February 7th 2014 1:01 pm
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It's Indiana's meowmy here. I was just overcome with incredible sadness and grief of the loss of Indy. And all of my recent Angel furrriends. I was reading an article on huffingtonpost.com about how a woman was on a ship when her sweet kitty went to the Bridge, and how some passengers around her, didn't "get it" and made comments like-"she was probably feeling so sick she didn't even know who she was with"(she was with a beloved cat sitter) and "Oh, it's just a cat, you'll get over it in a couple of days"
I mean, come on. REALLY??!!? Really.
Until Catster, I never knew that my love was ok, that it wasn't too much, that it was just purrrfect the way it was. And we are not crazy cat people, being goofy over "just a cat" or dog over on dogster. These babies are our family, our children, our children's sisfurs and brofurs, my parent's grandkitties, as they call them. What gives? I mean really?
I guess I am still processing this whole thing. Losing the pages, losing contact with some furrriends after March 3rd, losing another part of Indiana.
His page is the page I still have yet to start saving on Chrome.
His is the most dear to me and most special.
And I can't bring myself to do it just yet, because to be honest, I still don't fully forgive myself for not being in the room with him when he gasped that final breath and meow (yes, I was there when they gave him that final dose to help him Cross Over the Bridge because it was clear he wasn't going to come back to me)
I still wish I took him to the vet Sunday when he started acting off, not Tuesday night. I don't blame the vet who I was working with those two days (ok maybe a little because she said he was just adjusting to the slippery elm helping his digestion and to wait) This is the one time that I did not trust my instincts and I failed him.
And I just don't want to not be able to log in and look at his page. I don't want to lose this. I am so angry. And so sad. And then both of those things at myself for not being kinder to myself because I really did my best at that time.
I don't mean to write this to get any sympathy about how good of a meowmy I was, I just need to vent and deal with the fact that I am losing another part of myself that will leave another hole that no one but Indy can fill. But I so cherish all the memories I have with him, and am so blessed with the Love from Kitty Pryde and even little Jack.
Jack truly was a gift, for both Kitty and me. I really do believe that.
I just feel so blue today.
Kristin, Angel Indy's Meowmy
August 12th 2013 4:19 pm
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It's been just over two years since you have been gone and the feelings from that day still come rushing to me like it just happened. I didn't expect to feel so much grief for you today, but my heart is very very heavy and I am feeling very blue.
You were born today, in the year 2008. You would've been five today on earth!!! That's definitely mancat age! Oh, my sweet little loverboy.
Some days I am afraid that I won't remember the smell of your fur or your little nose kissies when it was bedtime. I really miss how you would nurse your blankie on my lap. =)
You would be so proud of little Jack if you were here, and I know you two would've been friends-he likes to play just as much as you did! I know he kind of looks like you, but he is not a replacement at all-there is no other being that could ever replace you.
You would be so proud of Kitty too!!! She has been so brave and also so sweet with Jack. She is even more beautiful than she ever was too! I remember one day a long time ago when you were watching a man and a little boy out of the window, and they were watching you. And then Kitty came and the daddy said, "look at the white kitty! She is beautiful!" and I got so mad because you are just as handsome as Kitty is beautiful! But what do they know anyway!
I miss you so much. I know that I made mistakes when you and Kitty were kittens. I could've done things better and I am sorry. I did my best.
No matter what, my heart will always have this huge, special place for you that will never be filled. A place that is all yours and full of our memories. And that makes me so happy and lucky!
Sending you lots of love on your birthday Indy. I miss you very much.
PS from Indy:
Thank you so much fur the messages and presents for my birthday! I is partying with Angel Sugar right now, Natasha, Alex, Jasper and all of my dear Angel furrrriends, new and old!!
Thanks to Angel Crystal (a doggie!) fur the cake and fur helping to throw me a party with my other Bridge birthday kitties in the Rainbow Bridge group!
Thank you to Jezebel DG (yep!!!) fur the lovely message =)
Thank you to Smiley Cassanova fur the Beachball and to Monster fur the Beachball as well!
Thank you to Teebo, Callie and Rose fur the Kite!
Thank you to Bear, Angel Onyx, Jasper, my new angel furrriend, and their furmily fur the Lemonade with a twist of Nip!
and Thank you to Angel Sugar fur the yummy Ice Cream Cone.
Bridge furrriends are the best. To all the meowmies and daddies, we all just wants you to know, we are far away, but are never gone and we all have each other until you get here to be with us too!
June 18th 2013 4:31 pm
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Yesterday I was a DDP! Thank mew to my furriends who helped me to celebrates, both new furriends and old. I will give proper thank mews, pawromise!
I has something so much more important on my mind right now, and Mom does too. All us furrriends have been on Catster fur awhile, mostly. And if you has been on fur long, you all would be furmiliar with a very special kitty. This special kitty was called Skeezix. He also wrotes a very kewl thing on Catster, befur Catster got all "fancy...and I use that word furseeeshusly" and this Kewl thing was called The Cat's Meow Blog.
Skeezix ungraciously was told no longer would he write fur Catster. It was a very sad sad day fur all of us furrriends.
Well, today Skeezix made the biggest journey yet-he came to us here up at the Rainbow Bridge. I know all us kitties are super special, and Skeezix was no excepshun to that.
If ya didn't knows Skeezix, and even if ya did, would you send a purrr up to the Bridge and to his furmily? They are so sad right now, as is so many of our furrriends.