Saying Goodbye: Memorials & Support > When will the pain go away


Angel at the- Rainbow bridge
Purred: Sat May 19, '12 12:52am PST 
I passed in Feb, 2008 and sometimes mommy cries into her pillow when she thinks of me. It never goes away, it gets easier, but the hole in your heart stays.

One day you will be with your baby again.

» There has since been 1 post. Last posting by , May 19 10:40 am

Other Meows & Purrs > My experience with Cat hoarding and FeLv

Angel at the- Rainbow bridge
Purred: Sat May 19, '12 12:27am PST 
I thought Id share a little bit my story as it may help someone.

My mother was always a animal lover of all kinds, but her soft spots were for cats. We only had three cats up until I was twelve when someone dropped a very pregnant mommy cat off at our door, my mother could not turn her away and soon after we had kittens. My mother had been very good at getting everyone fixed up until then as she fell onto hard times.

They continued to breed until we had somewhere around 20 cats all inside...somewhere along the way mommy cat contracted the Feline Leukemia Virus and they passed it among each other..some were born with it like my angel Gizmo.

It had gotten out of control, no one wanted a sick cat, no kill shelters wouldn't take them. So my mother cared for them the best she could as surly a short life must be better then being put down and slowly they would get sick and die. Some died as kittens, some got sick one day and the next they would be dead. The worst was when one suffered it broke our hearts. out of the 20 only three are alive today. The hardest was when my baby Gizmo developed tumors on his legs and would pass out on the floor..I had to have him put down at 7yrs.

This experience was one of the worst things of my life and my heart goes out to anyone who has or is experiencing anything like this.

It has made me OCD about my current cats health to the point some might think I'm crazy.. over protective and unable to handle the death of a beloved animal. I feel guilty, like I could of done something more.
My mother and I cry about all the cats we have lost from time to time.

I fear that my love for cats could turn into a nightmare like before because I feel like I need to help/save them all..I know it isn't possible.

» There has since been 3 posts. Last posting by , May 22 11:30 am

PLEASE NOTE: Due to the rapid nature of forum postings, it's quite possible our calculation of the number of ensuing forum posts may be off by one or two or more at any given moment.