|Purred: Tue Aug 23, '11 5:31pm PST |
|I've had my purr-baby for 12 years and she's always been pretty healthy. This year we thought we got lucky in catching her diabetes before it got bad, and she actually went into remission. She also developed a bladder infection that finally went away after antibiotics and special food. I thought I had dodged a bullet this year after all that, and that I wouldn't have to put her through any more stressful vet visits.
I am incredibly heartbroken to say that she is gone from my life now. I had to do the unthinkable and put her to sleep. Unbeknownst to us, she developed a very large tumor over the course of 3 months. When she stopped wanting to cuddle on my lap I thought something was up, but attributed it to the heat wave we were having. Once she stopped eating (her favorite pastime) and didn't move from the rug in the bathroom, I knew she was not doing well. I took her to the vet that day, and an x-ray confirmed my fear. I drove an hour to the nearest specialist vet hospital so she could get settled in for the night with an IV of fluids to rehydrate her and get an ultrasound in the morning. The vet was very caring, and even called me twice in the few hours they had my kitty to tell me she was still ok, and was resting comfortably.
Results showed a possible lymphoma, and even if they could remove the large mass, she would have to undergo chemo for the rest of her life, and the cancer would most likely come back if her kidneys held up (they also showed the starting signs of kidney disease) since with something that size, it has already sent out more cells to riddle other parts of her body.
It was a gut-wrenching and agonizing decision, but I decided to let my cat go while she was still comfortable and not in too much pain. I got to give her goodbye kisses and hugs, and tell her how much I loved her before I left the hospital the night before. The vet said they would make her very comfortable, and hold her and soothe her with calming words as she passed from this world to the next, and they reassured me I was doing the right thing by her.
I know its only been a few hours, but I'm still sobbing over having to put her to sleep. She was so cherished, and I spoiled her with all my love. She loved to stare out windows all day long, so I hope she's got the best view in heaven. I will miss her always, and love her forever.
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