December 18th 2013 7:51 pm
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This was the first year that the date didn’t hit me like a punch to the stomach first thing waking up... I can’t believe it’s been 5 years. 2008. What an end to the worst year of my life that was, losing you after Grandma, and all the other tribulations of that woeful year. I miss you and I think about how much my life has changed. I wonder what you would have thought of “the boys.” Calísta still hasn’t accepted any of them, and I wonder if she ever will. I know no other fur sib will ever fill the void you left in her life. She won’t even touch them.
I think of all the wonderful moments and memories you brought to my life. I remember that little “Psycho kitty” who would bound and leap sideways and reduce an entire cardboard box to shreds in an afternoon. I still have some things with your baby teeth marks in them. They always make me smile and get misty.
The days you and I spent living together alone were such special times of bonding. Now that I look around at my HUGE animal family and husband, I remember you and I before all of the chaos. (It’s good chaos though-just different).
I have your George and I take good care of him. Crouton and Czar love your blue mouse. It makes me happy to see it’s still being enjoyed. Lísta sleeps by my head every night in your spot she inherited. She doesn’t sleep ON my head though like you were fond of. How I miss that soft warm fur and rumble against me. I cannot look at a tuxie without thinking of you, and when I do my heart is filled with a longing for my boy. I still can’t believe that day had to come, that day I dreaded most when you left me behind for the bridge. It came too soon. I needed help that day, I wasn’t strong enough to do it on my own. I guess it was a test for a wonderful man who would soon be such a large part of my life. He helped me, help you in those last moments. Three years later he proposed to me on that day. Now it’s not as bitter, and there is a joy with the sorrow.
I love you my boy, always will.
Sending some special purrs.
Figaro sounds like a very special cat, and you were both blessed to have found one another. Glad that you have such sweet memories of him and that he has a special place in your heart. Sending many hugs & purrs.
Thank you Jez, thank you Luke. Your purrs are appreciated.
Wonderful tribute to a very special furchild. I also went to the Bridge in 2008. This was also the first year where it doesn't hurt as much as in others years, we kind of understand, you know. Sending love and tender thoughts