My best friend of 14 years lies next to me right now, currently diagnosed with Wet FIP and in her final days and possibly moments. This is a terrible loss to my family but as a grown man I can not explain how distraught I am. I had no idea this disease existed and could be so lethal. My beautiful girl is 14 years old and that is an amazing amount of time for her love an companionship so for this I am grateful. I can say that I dont think I have ever had a pet that I loved so much and shamelessly. I cried like a baby with the vet when she told me what was her fate. I'm am ashamed to say that she has been my best friend all these years. I got her when I was just 25 and she has been ther day in and day out. Tonight I am struggling with the decision of her passing. I don't know if I will be able to make the decision. I am enternally thankful that my adult daughter,19, has been very supportive and I was able to let down my macho father role for this event. She is an amazing young women and I thank god for her friendship as an adult. This will probably be the last day for my old friend and its hard since she seems happy to be near me even though she is so sick. My work and my friend don't understand how devistated I am and they continue interacting with me business as usual which in my opinion is just inconsiderate. I want to be alone with her in her final days. I want time to grieve for her but as a grown man I am expected to suck it up and move on. My daughter is the only person in the world that accepts and completely understand how bad this is for me.
This is all very sad for all of us, FIP is devistating.
I will pledge to get involved in some small form to honor my best friend and will begin helping rescue pets. She was a tough angry kitten that most won't put up with. I gave her a home when others didn't want her and she gave me her loyalty companionship and unconditional love.
Update 8-10-10
Pita- "thanks for loving me for all of my years and being a faithful companion. My life has been full of joy and happiness every moment and thank you for having the strength to let me go this morning. I know you will be sad but I promise you will see me again. We then can play fetch or hide & seek all you want. I will keep Cleo company for you. I love you and our last moment together this morning was the comfort I needed to let go of this sick frail body? It meant more to me than you could have known, my pain is over my but my love and devotion for you will never be"
"I promise I will see you again in a place where pain and disease are not holding back our bonds"
Mike- until a cat has chosen you as its owner you will never understand the difference between owning a pet and how different a relationship is when a cat chooses its owner.
I am so sorry...FIP is a terrible disease..I am sorry I was not around when you posted this earlier but mom has had a very difficult month and is just now catching me up on Catster...
Pita..Your Dad gave you the final gift of love he could give you..Released you from your pain but it was the beginning of his pain and he will never ever forget you..Ypu are with him always and forever....
it has been almost 8 months since. I appreciate everyone's condolences. I am a cat person but not so much a blogger. I cried again like a baby this evening remembering this terrible night rereading the posts. I miss her terribly and I'm thankful for every picture I took and that I spent a few momments jotting down my feelings for my Pita this terrible night in August. I still expect to see her when I walk in my room at night and every so often I dream she is waking me up just like she did when she wanted to be pet. This i am eternally thankful for. To dream so vividly of my past on pet.
I'm so sorry Pita had to leave and that your only supportive personal contact was your daughter. How wonderful for you to have her and to found this fantastic cat community. Most people feel awkward expressing sentiments of concern about the loss of a human and often tend to circumvent the situation altogether. If someone isn't an animal lover, they are at an extra loss to comprehend your grief. We know that what you felt was very real and you shouldn't feel any shame for your emotions. I hope that you are now able to recall all of the pleasant memories that you shared with Pita and that your heart is healing.