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March... The month that I wish were banished to "Pre-April"- status

March is a month of heart aching, breath taking sadness. (and it's not over yet)
March begins early with my crossing the rainbow bridge

Sometimes there just are no words (but I would offer that there are purrs of the soft and the rumbling varieties) There are additionally woofing barks and small whines.
There are whisker kisses and face licks.

A wise friend, earlier this month offered us her thoughts. ... and it is true that it's amazing how joy sits next to sorrow in our hearts.

March is a month of mourning for us. The mourning of old friends, and new, furred friends and two-legged. The one commonality that they all share is that they took a piece of our heart the day that they crossed.

But did they really take? Did we not willingly give that piece of our heart to them the moment that we locked eyes and "knew" that we were one, we were family. That moment that we breathed together. In unison, in synchronicity. That moment where we looked towards the future, a future, together!

For my family.... (and I've seen my Lady still to this day shake her head and appear shocked and stunned that in the linear time measurement of a mere six minutes her life could turn completely upside down)

For my family... the heartbreaking sorrow of my passing is entwined forever with the arrival of Gabby. Does one replace the other? Never! Is one memory stronger than the other - No, they're intertwined. [Silver cords crossed and twisted together]
But that means that in each tear drop shed, there are also the reflections of a smile.

Remember that first day you came to your family? Remember their soft eyes, soft voices and how time stretched out endlessly, with you and them together? Ends were not thought of. Only the moment(s) existed and all was love.

And, if there's a "too long didn't read" - TLDR version of my diary it'd be that "moments are memories and all is always and forever Love and that Love is forever"

I'm not sure that I said anything of what I set out to say:
But I wish to reassure you that every kindness extended is never forgotten and that there is a force so strong that even death can not break it.
Love!

Thank You!

It is so nice to be remembered and my family appreciates your friendship and comfort!

Thank you Ishtar, The family of Bella, Irish Orange O'Ruffy, Smokie Boo Irish Russian Blue, Natalie the NatCat, DA TABBIES O TROUT TOWNE, The family of Kitty Pryde, Indiana Angel Cat, Angel Marley and Harrison, ♥ Tasha ♥ (and family), Muppet ~dreamette 4~ (and family), The family of Tigger, Cali, Scaredy Cat (In Memory), Sobe, Bent Ear, Mouse and Kittens, Pixie and her family, Monida, and Smokey and Punky.

Thank you Angel Alex (and family) and Xena Princess Warrior (and family) for your pawmail and lovely picture and Simone for stopping by to comment!

One thing that unites our families is our love of animals. Another thing that unites us is that we all have had (or will have) our breath taken away by grief. That heartache so deep that it hurts to breathe. Our families all understand that feeling.

Did I see the tears fall from my family's eyes today, at times. A funny thing happens though now when they remember my Rainbow Bridge Day. My crossing to the Rainbow Bridge came only a little more than month before Gabby came to join our family. The sadness of my passing is forever intertwined with a day blessed with happiness. A day full of a feeling of pure love that Gabby carried with her. My Rainbow Bridge day is also the heralding of Gabby's upcoming adoptaversary.

This strange intertwining of days and emotions does not mean that I am forgotten or in any way diminished. What I think it means is that I have managed some type of magic. I have mixed the tears of grief and loss with the tears of joy and love.

I live on in my family's memories of me. I live on in their love of Gabby (and Nuk and Sweets) I live on when they agree to take in any animal.
I will always be as near as their hearts, as their memories of me.

On the Eve of the Second Day of the Month That Shall be- Known As "Pre-April"

There have been enough "things" that are not positive in this month to cause it to be known to my Earth family as "Pre-April" Oh, to be sure, there have been some wonderfully memorable moments in this month too, but I imagine one can not accumulate a human "lifetime" of experiences without lingering *wounds.*

Perhaps if not so many "un" days were grouped together under one monthly calendar heading. Perhaps if Spring and the bursting forth of re-newed life were viewed with Angelic eyes and not from human sight/perspective, things could be different.

I've scented the sighs of my family on the wind. Saw the glistening of their tears. Heard their wistful memories and talk of me.
I am pleased though when my life is recalled as a life of Love, of tenderness, of hope, of rescue and of happiness. You were my hope and my deliverance.

I was truly happy to be part of your family and you truly treated me, not as an "animal" but as an equal. I was family, even though I walked on four legs and wore my own luxurious fur coat. I am thankful for your intervention into my life. We were all "bettered" for the crossing of our paths. I came "out of my shell" for you, because you were worthy.
Because, I could trust you and feel safe with you.

I smile an Angelic smile to see you hug and kiss Gabby, worry over, move to heal and help Sweets through her recovery. Even Nuk (who is as much a "thorn" as any rose has ever grown from her stem) needs you.
Our familial chain is missing a link, it's true.... but I am and will always be as near as your heart, as your memories of me. Remember me with love, because that is how I remember YOU!

May every word you have ever spoken to console a family, wrap around you tonight and comfort you in the same way as a warm cloak. When you reached out and touched another's heart with your kindness, it was really me pawing and touching them, through you. As you helped heal another's heart, I too, helped heal yours.

Stay true! You are and will always be my Champions