|Purred: Thu Oct 10, '13 6:26pm PST |
|Today a little after 12:00 in the afternoon I helped my old friend Misty cross the rainbow bridge
I've had Misty since I was 11 years old when I found her as a part of a litter of kittens in my yard. A few weeks ago I found out she was in the last stages of renal failure. I did my best to keep her happy and comfortable until the day I would feel it was time to let her go. Today was that day
Misty rapidly lost weight over the months and became increasingly senile and confused. Sometimes she'd fall off the window sill or a bed and frequently I'd catch her just staring off into space. She lost her hearing too and forgot how to use the litter box. However she still was her usual happy affectionate self and would always plant herself on your shoulder if you were sitting on the couch, or in your lap. She loved to be loved and would purr and purr and have conversations with you the more attention and affection you would give her.
2 nights ago I found her hiding in the basement closet. Her eyes appeared very sunken in, her breath smelled bad, she seemed more lethargic than usual, her voice was raspy and she just seemed worn out. She wasnt able to walk anymore and was urinating on herself. When I looked into her eyes I had that same feeling I had previous times with my other senior cats and I knew it was time to say goodbye. So last night I kept her close by and boiled her some chicken which she still had somewhat of an appetite for, kept plenty of water nearby and I lined one side of my bed with wee wee pads and towels and let her sleep with me.
This morning I brought her downstairs so her other brother and sister could say goodbye. Her brother Oliver who is usually a brat to her, stayed close by watching us. Eventually he hopped up on the couch and lied down next to her. While I was petting misty and crying Oliver rested his paw on her back and kept it there for a while. Once I started sobbing he reached out and put his paw on my shoulder. It always amazes me how intuitive and sensitive animals are during hard/distressing times.
I stayed with Misty all morning petting her and kissing her and hand feeding her tiny bits of chicken and making sure she had water nearby since she was still thirsty. Eventually my vet came over and he put her to sleep with me by her side in her own home. It was the kindest way I could let her go and I know in her final moments, she had to have felt how loved she was and how special she was to me.
She was the last of my "old timers" to cross the rainbow bridge. I feel so hollow and yucky. Not sure how else to explain it. A few of my cats I had from when I was 10/11 years old (I'm now 29)Losing them is so hard because they were with me throughout so many different life stages. Especially being an only child, my pets have always been a tremendous comfort during tough times and wonderful companions. I've had Misty since I was just a kid still playing with barbies. She's been with me through so much and losing her is not only like losing a member of my family, but it's like losing a part of my childhood. It just feels so strange to know all of my old timers are gone. It's a chapter I was not ready to close.
I can only hope that Misty was greeted warmly by all of her furry brothers and sisters (and mom and dad) who passed on before her. It was definitely her time to go I don't doubt that. I didn't want her to get any worse as it was hard enough watching her decline steadily over the last 48 hours. But she is at peace now and her suffering is over finally.
Misty, you were truly loved. I will miss our daily "talks" and the way you would ever so politely tap my shoulder when you wanted something to eat if you were behind me on your window. I will miss your motor boat purrs which were so loud, you could drown out the tv sometimes. I won't remember you how you were the last day or so. I will remember you being the happy, purring, "smiling" cat you always have been who had an overwhelming abundance of affection and headbutts and love inside such a small package. Good night sweet girl. You're missed so very much
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