A Cat's MEOW by Kaci Sunshine

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Meet Sasha and Tigerlily!

May 8th 2014 4:28 pm
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Dear Friends,

My new sisters Sasha and Tigerlily now have Catster pages!

There's one thing they don't have -- FRIENDS! They'd love to have friends! Please visit their pages and send friend requests!

Mom doesn't have many photos of them yet, although she has a few more of Tigerlily because she's not hiding much anymore. (And like me, she hates having her picture taken - MOL!) Mom even put a few of their baby pictures on their pages that their former mom sent her, including a cute one of baby Tigerlily looking at herself in a mirror.

Here are links to their pages (and their Catster ID #s in case the links don't work).

Sasha (Catster ID # 1324199):


Tigerlily (Catster ID # 1324201):




Thank you for celebrating my birthday with me! And . . .- some Exciting News!

May 3rd 2014 7:12 am
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Thank you for your comments and for your generous gifts on my birthday! Over the next few days, mommy will be thanking those of you who sent gifts. Catster is sometimes slow for us (or we can't get on at all) and it may take a few days for us to thank you all. Mommy is also being kept very busy and would like to tell you why . . .

We have 2 additions to our family!

Their names are Sasha and Tiger Lily. Sasha is grey and white and Tiger Lily is an orange tabby with a little white around her mouth. Tiger Lily resembles me but we're not identical.

They're both 6 years old. Tiger Lily will be 7 at the end of June and Sasha will be 7 sometime in August (mommy has to check their vet records). Their original mommy adopted them as kittens when she was in college. She now has a boyfriend who is allergic to cats . . . so now they have a new home with mommy and grandma. They've been with mommy a week.

Both are very shy, gentle, sweet girls. They've been hiding all week in mommy's bedroom. Mommy even slept downstairs on the sofa for a few nights so they could come out of hiding, do what they had to do and explore. Over the past 2 days, they're coming out of hiding more and more often. Mommy is now leaving her bedroom door open and she knows they've done some house exploring at night. Last night mommy saw Tiger Lily running out of grandma's bedroom and another time she was sitting on the stairs! They haven't interacted much with grandma and hide when she comes into mommy's bedroom. They remind mommy so much of me and Mittens and are acting exactly the same way that Mittens and I did when we first came to live with mommy.

Both cats are front declawed so there won't be any scratching issues with grandma and neither cat is a biter. Their original mommy says they're both very sweet girls. When mommy first met them, she was impressed with how sweet they were. Mommy was told that Sasha will growl and hiss when you put her in a cat carrier and is upset and aggressive when she's at the vet, but that's it.

Tiger Lily is the sweetest little love bug ever! She loves lots of attention and being petted and seems like a happy kitty. She rolls around on the floor when mommy pets her and purrs and purrs and can't get enough of the petting! Her hiding place is under mommy's bed. She started coming out from under the bed a few days ago. At first she came out from under the bed when mommy talked to her and now she's doing it more and more on her own. Last night she and mommy played a game of chase the ball. Tiger Lily played with enthusiasm and kept running after the ball.

Mommy loves that Tiger Lily is so playful because Tiger Lily is very overweight and needs all the exercise she can get (along with a change in diet from dry to wet food, which is going surprisingly well), so she can start to lose some of that weight. She's a lovable butterball! Sasha is a little overweight too. Mommy hopes that with the changeover to wet food only and having a house to roam and play in rather than confinement to a tiny apartment will facilitate their weight loss. Mommy remembers that Mittens and I were little butterballs too when we first came to live with her.

Sasha is shyer in some ways than Tiger Lily. She originally hid in mommy's closet but found the cubbyhole on the cat tree and has spent a lot of time there over the last few days. Although she's shyer with people than Tiger Lily is, she was out exploring mommy's bedroom on the first night and once mommy opened her bedroom door, was the first one out and exploring. Sasha wouldn't let mommy approach her or pet her and if mommy came into the room when Sasha was out, she'd run and hide. However, this morning there was a breakthrough. Sasha was out and didn't run away from mommy and let mommy pet her on two separate occasions. She meowed while mommy was petting her!

Mommy was able to take a few photos of them but it's hard to take decent photos of cats who are hiding. She'll wait until she has better photos and knows more about them before she makes Catster pages for them. And their former mom sent my mommy a few of their "baby" pictures and she was very excited to get them. They were adorable!

Happy purrs,


My Birthday

April 30th 2014 1:21 pm
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Tomorrow (May 1) is my birthday.

I've been told angels throw the bestest pawrties ever and I'm looking forward to celebrating my first birthday here at the Bridge with my angel friends.

