Purred: Wed Oct 7, '09 6:45pm PST |
 |  |  |  | OMC I JUST NEED TO VENT HERE I JUST CAME IN FROM OUTSIDE AND I AM CRYING SO HARD I CANT SEE THE KEYBOARD!!!!! WHY WHY WHY WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN TO ME?!?! ALL I WANTED TO DO WAS SOMETHING GOOD FOR THEM!!!!!! *takes deep breaths* ok. I'll explain:
I didnt have school this week and I was excited bc I was going to take Tigger and Milky Way the feral females to be spayed. I set up an appointment at the vet's and everything. The only problem was catching them. Those traps used for ferals arent found in this country and not a single vet's office wanted to lend me a small dog cage to put them in. The best I had was sturdy cardboard boxes and I was willing to try it with those. This is my first time ever trying to catch a feral cat and now I've learned my lesson , NEVER AGAIN!!!! I WAS STUPID ANND NAIVE DID I REALLY THINK I COULD CATCH THEM IN CARDBORAD BOXES?!?! long story short" I caught Milky tiwce and she escaped from me TWICE after an hour of paitient trying and I vaught Tigger once and she also escaped. Even with me mom holding the box down she was desperate and outsmarted us all. I have now ruined the trust both cats had me and I wont be surprised if they never let me pet them again. Plus I've been trying to catch Tigger for a year now and the fact thay she was here today was just a miracle and she will probably never come here again after what happened to her today. ITS JUST SO **** FRUSTRATING!!!!! I didnt catch them and Tigger will probably go into heat again soon and get pregnant and as for Milky , Milky whom I've raised and loved she'll end up the same way and IT WILL BE ALL MY FAULT!!! I swore I wouldnt let her end up like that and now she will. I just wish I could SPEAK to them and tell them its for their own good!!!! I dunno how I'll catch them now, it's back to school next week and my time will be limited I wish I had never gotten involved with them in the first place bc its sooo emotionaly draining. I wish I could just sedate them with a dart like they do for wild animals and I just feel so hopeless for weeks I had been looking forward to this week where I would get them spayed... I was so excited and now I'am MAD. Mad at myself , at the cats and at everything!!!!! this post has no other purpose other than venting sorry about that and if anyone has a suggestion for catching them bc soon it will be too late, tey'll be killed or kicked out of the neighborhood    |  |  |  |  |
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