Purred: Sat Jan 5, '13 4:50am PST |
 |  |  |  | Dear Meouwmy to Mr Flufflers.....Hallo....
Lots of stuff I can tell you, to, perhaps, help to make you feel a little better?....don't know....But I will have a go.....
a) Many years ago I had a beautiful, intelligent, loving little black cat called Arnold...he went out every day and I worried...of course I did.....but one day, instead of getting him in at his usual time (6.00pm), I wanted to see something on the television, so I left him out for longer.....he got run over and died....was it my fault for not getting him in earlier? yes/no/maybe.....perhaps you feel a bit like this about Mr Flufflers and your calling him in? I don't know....if you do feel guilt, as I did....then have to say to you that for me, the guilt has never totally passed, nor the frustration that he was a very young cat with a very bright future (he was SO intelligent) that was cut off short....!! here...gone!! and that was it...!! But the days pass, the months pass, the years pass....and the pain and guilt subside, but never go away (I still have his bath toy that we used to play with together when I had a bath...it is a turtle that you wind up and put in the water and he used to bat it around the bath)
b) The cat that I CANNOT LET GO OF....I cannot....(like you cannot let go of Mr Flufflers) was Joseph Conrad....he was the kitty-love of my life.....he was such a pain and a trial, (Jeez...he was 'orrible...!!) and I had to work so HARD to make his life bearable for him...he would pee everywhere; he would fight anything that moved (big dogs, small cats, people...most of my friends and relations were TERRIFIED OF HIM...he would lurk in dark places and then grab their ankles...!!)....he was SO AFRAID of everything all the time BUT SO BRAVE.....I ADORED him....we would lie on the bed together and look into each other's eyes and we were at peace...together....for a little while.....(I, also, have always been afraid of everything...but I do not pee everywhere....!!)
Dear Mr Fluffler's Meouwmy....two things here that might help you...don't know.....
1) I have not (as I said) been able to give Joseph Conrad up (he has been gone three years now)....just can't do it yet....SO I wrote a little book BY HIM....and I started a page by him on Facebook...'Grandad Conrad'.....have a look, perhaps....and he and I write....and, yes, in my head and in my heart he is still here...and we do have a laugh sometimes......perhaps, if you wish, Mr Fluffler could join in? (believe me, it does help)....
2) I (the Meouwmy of the Arnold Schwarzenegger and the Joseph Conrad and so many other loved kitties) am now 65 years old.....and I have had SO MANY loved-kitties with me over the years.....and sometimes, now, I forget which one is which....and they all merge into a beautiful, black (mainly black, or black and white) Kitty....(when I, the Meouwmy was young,or younger, the Auntie who brought me up used to get me and my cousins mixed up and call us by each other's names or by the same name).....
Dear Mr Fluffler's Meouwmy.....eventually, after you have had many more beautiful kittypeople you will accept the death of Mr Fluffler....because you will have to....
Have a look at 'Grandad Conrad...you are very welcome there...and, you never know, it might help.....
All best wishes
Jan (the Meouwmy) and Grandad Conrad |  |  |  |  |
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