Nicknames: bogie-man, thunderpaws, big boy, bogger boy
Birthday: July 1st 2001
Likes: He loves to be brushed, loves belly rubs, he loves Zeus
Pet-Peeves: He hates the vacuum
Favorite Toy: Zeus and our foster kittens
Favorite Nap Spot: in the bay window, on his bed, on top of the couch, in the rocking chair, anywhere in the sun.
Favorite Food: his catnip flavored treats
Skills: Giving kisses on request! He is a great foster dad and a great cuddler,
Arrival Story: There was a feral cat colony in my neighborhood where Bogie and his sisters were born. Unfortunately, most of the colony was trapped and killed. A few cats managed to escape though, so with the land owners permission I was able to trap, neuter, release, and feed the adult cats who remained. Bogie and his sisters were the only kittens left and they were very sick. I caught them, pulling them one by one from a filthy, cold woodpile, and took them home. In a couple of months they were healthy, friendly, wonderful kittens. I couldn't find good homes for them because people were uneasy of them having been feral, so I kept all four of them. I couldn't keep them inside because at that time I already had 3 dogs and 3 cats inside and a very small house. My husband and brother in law built an very nice outdoor shelter for them on my back porch that I heated in the winter and they seemed to love it. Bogie is the only one left from the litter and has finally decided he likes it better inside as he is getting older. I would always try to keep him inside but he would literally howl at the door to go out and wouldn't stop until I let him out. Not something you want to hear at 3 am. He has always been a very affectionate cat and loves to be pet and brushed. Bogie and his sisters had a very special way of communicating. It wasn't like a normal "meow", it sounded more like a "kitty bark". They would call to one another if they got out of each others sight, like a deep alarm meow. Whenever Bogie was outside he would go hunt in the tall grass behind our house. When I called him to come in, he would call out to me all the way home. It was so sweet. He answered me every time and still does. He only goes outside now to sunbath on our front and back porches. He liked to be with us when we brushed Zeus and Nikki. He would always roll in the hair. He was always a cuddler and if there was a lap available, he'd be in it.
Bio: A couple months ago I noticed Bogie was losing weight and his hair was thinning. The vet ran some blood tests and found his thyroid was hyperactive. We made a follow up appointment in a month to have another blood test to see how he was responding to the medication. When we went, the vet had noticed Bogie's abdomen was distended with fluid. She drained 500cc"s from him and checked the fluid for cells and found cancer. She said she could do other testing to see where the cancer was but it would not change the outcome since once the cells are in fluid, it spreads everywhere. That was last week. The vet sent us home on hospice care. Bogie did fairly well all week, but hasn't eaten at all this weekend and seems more weak. I will call the vet in the morning, but I think its time to help Bogie to the rainbow bridge where he will be whole and healthy again and be with his pack, who he loved so much. He will be missed. He loves everyone, and has been an awesome foster dad to kittens I foster for a local rescue group. They all just seem to flock to Bogie because he is so gentle and sweet. He has kept my lap warm for 15 1/2 years and I don't know how I will manage without this beautiful, loving soul in my life.
Mom will be taking me to the vet tomorrow to help me go to the rainbow bridge. I will get to see my buddy Zeus again, I love him so much. I will get to be with Nikki and Aggie, too, plus pack members and friends I have never even met but mom has told me so much about. I hope Aggie is nicer to me at the bridge than she was when we lived on earth together, such a little queen that one! But I loved her anyway and I think I did win her over, although she'd never admit it. Mom said I will feel so much better and not be in pain anymore and I will be able to run and play again like our foster kittens do. That will be nice. But I will wait for the day when mom and I can live together forever. She says she hope it won't be long and that she wishes she could go with me. But I told her she has to stay to take care of Kirra, Big Dan, and Little Ann first. And foster kitten Silver needs to find a home. I told her that I would be in her heart forever and that she has all those beautiful pictures and videos to remind her of the wonderful life and love we shared. Plus I'll come to visit in her dreams!
I remember the day I brought you home so clearly, just like it was yesterday. I pulled you one by one out of that filthy, cold stack of wood and brought you home. You were all so sick and covered with fleas and mites. You healed over time and learned to trust me. What a wonderful reward for each you to show me your belly in trust. Zeus was so excited to meet each of you. He had to be in the room with me whenever I was with you. He wanted to play and to take care of you, and that he did for 11 years. That's why you two were such good buddies, he was like a big brother to you. A BIG, furry, brother. How you all loved to play with his tail, and he loved it too. I pray that I never forget. How did the years pass so quickly. Too soon it is going to be time to say goodbye. I can already see the fluid that the vet took out of your belly come back and its only been a few hours.
I don't think I can bear it again. The way you have always look at me, into my eyes, like you are searching my soul. I feel like I am betraying you. Why can't God call you to Him in your sleep? Why must I have to make the decision again? It was just last year that I had to decide it was time to help Aggie to the bridge. Two years before that Nikki, and a year before her, Zeus. It comforts me knowing that you will all be together again; happy, healthy, and whole, playing again with such ease and forever without pain. I long to go with you, Bogie, to be with my precious pack again, because it is the only place where I will ever belong and be at peace and loved unconditionally.
"The heart remembers most what it has loved the most".
I love YOU Bogie; such a special boy you are and always will be. You will take what is left of my heart with you. I will remember you forever, especially the way you talked to me. My big, beautiful, gentle Ben. A beautiful soul that for some reason God blessed me with. I hope I haven't let you down, Bogie. I hope you don't feel that I have betrayed your trust, because it is breaking my heart to have to do this and it hasn't even healed yet. It never will, but thats ok, because it will be healed once we are all together again.
Please talk to me Bogie, and let me know its time.