If I was still on earth, I would have been 18 years old. Wish I was there to celebrate with mommy and she wishes I was there too!

I've been here at the Bridge for 6 months and a week. Mommy misses me very much and always will. She misses Miss Mittens and all her angel kitties. She often feels like she's living with ghosts . . .

Please, Please, Please! no rosettes or gifties for my birthday! If you want to wish me a happy birthday, a comment or pawmail would be most appreciated!

Thank you to my generous kitty friend Anonymous for the birthday cupcake! Yum! :)

Love to you all!

Kaci Sunshine


Thank you for the Gotcha Day Wishes. And a very SAD GOODBYE

January 29th 2014 2:04 pm
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Thank you dear friends for stopping by today to wish Miss Mittens and me a happy Gotcha Day and for the lovely Stars and Rosettes to grace our pages! We love you!

It's a very sad day for mommy and she's feeling very depressed and has been crying off and on all day. That's because we're no longer here to celebrate this special day and it hurts bad.

Soon there'll no longer be a Catster either and that hurts too. We'll no longer be able to visit our friends. We'll no longer have our memorial pages for mommy to visit. Did you know that mommy looks at our pages to *remembers* us (and cries too) and -- sshhh! please don't tell anyone -- she talks to us too.

Thank you Tundra for the pretty memento picture of Mittens and me together. Sadly, we were unable to download it onto Catster. When mommy goes to photos to download the picture and clicks *manage photos* it takes us to the Community Page. *sigh*

So, mommy downloaded the picture onto each of our pages on Cathugger. It's a different set up over there and you have to click on photos and then an album. The picture Tundra made for us is in our Catster Memento albums. Mommy will add more mementos from Catster as she gets time.

We're encountering lots of glitches on Catster. Things just aren't working like they should. E.g., we try to switch from *Friends Activity* to something else and get a white screen with a number and *bad server* notice. Then we have to get off and come back on again. It opens up on odd pages. And today we couldn't add photos. We know Catster is no longer being maintained and because of that, we may not be coming here much longer.

One of our dear Catster friends, Colette-Sidonie, is very ill and will soon be making her journey. Please PURR for her and for her mom too!

So, we say GOODBYE. It hurts saying it. It REALLY hurts! We hate saying goodbye. We sincerely hope that we will stay in touch with you, either on Cathugger, by email and possibly FB.

Miss Mittens and I and everyone in our family are going to miss all of you. Mommy nixed joining the Facebook but is now leaning towards it again because we miss our friends so much. So you might see us over there after all . . .

Love, hugs, butterfly kisses,
Kaci Sunshine, Miss Mittens and family

P.S. We'd love for you to join us on Cathugger!



January 16th 2014 1:34 pm
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VERY bad and sad news: Catster/Dogster will be shutting down on March 3.

I'm literally sick to my stomach over this horrible news and can't stop crying. I'm angry and very bitter over what I can only call a betrayal.

My angel kitties' pages will be obliterated and 7 years of precious memories and all the time, love, work and money invested in Catster -- gone in an instant!

All of my cats' photos are saved on my computer but that won't duplicate their pages. I will try to copy Kaci's diary. She has 38 *pages* of diary entries going back to early 2007. That's hundreds and hundreds of diary entries. Making copies of diaries is very time-consuming, as I learned when I copied Miss Mittens' diary a year ago. Copying the equally precious comments too will be almost impossible.

Nothing can replace their beautiful pages and so-called *forever* Stars with all the precious messages. My cats' pages are their "memorials" and my heart is breaking over this.

Just as heartbreaking is losing my friends. That hurts just as much. I don't want to lose contact with you. I'm not on Facebook because I don't like it and don't know if I will join but really don't want to lose contact with friends.

If you want to keep in contact with me, please send me a pawmail with your e-mail address and/or phone number and I'll give you mine.

Kaci's mom Teri


Hello! and Merry Christmas!

December 22nd 2013 8:16 pm
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Hello to everyone from Rainbow Bridge!

I'm fine here at Rainbow Bridge. Miss Mittens and I are ecstatic that we're together again. We love our beautiful gossamer wings and flying and soaring through the clouds, chasing butterflies, playing tag and going on picnics with our friends in the rainbow meadow and napping in the catnip gardens! Our angel siblings Callie, Pete, Jennifer & Abby are also with us and we've been having a blast! There's only one thing that makes us sad and that's mommy. She's having a rough time of it.

