|Purred: Sat Feb 9, '13 6:23am PST |
|I haven't been around much. Mama has been kinda down in the dumps a little. But I'm back now!
Mama Laura, the first year is the worst. It's the year of firsts - first birthdays, holidays, seasons without your loved one. Best thing I can tell you is to let your heart guide you. If you want to cry, then cry. If you want to get a cupcake, then get a cupcake. If you want to play it down, then play it down. I tried everything that first year, including getting really drunk on Thanksgiving because I hated the pain. We think about Banners! every day and miss her tons. I found that there's very little you can do to ease the pain the first year. It's almost like you have to let yourself experience it and let it flow through you so you can eventually move past it.
In the end, it's not so much that it gets better. It just gets different. A new normal that's a little sadder but sustainable.
In other news, I'm a reporter dog now! Mama just posted my blizzard videos on fb, and her friend who works at CNN had her post them to iReport and might use them today! Intrepid reporter dog in the blizzard!
Seriously, though, I'm not sure how I'm gonna poop. It might be a matchstick moment later.
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