pink and so proud of Jeanette for the 60 miles she walked, helping Mom and Me..
Lastly my new sisfur I helped Mom see and adopt, my name sake got her last shot today I am flying over her putting my fluffy pink wings on her and helping her tonight, she isn't feeling good and it always worries Mom when her furbabies get shots, I will watch over her all night...
October 3rd 2010 7:26 pm
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Hi my friends this is Tallulah reporting on the last day of the Crazy Cat Ladies walk and journey to the end of their 60 miles in San Francisco....
It was a foggy morning with the sound of the fog horn in the background, then hearing the zippers of the walkers pink tents being opened as they were awakening to begin their final journey to finish their 60 mile walk & to celebrate..
They walked to Union Square, it was a beautiful misty morning walking on and through the Presidio and Golden Gate Park so peaceful walking today, Jeanette Chai's Mom & team was almost done, I was there whispering in her ear you can do it you can do it, just a little more and you will reach the end..
On to the Civic Center that was around 12:12pm and only 4.5 miles to go
Still cheering her on and helping her & the team get to the end of the journey, @ 2:35pm today Jeanette & team finished they made the 60 mile walk....HIP HIP HOORAY GREAT JOB AND WELL DONE!!!!MOM AND I ARE SO PROUD OF YOU...
WOW 60 MILES THEY WALKED IN 3 DAYS FOR A CURE...
Crazy Cat Lady Team Mom and I thank you for the pleasure of being your mascot and helping to cheer you on these last few days...to know that you honored me with making me your mascot we thank you from the bottom of our hearts...you and Calvin's Mom started this all for me and Mom to keep my fight going to get the word out about breast cancer in kitties, but we are fighting too to get the word out about other deadly illnesses in pets...and we will keep the fight one way or the other.
Well my friends we are waiting to hear from Jeanette tonight, she told Mom she has a great story to share with Mom...Mom can't wait!!!!
So in closing this 3 day walk and me being Crazy Cat Ladies Team Mascot it has been an amazing 3 days seeing all of the people sharing in the same cause breast cancer, seeing all of the pink, people cheering them on, bringing the butterfly to show my team I was really there with them...I know it was very emotional for everyone, one day with help of so many people there will be a cure for breast cancer, til then please help me and Mom help pet parents know that they need to check their pets for lumps, get pets spayed and neutered by 6 months it my save their pets life...
My next journey watching will be to cheer on Calvin's Mom in November, she will be wearing a ribbon with me, Ava, Queen Mu's and other I might have forgotten in our memory...so I will be there helping her walk her 60 miles...we hope to let you know how she is doing on her walk....we will see if we can!
Queen Tallulah Angel in Pink signing out for tonight...
sending love and hugs from heaven, when you see butterflies think of me and who knows it may really be me checking on you and visiting with my friends...I send butterflies to Mom all the time...MOM I LOVE YOU AND THANK YOU FOR SAYING YES TO ME BEING THE CRAZY CAT LADIES TEAM MASCOT...
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