|Purred: Wed Feb 23, '11 5:05pm PST |
You see that gorgeous, wonderful tabby in the picture? That is Chimi. He has been in the family since we picked him up about ten years ago. Many things happened, and even though there were hard times, I believe he was truly happy.
We love him so much, everyone at home. It is hard to imagine life without Chimi now. I was a girl when I found him, and today I am an adult, almost 22 years old. A little over five years ago, however, Chimi was found to have Feline Leukemia. He had several ups and downs, but we came to think that he would last many, many more years with us.
But since about a year ago, his health was simply decayed too much. He has gum infection, and not even antibiotics were able to help him. Because our economical situation is really bad right now, we cannot do much more for him. He is suffering so much, and although it cost me months to accept it, tonight I finally decided, that Chimi doesn't deserve to keep enduring so much pain. He is not happy anymore.
Even right now, I still want to cling to the possibility of a miraculous recovery. Once already, when he first got really sick, we were going to do it, but the same day we were supposed to take him to the vet for the injection, he suddenly recovered. Since then, he was much stronger and even went back to his normal happy life. I was hoping, with all my heart, that the same thing would happen again. But I suppose that was very optimistic from my part...?
So, the question is, how do I keep the courage to do this, and then to endure the pain? Because I cannot imagine how life will be without Chimi by my side. He has been so much more than a pet. I have seen Chimi as my own family, my friend, my companion. I am sure you know what I mean.
I would like to hear from others who have been through similar situations. How did you manage to part with a loved cat?
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