January 28th 2016 3:22 pm
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You would have been 4 years old today. It would have been awfully hard to imagine but your sister Boo shares your birthday too. She has grown into a very beautiful cat, with lots of catitude. I think it must be the tortie in her.
I was talking to a friend of mine about you today. I said if you hadn't gone away I would never have got Freddie and Flossie and in turn I would never have got Ted and Eric. Everything seems to form part of a puzzle and the pieces all fit to make a complete picture. I often wonder if you were chosen to make way for little Flossie and what would have become of her if I hadn't have given her a home.
Eric and Ted are the latest additions to our family. They will be 6 months old in a few days time. They are growing into such healthy cats.
Life rolls on Buzz as is the nature of things. Time and tide wait for no one.
We all miss you Buzz. I hope you are having a ball at the bridge and that Ollie hasn't decided to boss you about too much. I am sure you and Alfie showed him the ropes when he arrived.
I would give anything to have you back here with us and I still have times where I expect you to just pop through the Catflap and imagine that one day you will.
Happy Birthday Buzzy Wuzz.
May 10th 2015 2:21 pm
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I am sorry that I didn't write in your diary earlier. It was a very sad day on your Rainbow Bridge Day this year. I kept seeing you in the front room full of excitement. You had dived in through the catflap and you were squeaking. Something was really exciting you. I thought it was the fact that Dad had just walked through the door. He was always your favourite and you loved him far more than you loved anyone else. You followed him every where. He was your human and you were his cat. Yet within a few seconds of him coming in throught the door you shot back out the catflap and were gone. FOREVER. The video plays over and over in my head.
I spent part of the evening laying on the bed with your sister Boo crying into her fur. It was sad. I think she knew Buzz, because when I mention your name she comes running and makes a big fuss. She hasn't forgotten you. I expect you visit her sometimes. I can feel your presence at times.
Why I didn't follow you that night to see where you were going I will never know.
I miss you Buzz. Sleep tight Baby. I love you more than words can express.
March 9th 2015 3:24 pm
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It's 3 whole years since the day I came to collect you and Boo and bring you both to your furever home. It's a day I shall never forget. I was so happy. I got to Charlotte's house to collect you half an hour early and had to sit outside in the car and wait because I really didn't want to wake up the family. It was a Friday.
I drove up the M1 with you and your sister Boo in the shiny new basket I'd bought you. You were both crying so I sang songs to you, but strangely the only one you would go quite for Somewhere over the Rainbow. Now I'm no Judy Garland or Eva Cassidy so I think my catawalling must have calmed you down. I had a sore throat for quite a while.
I never told human Dave that you were coming and when he came home at lunchtime. I said to you and Boo "Oh now we're in trouble". He just looked at you both and said "Did you have to get two". I explained that although there were 5 of you in the litter, you and Boo just went everywhere together. If you walked somewhere she would follow and if she went somewhere you would follow her. You were both so delightful.
Your sister Boo has grown into the most beautiful, elegant lady and I am sure she still misses you sometimes too.
I'm not gonna be sad today Buzz. It was such a happy day.
Miss you little man.
January 28th 2015 1:51 pm
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A thousand times I've thought of you,
A thousand times I've cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
In death, I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place
No other one can fill.
It broke my heart to lose you,
But you did not go alone.
For part of me went with you
The day God took you home.
Happy Birthday Buzzy Wuzz!
May 6th 2014 2:11 pm
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I can't believe it's a year since I last saw you. Where does time go? It's so precious!
I have been thinking about you so much over this past weekend. How I miss you. You brought so much joy and happiness to us. I remember collecting you and Boo and bringing you home to your forever home. It was wonderful. You both kept me up until about 3am every night because you would liven up and start scampering around and playing and I never tired of watching you both play. You healed my heart after Little Alfie went to the Bridge. You and Boo were so delightful I couldn't fail to fall in love with you both. You were such tiny bundles of fluff. So mischievous.
You had no fear. You just waded into everything while your sister Boo was always more cautious, not quite trusting until she was sure.
I can still picture you flying in through the catflap that Monday night but before I got the chance to pet you, you just squeaked excitedly and were gone in a flash back through. Never to be seen again. I've played it over and over and over in my head. Each time hoping for a different ending and each time it remains the same. I so wish if done something different that night. Maybe I should have looked to see what you were so excited by but I didn't. You were always excited by something. It was like you were having a big adventure.