Mommy has been very sick and housebound for the past 3 weeks. She caught one of the nastiest URIs she's ever had. It started with 4 days of fever and then the whole nine yards afterwards. The doctor says she doesn't have bronchitis but her coughing has been brutal. The only times she's been out were to go to the doctor, the pharmacy and occasionally to take grandma somewhere. Even going out for short times made her feel worse. Despite all the medicines she's been taking, it's been taking a long time for her to get better but yesterday she finally started to feel better. Feeling so sick and unable to do much of anything means she's been lying around feeling miserable, thinking about me, feeling sadder and sadder every day and crying her eyes out. She misses me very much and her grief is as raw and painful as it was 2 months ago. Today is Abby's Rainbow Bridge Remembrance Day and also 2 months today since I came to the Bridge. It's been a rough day for mommy.

A few days before mommy got sick, she attended a pet loss support group meeting. Everyone was very kind and mommy told everyone all about me and showed everyone lots of pictures of me. Everyone was very kind and everyone actually looked at my pictures even though all the others who had lost pets had all lost their doggies. One of the leaders of the group -- to mommy's surprise -- was the veterinarian who treated me at the ER that Sunday in early October when I first got so sick. He talked to mommy for a long, long time about her concerns. Mommy thought that maybe if she could have given me a few more days, I might have bounced back. He discussed end stage kidney disease and how sick and exhausted I must have been feeling and that I was so close to the end, there was nothing anyone could really do to help me. He explained how dying from CKD can take a long time and yes, perhaps I could have hung on longer but then he explained what a long, slow, painful and horrid death dying from CKD can be. He helped mommy find peace that she didn't do anything hasty and that she did the right thing for me at exactly the right time. Mommy is very grateful to him and everyone in the group for their help.

Last week, one of the grief counselors called mommy. Mommy wasn't ready to talk then so the counselor gave mommy a homework assignment and said when mommy was ready, to call her back and they'd talk. Mommy had to write about me along with how losing me was making her so sad. She also was told to write down everything and anything else that came up, because there are always other issues and past griefs involved. Mommy did and it was very tough. She wrote and wrote and cried and cried and eventually got it all down in coherent form. And other issues did come up. Mommy called the counselor and they talked for 2 hours.

Mommy knows it was my time, knows she did everything she could for me and feels at peace about it. The thing is, she misses me . . . really, really misses me! She wants to see me, hold me, smell me, pet me, kiss me, talk to me, hear me . . . The counselor told mommy she will ALWAYS miss me, she'll never stop missing me and she'll never get over it. Once mommy truly comes to terms with that, she can begin to heal and move on. And they discovered the real issue underlying mommy's deep sadness.

The painful issue causing so much grief, pain, anger and guilt is what happened during the final hour and minutes of my sister Miss Mittens' life and the cold, callous and cruel way she was treated and handled. My passing was dignified and done in a caring, compassionate way and so was every one of mommy's other kitties. Mittens deserved the same compassionate and dignified ending the rest of us had. Mommy has never talked about what happened with Mittens and has been unable to talk about it to anyone. She couldn't let herself think about it or deal with it and shoved it down inside her, where it's been festering for 3 years. She won't say what happened to Mittens here in my diary either.

The counselor says mommy has to deal with it now. She should have spoken up back then and made an official complaint. Now she has to give voice to it and speak. She has to do it not only for herself, but for Mittens. Mommy is the only voice Mittens has and she has to speak up for Mittens. Mommy has to write a letter. She doesn't know the present whereabouts of the intended recipient and she may have to talk to others who may not want to get involved. It's going to be a difficult thing for mommy to do but she must do it for Mittens, she must speak up for Mittens. The counselor says it will help mommy deal with her anger and pain and help her heal.

Mommy will never again write anything this personal in my diary (or any of her other kitties' diaries) or in any public forum. She's not sure she's doing the right thing by writing about it here . . .

From all of us here at Rainbow Bridge -- Miss Mittens, Callie, Abby, Pete, Jennifer and me -- we wish you all a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Love & hugs,


Letter from Your Pet in Heaven

December 2nd 2013 12:31 pm
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Here's a poem I made sure mommy received and read. I want to share it with you too. It's *longish* but well worth reading. Mommy finds it very comforting.

(~ Author Unknown ~)

To my dearest family,
some things I’d like to say.
But first of all, to let you know,
that I arrived okay.

I’m writing this from the Bridge,
Here I dwell with God above.
Here there’s no more tears of sadness.
Here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy
just because I’m out of sight.
Remember that I am with you
every morning, noon, and night.

That day I had to leave you
when my life on Earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me,
and He said, “I welcome you.”

