August 11th 2013 1:14 pm
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There is no such thing as Good-Bye, for I am always here in the hearts of those that I love. This morning I woke up in a beautiful place filled with vibrant colors, gossamer butterflies dancing, fields of fragrant catnip fields, love and happiness. I am happy. I left behind the cancer that hurt me, never to come back and hurt me again. It is okay, although I am physically gone, my spirit lives.
My Journey to the Beautiful Rainbow Bridge was gentle and peaceful, surrounded by my loved ones in my favorite spot.
Mom has lived by this quote for 3-1/2 months: "When the world says "Give up", Hope whispers "Try it one more time" ~
We never gave up and we will always beliEVE
Do not weep at my grave for I am not there,
I’ve a date with a butterfly to dance in the air.
I’ll be singing in the sunshine,
wild and free playing tag with the wind while I’m waiting for thee.
We have MANY thank you’s to write for the wonderful gifts and messages. Thank you for the outpouring of love and support for me and my family today. I love you all so much.
July 31st 2013 7:21 pm
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It’s been 3 months since my cancer diagnosis. Mom looks back on Month 1, Month 2 and Month 3. Looking at how I was and responded back then compared to now. I’ve tried to stay pawsitive and upbeat, and I will be honest with my friends and say that I’m not doing as well as I was 1 & 2 months ago. Mom and I continue to fight however. Together, we read a very poignant post about euthanasia and when the ‘time is right’ to let a loved one go free. Mom cried tears over this, as she has cried tears every day for me, as my comfort, my life are so important to her. She realizes that my situation is daunting, and imminent. We try to hide our tears and fears, but we have to be realistic too. With that said, we continue to fight, to beliEVE, and to pray.
As far as I am; well, I don’t eat much cat food nor baby food any more. I pick and lick and drool often. Boiled chicken bites have been my saving grace and have been what have helped me pull through. Mom spends an hour every morning and an hour every evening tending to me and it is SO worth it. LOVE!
May peace be with you all, and thank you for reading, loving and beliEVEing.
Updates to follow…
With softest purrs of love,
July 23rd 2013 10:26 am
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I received a touching card in the mail yesterday from QUEEN TALLULAH and her family. In it was a beautiful butterfly of gossamer wings; I know you’re sending butterflies from Heaven as you purr softly from above. Thank you so much for your words of love and encouragement, and for watching over me! Please check out my photos; I feel so much comfort and warmth in being surrounded by such loving friends.
I love all of you so much!
July 19th 2013 9:55 am
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Dear diary, dear friends!
Mom is trying to figure my eating habits out. What I once loved I now don’t eat, yet what I didn’t like before, I now love. It sounds like a riddle doesn’t it. Mom is trying to stay on top of my riddles… this morning I barely licked my chicken baby food which was all that I would eat other than my boiled chicken. Yet I munched on crunchies today. Thankfully I Power Ate my chicken breast; mom was quite impressed with the amount that I ate. But.. I needed it. I am thin, but not bony. Everything about me is soooo good, except my eating; which is quite understandable given this thing in my throat. It’s gotten bigger, but it doesn’t seem to bother me.
Mom called my v.e.t. yesterday for some guidance. He was AMAZED at how well I still am doing after almost 3 months of fighting this!
She asked if she could increase my Meloxicam dosage to make me more comfortable, and asked about an appetite stimulant. The only side effect to increased Meloxicam would be kidney issues, and that isn’t even definite. Given my situation, mom and Dr. Pogrel both agreed to go ahead with giving me Meloxicam every day now, rather than 3 days a week. And, she is picking up an appetite stimulant today for me! She is not telling me this of course, MOL. She’s already figured out how to trick me into taking it. It is a small pill, but she doesn’t want to risk any pill taking with me, so she’s going to grind it up and hide it in my chicken treats that I LOVE.
We are fighting so hard and it has paid off so far. I follow mom everywhere and I purr and ‘silent meow’ to her to let her know I am okay.
Goodness this sounds like a medical journal. MOL! Let’s talk about fun things now.
My BEAUTIFUL inside flower that AGGIE sent me has bloomed and it is stunning! One of the most beautiful gifts from Heaven! I will post pics on my page.
How about a banana hunting pawty at my house? I love my friends, the door is open to all of you! Thank you for being my friends, I love you all!
July 16th 2013 9:03 am
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Really! I think our dear Diary Gal really likes me!! :)
Thank you my friend, for choosing me as a DDP again today! With that I had better step up to the plate and write something interesting! First off… I am incredibly grateful for ALL of the love from my Catster and Dogster friends, and humans alike. Everything from encouraging pmails, emails (< --- that’s a human thing, I beliEVE) rosettes, pictures, forum posts, games; to all of the love and laughter. I can’t tell you how much this means to me and my family.
I haven’t posted any updates in a while. I don’t want to come across as “it’s all about me” all the time… although I know that you all care so much. I continue to hold steady. Mom is now getting up earlier every morning to make sure that I get all of the nourishment and meds that she can get in me, because I eat so slowly. We have a new routine now. She feeds all of us our wet food in the kitchen (and she still continues to have to patiently follow me around with my bowl… which I will still pick at.) I sometimes finish my wet food, but I usually don’t. I like lots of gravy, and after I’ve picked out all of the antioxidant and medicine laced gravy (I know it’s in there teehee… and I KNOW you’re helping me, mom) she mixes warmed chicken baby food into what is left in my bowl. YUMMY! We then all eat our crunchies. I eat very slowly; and that is okay, because mom doesn’t want me to choke. Once the rest of the Krew is done, mom shoo’s everyone out of the kitchen and shuts the door, so it’s just US! I love ‘us’ time. And it gives us peace in continued feeding. She drinks weird brown stuff in the morning to help her wake up and ‘get going’… MOL! As I’ve said before, boiled chicken is my absolute favorite and it is what has kept me going, and what has helped me keep my weight on. Before, when she tried to give me my much needed chicken treats, everyone got in my face and bonked and rubbed and it was very distracting. Now, with just us, it is relaxing and I really do well with my food. I tell you, it is a challenge but SO worth the time and effort.