The tears are flowing as I write. So much sadness it's just not right.
We miss you with all our hearts. If I could change it I would. I can't but I so wish I could.
Wherever you are my heart is with you.
February 13th 2014 4:46 am
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Oh My God. Samoa posted in her diary that you are Angel Dreamboat #61. This is such good news amongst all the sadness surrounding Catster. I only realised last night and was so chuffed.
I was looking at your photos last night and I started to cry again it makes me so sad when I think of what happened to you. If only I had called you back in that night when you slipped through the catflap. I have played it over and over in my head so many times but it always ends the same - you never come back. How I miss you.
Then we got the news that the Catster Community isn't closing like we thought. None of us know yet what the Catster Community will be like, if it will be the same or if there will be major changes, but it's not closing and that can only mean good news. I just can't bear the thought of yours and Little Alfie's profile pages not being there anymore. My friend Laura saved them for me on Wayback Machine and I am very grateful as I was panicking that I wouldn't be able to save them. There is all the same something very special about them being viewed on Catster. It's a magical place is Catster, a wonderful, extraordinarily beautiful, magical place.
Buzz I so miss you and Alfie. You are both in my heart with all our other furs past and present forever.
January 28th 2014 11:08 pm
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Happy Birthday baby. I wish you were still here with us. I miss you so much.
Boo has been enjoying her birthday but I know that she would have enjoyed it more if you were here too.
I think about you all the time and I remember the last time I saw you. You had just bounced through the catflap came running up to is, squeaked with excitement turned and went out again, I was about to call you in but decided to let you enjoy yourself. I've played that over and over in my head so many times. If only I had called you. If only....
Wherever you are Buzz. Fly free and know that you were truly loved.
We miss you.
August 21st 2013 2:52 pm
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I have thought so much about you and Alfie today.
You especially Buzz have been playing on my mind. I cannot help thinking that you are out there somewhere, lost. I know it's because there was no body, but I do have your collar that the man from the railway found on the line. I suppose you could have just lost your collar and wandered off somewhere, and you could now be safe, living with another family.
I know it's an irrational thought, Buzz, but it nags at me sometimes and when it does it really niggles into my brain. I can't help it something about what happened just doesn't feel right and I can't put my finger on why that is. Whatever the reason Buzz, I can't make it go away........
July 17th 2013 3:16 pm
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I miss you so. Can you really have been gone this long. Not a day goes by when I don't think of you and little Alfie.
We have two new editions to the family Buzz. Little Flossie who has Cerebeller Hypoplasia and Dr Freddie. They are delightful little kittens, Buzz and I know that both you and Little Alfie had a hand in finding them.
I have created their profile pages, so that they can join our family on Catster.
Goodnight my beautiful Angel.
June 9th 2013 2:41 pm
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I am so sorry I haven't written much in Buzz's diary. I think I have been in some sort of shock and I just couldn't bring myself to think too much, let alone write. I've been numb. It has been the saddest time. I just couldn't bring myself to write anything.
I am so grateful for all the help and support I have received from the Catster community again. I just don't know what I would have done without you all. Thank you so much.
Oh how we miss Buzz. Boo too misses Buzz so much and she wanders round the garden like a little lost soul sometimes. It is sad to watch. She does love to play and she seems to enjoy the extra time we have given her. She has got used to not being given so much freedom and doesn't go out of the house so much now.
I just had to visit Gumtree to look at the kittens. What gets into me. Why I did it I just don't know, but there they were two tiny precious ginger babies born on the 11th May. I looked at that picture and my mind told me that one was Buzz and one was Alfie. There are only 2 kittens in the litter and they are both ginger. God help me but I had to go and visit them. They were so tiny how could I not fall in love. So there you have it 2 new tiny babies are being given a home. I must be mad. Dave says I am just heading for more heartache and that I will never learn. I will put a picture of them on Buzz's page for you to see. I thought they were both boys but it turns out that one is a little ginger girly. We are going to call them Freddie and Flossie. I expect Flossie will be called Flo for short. They will come home early in July. I am apprehensive, scared and nervous.
Buzz's life was cut short unexpectedly and I hope my beautiful furbaby is having as much fun at the Bridge as he did when he was here with us. As with little Alfie if I could have that time all over again I would even if I knew what was going to happen.
My sweet, beautiful babies we miss you both so much.