“It’s good to have you back again;
you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dear family,
They’ll be here later on.”

God gave me a list of things,
that He wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list
was to watch and care for you.

And when you lie in bed at night,
the day’s chores put to flight,
God and I are closest to you . . .
in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on Earth
and all those loving years,
because you are only human,
they are bound to bring you tears.

But do not be afraid to cry;
it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers
unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you
all that God has planned.
If I were to tell you,
you wouldn’t understand.

But one thing is for certain,
though my life on Earth is o’er.
I’m closer to you now,
than I ever was before.

There are rocky roads ahead of you
and many hills to climb;
But together we can do it
by taking one day at a time.

It was always my philosophy
and I’d like it for you, too;
That as you give unto the world,
the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody
who’s in sorrow and pain;
Then you can say to God at night . . .
“My day was not in vain.”

And now I am contented . . .
that my life was worthwhile.
Knowing as I passed along
I made somebody smile.

God says: “If you meet somebody
who is sad and feeling low;
Just lend a hand to pick him up,
as on your way you go.

“When you’re walking down the street
with me on your mind;
I’m walking in your footsteps
only half a step behind.

“And when it’s time for you to go . . .
from that body to be free,
Remember you’re not going . . .
You’re coming here to me.”


A very grateful Thank You to our friends!

November 27th 2013 2:36 pm
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Kaci has been gone for 5 weeks and it's been very hard dealing with her loss. Today is a cold, grey and rainy day and my mood matches the weather. My sister needed me to pick her up, drive her to the doctor for minor surgery, then take her to the pharmacy and finally home again. She was in a lot of pain and not feeling well and I was happy to do it. But it's a nasty day with pouring rain and congested roads and very slow moving traffic. By the time I got home this afternoon, I was miserable . . .

that is, until I opened the envelope sent by Julia, momcat to Edgar, Salem, Lucy, Emily, Felicity & family.

I was surprised, delighted and very touched (to say the least!) to find a beautiful spiral bound condolence book -- "In Loving Memory of Kaci Sunshine . . . " with pages of condolences from many of our Catster friends. There are 3 beautiful pictures of Kaci too, decorated with paw prints outlined in glitter, shiny flowers, hearts and jewels -- very beautiful! There's one picture on the cover, another in the middle of the book and one on the last page. I'm going to see if I can scan the pictures onto my computer so I can put them on Kaci's profile but I'm afraid it won't do justice to the pictures. I cried and cried while reading your condolences. At the same time, though, it lightened my heart and mood and brightened up my day.

Thank you to momcat Dana, Big Harry & family for starting and organizing everything, everyone who sent their condolences and to momcat Julia for putting the book together. It's the best gift anyone could ever have given me and I'm very grateful to you and thank you from deep in my heart. It was an unexpected and very thoughtful and welcomed gift and I will treasure it forever.

Happy Thanksgiving Day to all our friends!

Kaci's mommy Teri


Kaci is home

November 7th 2013 8:44 pm
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Kaci's vet called on Tuesday afternoon to let me know that her remains were there. I started crying so hard I could barely talk. Yesterday a friend drove me over and I brought Kaci home. Her remains are in a cherrywood box with her name engraved on a gold plate on top of the box. It's a lovely box but smaller than the ones for Miss Mittens and Abby. That made me cry for a reason I can't explain. Probably because she was so tiny at the end. It's been a very rough week and since Sunday, all I've done is cry.

God blessed me by giving Kaci into my care and now she's gone home to be with God in heaven.

Here's a lovely little poem I saw on another angel's page -- I think it was angel Aggie's page -- and copied because I love it so much:

All cats love Heaven,
they know the way there
they know where 
the angel cats fly
They'll run past the stars
and the moon and the sun
to curl up with God
in the sky.

(~ Cynthia Rylant ~)


My Beautiful Memorial Tribute on YouTube from Orange Ruffy- and his mommy

November 2nd 2013 7:47 am
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ORANGE RUFFY made a beautiful photo Memorial Tribute to me and posted it on YouTube. Every time mommy watches it, she feels sad and cries and yet smiles at the same time. Orange Ruffy says the video will remain on YouTube as long as YouTube exists.

Mommy and I love the Tribute! Orange Ruffy and his mommy spent a lot of time putting the Tribute together and we thank them for their very thoughtful and heart-touching gift!

If you'd like to see the Tribute, you can watch it on YouTube at this link: KACI TRIBUTE

If my link doesn't work, here's the url: http://youtu.be/JXxZ73H6vOM

Love & hugs,
Angel Kaci Sunshine & mommy

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