Another thing that is very special that I’ve made reference to before is that I have two beautiful flowers that my SoulKitty Aggie sent me. What has made them so special is that they’ve been around for almost 3 years, and neither has bloomed… until now. It is a sign of love that we beliEVE in. The outside flower has bloomed, and the inside one, has just opened. It is called a brassia orchid and it has 6 blooms on it; 5 of which have opened. I will post pictures when all 6 have opened :) It is a very special day today, being a DDP, having my orchid open today, and to be celebrating my granddaddy’s birthday in heaven today.
Okay… I have rambled enough MOL! Thank you for reading, thank you for your support, thank you for loving me. I LOVE all of you and mom and dad both are indeed grateful for everything everyone has done, and we continue our purrs of support for all in need in return.
The power of the Paw and prayer do work, as they have for us. We beliEVE!
July 15th 2013 8:51 am
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Holy cats, my sisfur Berkeley is Dog of the Day today! Yippieee!!! I am so happy for her! Poor girl has been kind of put in the back corner because of me…. I know that Berkeley would wish nothing more than to have me well again. This sure gives me and my family a happy boost.
Thank you HQ for honoring her today!! I wish kitties and doggies could be ‘friends’. We can purrtend though, since we’re all friends in real life.
Well Berkeley, welcome back to Dogster, you have been quiet for far too long! (On Dogster that is… whew your Gentle Giant woofs rock the house when you see a stranger.. MOL MOL)
July 8th 2013 8:28 am
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I am stunned… thank you HQ for choosing me as DOTD today! Thank you to all of my friends here for reading, following my story and beliEVEing! I keep typing and erasing my words… I don’t know what to say. But I will say this.
Don’t ever give up and don’t ever stop beliEVEing. That is what is keeping me strong, that and so much love. This honor means so much to my family... let’s put an end to cancer! *hands mom a box of Kleenex* Hurry up and dry your eyes before I attack the Kleenex and shred it to pieces! MOL!
I wish to thank BIG HARRY, SOUTH FLORIDA FAMILIA, FRIDAY, RORY and WEBEESSIAMEEZERS and their generous families for making all of the beautiful commemorative pictures for me; they mean so much to me and mom!
I love you all so much!
July 3rd 2013 9:37 am
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I am over the moon with happiness! Thank you HQ for choosing not only me as a DDP today, but for choosing my best friend EBONY as well! What is so very special about this is that not only are we best friends, we wrote about each other in our winning diary entries! MOL! (Or, GMTA as humans say)
I am so touched by all of the love and support and am very blessed to have all of you in my life. I’m sharing my love and happiness with all!
July 2nd 2013 2:24 pm
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I am getting mail! I feel like a celebrity, MOL! I get more mail than mom does! Mail, love, patience, purrs, kind thoughts are all keeping me so strong and SO happy! Thank you all! I have a little trouble opening envelopes and reading, so mom helps me with that, and reads me all of my messages.
My best friend EBONY pmails me every morning and every evening with happy stories about her life and sends so much love and encouragement. I can't wait to race to the pmail in-box every day! My best good friend KINZY and her mom send beautiful notes of love and caring. It is fascinating watching the beautiful card "pop" up when you hover your mouse over it! I even got "SNAIL MAIL" (MOL MOL) from my cousin at heart, SUGAR BEAR and her Mama J! MeoWOW! I am so incredibly touched! Sugar and I have a very, very special bond, as we both fight our cancers. She has been bravely taking chemo treatments and is almost finished. She is very smart too... she knows when to hide when it's time for Mama J to collect her in the Port-A-Jail. teehee!
Gosh, and it doesn't stop there either... I get virtual cards by email (that is the human form of pmail) from my best little foster sister Delli and her mommy, and homemade ecards from my BFF EBONY.
And... I have to add... my beautiful SoulKitty AGGIE has sent me a second beautiful flower! The one outside flourishes, as the new one inside sprouts and gets ready to bloom. (beliEVE!) It is an inside orchid called a Brassia, which has never bloomed, much like the outside Bird of Paradise. (BeliEVE!) I will post pics if my typist can remember... MOL!
PMail, EMail, SnailMail... meoWOW! I need to learn how to read and write!
Thank you so much my dear good friends for keeping our spirits high; it has been a stressful time in our house and every single random act of random kindness is deeply appreciated. With that I'll end my ramblings on a happy note; it is just past the 2 month anniversary of my cancer diagnosis and I continue to do well. I beliEVE!
I beliEVE in my friends and the power of love! Kitty kissies to all!
June 23rd 2013 12:59 pm
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Mom looked into my eyes today and asked… why? Why does cancer afflict our Beautiful Brave Boy. Why? I looked back into her eyes with much love and understanding… yet not understanding. Why does cancer afflict those that we love the most? Why does cancer exist? WHY…. I looked at mom with loving eyes, purred, and gave love… yet my throat has this big lump in it…. And mom types for me with a huge lump in her throat as well. Cancer. Cancer is SO unfair.
I’m the most loving of my family and mom is spoiling me… yet when I gaze into her eyes while purring and drooling a bit (mom wiped it up and I gave cheek kisses) we ask, why… I continue to be as strong as can be, thanks to Meloxicam and C-Caps. Well… boiled chicken every morning and evening along with LOVE is the best medicine)
We are PURRING for a cure. I'm doing as well as can be. Much love to my friends, we beliEVE and we thank you for beliEVEing as well.
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