December 22nd 2011 1:36 pm
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It has been 10 weeks since Sally Maria left for the Bridge. 10 weeks of not being able to hold my girl, of not being able to hear that wonderful purr of hers or her squeaky little meow. 10 weeks since I said good bye to my best friend.
I miss my little girl so much...
Thank you all for the sweet rosies and pmails for Sally's birthday. It was such a difficult day for me, coming less than a month after she left us. I know everyone here has suffered through the loss of a pet and your words of kindness and sympathy mean so much to me. If anything, I find it hurts more now than it did back then. The numbness has faded but the pain and the grief still remain.
I am so fortunate that her last moments with us were exactly how I'd hoped they'd be. My girl definitely knew how much we loved her and I think there was a sense of relief on her part, that she was glad that we were helping her to the Bridge so that she could finally be at peace. I have no regrets, no doubts, no guilt. At last Sally knows what it feels like to be healthy with no limitations or restrictions. I'm glad the pain is mine and not hers to bear.
But there is such an emptiness in my heart and such a void in my life. I am trying so hard to be happy for Skyler's sake, and for my husband and Trinity and Emily. They just want me to be happy again so I do what I can so they think I am. The tears still come every day but I save them for when I'm alone. I know my wounds are still fresh and that, in time, they will heal. But now they're just open, raw and angry.
I've decided that I'm going to wait to get another kitty. As much as I miss having one of my own, if I adopted one now, I would just be trying to find another Sally and that's not fair to me or to her memory. My life will always have cats in it, but right now I need some more time. One day I'll be ready to open my heart to a new furry friend, but not now.
Thank you again, all of you, for all your words of encouragement, love and support. They have gotten me through some pretty rough times, just as they did when Sally was here. Each and every one of you has a very special place in my heart and I am grateful to have you in my life.
Love & Hugs,
Sally Maria's mama Kristi
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XOXOXOXOXXXOOOOXOXOXOOOXO
dude K
=^..^= *SNIFF! WHAAAAAAAAAAAAA* OMC you make us cry. We hate that you hurt so much even though we completely understand it. Sally is happy in her new heavenly body but please don't forget that she can visit you. Sometimes when the grief is too much, you can't see or hear them as well. Know that my mommy is always here to talk to. 10 weeks is not that long at all. We're sending you all the same hugs and kisses that the Tabbies just did. Many purrs and hugs...and much much love. Sending lots of purrs and hugs. Sending you lots of comforting purrs, ((BIG HUGS)) and much love!
xoxo
Miss Mittens Things will get better. December 22nd was the shortest day of the year. Now each day will be filled with a little more sunshine.
Healing takes time. Try not to focus on what you've lost physically, but on what you've gained eternally. Sally Maria helped shape you into the person you are today. The bond between you can never be broken. Love is forever. Sending you lots of comforting purrs, it will get bet better, I promise.
Love always
Wally Love and purrs to you Sally Maria's Mommy.
Tigger and Family
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December 22nd 2011 at 2:30 pm