February 3rd 2012 2:05 pm
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I read your diary today with meloncholy. And yet, perhaps a tough of wonder. For as I perused your page, I saw your age. At 18....you have had a cats lifetime of days and nights with your human Mom. You've had time to love, to purr, to curl beside her and to just BE.
And we are good at Just Being. We, Felines, have the ability to make Relaxing look as though it's what we were born for.
We are...and so much more. For we are wonderous, aren't we?
I was sad-and am sad that you'll be departing for Rainbow. I haven't been there....that I recall. But I know it's beauty, I sense, as I gaze up at the sky that just now changes from a bright and cold late afternoon to the beginning of evening that Rainbow is not unknown to me, or to any feline.
I lay here on the loveseat and Alex appears, her wings softly blurred in the sun as she grooms and purrs. Gossimer, like clear butterfly wings, she comes close and touches noses. "It's ok, Ruffy. You Know. For we don't say goodbye, Ruffy....just See You Later. For aren't I here, now, to tell you this myself?"
"But Alex, why Tiger? He's such a great guy? Why do we have to go?" I felt that anguished question rise up in me as Alex absentmindly groomed her front paw.
"Ah Ruffy.....Tiger's mission here was love. He changed his mommy's life for the better, and he's done such a good job. He's completed that mission, Ruffy. He's a Dreamboat. He's a Traveller. He's on a Mission...as am I, Ruffy. He's done what he came here to do and more. His mom knows this...it's in her heart. And you know this too...for you, don't you know Ruffy, that there is more to come...?"
I looked at her and signed and she flapped her wings lazily in time with her swishing tail. "Tiger will know when the time is right. Ruffy, we are meant to be Guides and Guardians....we need to do that from both sides, Ruffy...here, we have a certain power...and across the Bridge we have a different sort of power.....one perhaps that goes further in it's own way...we are Miracle Makers."
"Alex, more time...."
"Ruffy, it's not my choice....it's always the cat who's to cross...their Guardian Angel simply guides, Ruffy. They lend their strength and magick to the Traveller, Ruffy.....and lead. They lend a wing, so to speak. But it's always the Cats Choice. No one is forced, my friend."
She licked my ear. "And so? Does your heart hurt less?"
"I feel for his human mom. She loves him so."
"She understands Ruffy. She's an Old Soul. She knows. She's walked this path with him, her Familar. She Knows."
I couldn't find words, and maybe none were needed. I looked at Alex. "Alex....and I'll ask you....would you do it differently?"
"The way you left. Your mom....she was so devestated."
Alex sat down and crossed her paws. "I.....I wouldn't hurt my mom for the world. But my time had come. I was called to-I was needed. Another moment could not go by as it was. My mortal body in that life was fading. But I was not fading. I needed to cross faster than I had hpeed to, But I knew Mother was strong.She had purpose. I knew that I had sown a seed and that she would never be parted from me...that somehow, she would understand. She was beyond grief, of course. Yet....with a nudge and a purr I sent the Spirits to her that are Finney and Lacey. She goes on Ruffy...as do I."
She purred more loudly.
I sat and looked at her. "And how do I cope with saying hail and farewell to this friend in this space, this life?"
"You never do, Ruffy. Just 'See You Later'. And you do as you do always, you sit up and take that breath and intone your blessings, for you hold it within, the Song that Is Theirs, and you breathe it up into the Sky, so it finds it's way to the Universe and creates a Universal Purr to all that Is Goodness and Cat.....'
And she rose up on her hinds, her wings fluttering faster and a breeze was created....and I sat up as well...
"I salute you Tiger...with Power of the Paw....you Warrior Cat with the brightest blaze of coat, Firecat with bright eyes and swishing tail, and with a rumbling purr. I salute you with all that I am, all that we all are, and I send you with love and Speed on your way to your next mission, your next destination, and tell you, no matter where you go....you will always be a part of all that is US, all that is Good....for you are Cat."
Alex touched my nose...and then, with small burst of starlight, perhaps...she was gone. I watched as a tiny light rose up and dissapeared into the Universe.
And I bowed my head and sent with all my heart, my love to Tiger and his Mom.
See you Later my Noble Friend...till we meet again
May God Hold you in the Palm of Her Hand.
love and light to Tiger
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What a nice tribute to Tiger!
My mommy is bawling her head off Ruffy, MOL. Tears of love and joy. This is the nicest thing you could have done for both her and for Tiger's mommy. Gosh my mom is speechless and just in awe. I think tonight I'll sprinkle extra special angel dust on you. You deserve it. And I know you are all hurting for Tiger and his mom. Believe me, I know. I promise he will make such a wonderful angel, he already is!!! He's already started his mission.
*flutters away with a big smile and warm heart*
sniff....you are welcome, Alex. Most welcome. I'm still sad...and wish Tiger didn't have to go...that a miracle could be had....but maybe it already is.
I know Ruffy. Me too. But we don't control what the body can and can't take. Cancer is a beast and maybe someday we can slaughter it. But for now, it takes way too many of our babies. He doesn't deserve it and I know his mom is already beyond heartbroken. She's been so strong to deal with this. Whether we go quick like I did, or take a long time like Tiger, it's never easy at all. His mommy has a huge heart and she will love another again. And he'll be right there guiding her to another baby that will live a long and happy life like he did.
Beautiful tribute to a very sweet and loving Tiger...he will be missed but we will all see our families again one day...that is what the rainbow bridge is all about us waiting for our humans....and yes we do leave when our mission here is done....but I continue my mission along with Mom...
Kitty angels will be there for Moms and yes like Alex said we will guide our humans to a little kitty that needs their love.