|Purred: Thu Feb 24, '11 9:50pm PST |
|hai alex. sorry this is a lot.. but I have to pour out to someone.
The story was very tragic and it hurts to tell it over... but I'll try my best. I got yuki when he was 4 months. He was abandoned by his mother and my friend found him and his bother and sisters in a box. I was so happy because he was the first pet that I could call my own. Everything was fine , except I didn't really cats needed shots, i assumed that my friend had gotten them all shot before giving them away but when i did finally ask she told me they didn't. I was planning on taking yuki to the vet after I realized yuki was a he and not a she not too long ago. But yesterday , my brother rushed Yuki upstairs. I opened the door and saw yuki limp , he was barely breathing and he looked like he was choking on something. Luckly , my neighbor and I are best friends and we on xbox live so I asked him to come help since he knew a bit about animals. My brother told me that Yuki was eating the residue of some moisture control my dad had put down and picked up way before we got yuki. Of course I panicked and cried but seeing yuki's state really set it off and I had a minor panic attack in the kitchen. ( i have a history of panic attacks ,depression && acute insomnia)
No one would help me and both of my parents worked about 30 minutes away.
Well we got yuki to get back to a better state and he went to sleep. We fed him water. And my friend's vet suggested we try induce vomiting with peroxide. Which I soon found out later wasn't the best thing to do
We ended up getting yuki to a vet 3 hours later and he was in critical condition. He was so much pain and I could hear his cries for me while they took him away. The vet explained he's state and how even if he were to treated he'd either A. Not Make it or B.Had chances of paralysis and a very painful struggle. So we decided to put him down.
I know he's in a better place and he's not suffering. But this really took a psychological toll on me because I feel the same way I do when I was depressed && Im sleeping a lot , which isn't normal for me. It just eases the pain because Yuki is always alive in my dreams.All day I've been crying. Even when I go to the restroom I cry because yuki used to push the door open and i'd say hey! im using the restroom and he'd leave until he heard the toilet flush. I can't eat, my sheets smell like him, his little hiding spot in my room is empty. when i let my feet hang off the bed I dont feel little paws tapping at them. Nothing but sleep makes me forget. I'm just scared im going to fall back into my depression again... I'll take all the help I can get.
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