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Today would've been Squeakers' 6th birthday.
Woulda, coulda, shoulda
but she should've lived to a ripe old age like Sandy
but now she is forever a kitten, cloud-hopping and chasing mice and having a great time.
I'm sure she does miss me. . .maybe not Sandy, as much, but I'm sure she does miss me, we really had a special relationship.
I've heard of dogs giving kisses, Lyndi licks me until I'm dripping with doggie slobber. .. . but I've never heard of a cat doing it. . . until Squeakers came along. At first, her tongue was so much like sandpaper, I'd let her lick, but only for a few seconds, then I'd push her away. As she got older though, her tongue seemed softer, and she kissed with more sweetness, care and love.
She did do things to annoy me, but if she didn't, she wouldn't be a cat! It was her JOB to annoy me. . . once in awhile. Now she's my little angel, up at the Rainbow Bridge, I'm sure she's a good greeter, she liked making friends. She was like a dog in that respect, she'd sniff people out to make sure they were okay, then after a minute of staring them down, she'd jump on their laps. One time a friend of a friend actually had the gall to push Squeaks off her lap! Okay, once in awhile I might've done that too, but Squeaks was just saying "Hi, I'm Squeakers, who are you? Wanna make friends?"
You could just tell in her actions that that's what she was thinking, anyway.
I'm not saying Sandy's a bad cat, she's wonderful, maybe as shy as I am, shyer, actually, much more, in fact, her former owner should've named her Bashful. But Squeakers was perfect for me. She jumped on tables, knocked over stuff, unrolled toilet paper rolls, pulled emergency cords, snuck out the door more than once. .. .
but I wouldn't have wanted her any other way!
I'm definitely looking forward to seeing her again. . . someday.
On nights like tonight especially. Squeakers has been gone for almost two months, but sometimes it seems like two weeks.
I was just doing normal things, Watching an I Love Lucy marathon, tuning in from time to time to the Puppy Bowl on Animal Planet, typing for Sandy at the LLS Super Bowl party, just normal Sunday stuff, well Super Bowl Sunday stuff, since I don't care much for football I like the Puppy bowl better.
Anyway, I had Squeakers play a romantic tune on a violin from up on the Bridge, for Jacques, who was also having his Birthday Party, and his sweetie Roxanne *if you don't participate in the forums, this may sound really strange, but everything is virtual*
I remembered then how my Grandma June once gave me a card for my birthday, she likes to do gluing, so she prints out pictures and cuts them to fit into other pictures and from there she makes cards, so she made me on with me in a sexy outfit *Ha! That's a laugh!, Plus most grandmas don't think that way, or so we think* with Squeakers wearing a crown and playing the violin! I just had to find that card, it was something, you know, something you just HAVE to do. . .NOW! Well, I rearranged some things last month while I did some cleaning, and I couldn't, for the life of me remember where I put my cards! Not just that one, but I save almost everything, all Christmas cards, birthday, etc. I started looking under the bed, in closets, in drawers, twice! And for some reason, it was urgent, I just HAD to find that card! Then my aunt from Dallas called and we talked, and for some reason, while we were talking, it popped into my head where the cards where, and TADA! There they were, in a basket on my kitchen table and the first one that I saw was the one with Squeakers and the violin!
I was so happy to see it that I started to cry, well, actually I found it while I was on the phone with my aunt, so I didn't cry immediately, but after a few minutes after I got off the phone I did, then I held Squeakers' urn in my arms and just bawled.
That was so strange, because there are some days that I don't even think about her, or just for a second, there are days where I still tell stories about her to my friends, and it doesn't bother me at all. Last Saturday I spent six hours working on a scrapbook of just pictures of Squeakers and it didn't hit me at all. Just tonight.
I guess the guy who said "Mama said there'd be days like this" knew what he was talking about!
I still miss my baby!
I guess February is a hard month. Feb. 6 with be two months since she left me and Feb. 28th would've been her sixth birthday.
I am so grateful for all my friends and family for helping me get through this horrible time after my baby Squeakers went to the Bridge. For my mom for automatically sending me the money to cover the bill for the emergency vet, even though she didn't need to, and she was out of town. For my friend Jennifer (Twinkie's mom) for rushing upstairs to help me with Squeakers, for calling a friend that could drive and asking her to pick us up, for going with me, helping me fill out the forms, for giving me a hug (she's not a hugger) after I found out my Squeakers went to the Bridge, for Elizabeth, the lady that drove us, who dropped everything to rush over to pick us up, for the Animal Emergency Clinic who gave me both Squeakers ashes and her pawprints that I will always cherish. For my Grandma and Aunt Sandy (cat Sandy too!) who gave me someone to talk to after the horrible event.
But I am so grateful to have wonderful Catster friends , just as much as I am grateful to have my wonderful family, Catster members are just like family to me. I am so glad I joined Catster four years ago! I am grateful for all the kitties and their humans that sent condolence cards, especially those that sent them to Pepper, who sent them with a present for Squeakers and Sandy, cute little quilts that I know were made with a lot of love. I thank Catster HQ, or whoever chose my Squeakers as Cat of the Week last week. That really sent Squeakers off to the Bridge with a bang, and she was loved by so many, i just saw that she has 585 friends on Catster, plus all my friends and family who've met her fell in love with her almost instantly, and who couldn't? Even maintenance men, cable guys, and maybe even the Schwans guys, and my next-door neighbor and some other neighbors that've met her fell in love with her.
Anyway, I'd just like to thank all of you, and especially Pepper, Squeakers' twin, I think her mom cried harder than I did! But then, I knew that she wasn't sick anymore, even though didn't really know that she was sick to begin with. Also, thanks to Marina for sending me the beautiful candle, Truman for setting up the memorial, that was so sweet, even if I couldn't be there, darn seizures!
Thank you so much to all my Catster friends, we really are like family or close friends!
Wishing all of you a happy and healthy New Year!
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