September 20th 2009 5:39 pm
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It is 3 years today my beautiful boy. Not a day passes when I don't think of you, I still miss you so. You were such a sweet and special boy- you will be in my heart forever...
Sometimes I feel guilty for loving Loki so much now, but then I think to myself he is ,like you a wonderful boy , a special and gentle soul, and I know you want us to love him as we love you. Our hearts have room for so much love don't they? And I think also that if you had not become ill,somehow Loki would have come into our lives along with Maggie and you would have been the best of friends.
I will always love you, my sweet and gentle Peanut. Forever and ever......
December 19th 2008 11:42 am
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I have been reflecting recently on Christmas and my memories of it from up here at the Rainbow Bridge. Mama and Kiwi will both tell you that I loved Christmas! Once the tree was up my favorite place was under the tree. I never messed with it, well, okay maybe just a little on the bottom ornaments. I was a cat after all! But lying under those twinkling lights and smelling that tree smell was just wonderful.
My earliest Christmas memory is of me posing with a Christmas bear for a picture. I must have been about 3 months old. Note to Mama, find the photo and scan it for my page! I knew Christmas was special then. I got toys too! I was such a pampered and loved baby… If I could grant one wish from the bridge it would be that all kitties could be as loved and cared for as I was.
The next year they posed me with toy train and a little engineer hat. That picture is on my page. Peanut the Engineer Cat!
Of course there were the Christmases they tried to pose all three of us kitties together for a special Christmas picture. Easier said then done…. I’d sit with Kiwi, then Muffin would get in the picture, then one of us would leave. We’d all look different ways…Something shiny would catch our eyes….I know it frustrated Mama and Daddy to no end. But I know they treasure those pictures since both Muffin and I live at the bridge now. One with Muffin and me is still on our computer desktop. Then there is a picture of me alone which I think Mama especially loves .I’m wearing a Santa hat, the one that she made for a Santa doll…I hope she adds that to my page too!
For my last Christmas, just before I got sick, I got a special present. As you know I grew into a very big boy. I did not fit into the regular cat beds like Kiwi and Muffin. Mama and Daddy bought me a beautiful big squishy soft green bed! It was really a medium dog bed, but it fit me perfectly! From the minute it was unwrapped I knew it was mine. I got right into it and I loved it so much! Muffin and Kiwi knew it was mine so they never really tried to use it. It’s funny, now finally Kiwi uses the bed. She is so tiny in that bed, but I think it makes her still feel close to me. Once in a while Maggie will lay in it too, but never Loki, although I wish he would. We would have been such good friends…. Anyway, he is a big boy like I was, so it would be a perfect fit.
The first Christmas after I went to the Rainbow Bridge my pawrents were so sad …. Even with Maggie and Loki in their lives they still felt a hole in their heart. Knowing how much I loved Christmas made it especially hard. Then Mama found a special ornament that seemed so perfect. The ornament was a beautiful pewter angel, bearing a cat in her arms. This was hung on the tree and the photo of me in the Santa hat was put into a special Christmas frame for all too see. After Christmas the angel was moved from the tree to a place of honor next to my photos on the wall where she remains today.
Christmas is a special time, for both person and cat, isn’t it? It’s a time when we remember the love we share, and love truly is forever.
September 20th 2008 9:02 pm
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Its been two years since you left us Peanut. I still think of you everyday, we still miss you so much. When I close my eyes I can still feel your furry body on my shoulder with your cheek nuzzled into my neck. You were such a loving boy, so sweet , so special. I'll never forget the first time I saw you, how you looked me right in the eyes. I knew you were destined to be our cat, but I will never understand why you had to leave us so soon....I cherish the memories of the time we had with you and I am so grateful for that time. You were a very special soul, a true angel on earth.
Often I think about how much you would have loved playing with Loki, Maggie and Abby, and they with you. We are so grateful to have them in our lives. They have helped us to heal , yet they can never replace you. I know you sent them to us , they show us that in special ways.
We saw a dragonfly on the door 2 days ago. It reminded me so much of the day you left us, but also it reminds me of the way you sent us Maggie and Abby. Its beauty is so delicate , such a miracle of nature like life itself.
And the peace rose has a bloom unfurling today, a very special September bloom , a reminder of you and the continuity of nature.
I'll always love you Peanut, you will always live in my heart and soul.
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