February 7th 2014 1:01 pm
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It's Indiana's meowmy here. I was just overcome with incredible sadness and grief of the loss of Indy. And all of my recent Angel furrriends. I was reading an article on huffingtonpost.com about how a woman was on a ship when her sweet kitty went to the Bridge, and how some passengers around her, didn't "get it" and made comments like-"she was probably feeling so sick she didn't even know who she was with"(she was with a beloved cat sitter) and "Oh, it's just a cat, you'll get over it in a couple of days"
I mean, come on. REALLY??!!? Really.
Until Catster, I never knew that my love was ok, that it wasn't too much, that it was just purrrfect the way it was. And we are not crazy cat people, being goofy over "just a cat" or dog over on dogster. These babies are our family, our children, our children's sisfurs and brofurs, my parent's grandkitties, as they call them. What gives? I mean really?
I guess I am still processing this whole thing. Losing the pages, losing contact with some furrriends after March 3rd, losing another part of Indiana.
His page is the page I still have yet to start saving on Chrome.
His is the most dear to me and most special.
And I can't bring myself to do it just yet, because to be honest, I still don't fully forgive myself for not being in the room with him when he gasped that final breath and meow (yes, I was there when they gave him that final dose to help him Cross Over the Bridge because it was clear he wasn't going to come back to me)
I still wish I took him to the vet Sunday when he started acting off, not Tuesday night. I don't blame the vet who I was working with those two days (ok maybe a little because she said he was just adjusting to the slippery elm helping his digestion and to wait) This is the one time that I did not trust my instincts and I failed him.
And I just don't want to not be able to log in and look at his page. I don't want to lose this. I am so angry. And so sad. And then both of those things at myself for not being kinder to myself because I really did my best at that time.
I don't mean to write this to get any sympathy about how good of a meowmy I was, I just need to vent and deal with the fact that I am losing another part of myself that will leave another hole that no one but Indy can fill. But I so cherish all the memories I have with him, and am so blessed with the Love from Kitty Pryde and even little Jack.
Jack truly was a gift, for both Kitty and me. I really do believe that.
I just feel so blue today.
Kristin, Angel Indy's Meowmy
August 12th 2013 4:19 pm
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It's been just over two years since you have been gone and the feelings from that day still come rushing to me like it just happened. I didn't expect to feel so much grief for you today, but my heart is very very heavy and I am feeling very blue.
You were born today, in the year 2008. You would've been five today on earth!!! That's definitely mancat age! Oh, my sweet little loverboy.
Some days I am afraid that I won't remember the smell of your fur or your little nose kissies when it was bedtime. I really miss how you would nurse your blankie on my lap. =)
You would be so proud of little Jack if you were here, and I know you two would've been friends-he likes to play just as much as you did! I know he kind of looks like you, but he is not a replacement at all-there is no other being that could ever replace you.
You would be so proud of Kitty too!!! She has been so brave and also so sweet with Jack. She is even more beautiful than she ever was too! I remember one day a long time ago when you were watching a man and a little boy out of the window, and they were watching you. And then Kitty came and the daddy said, "look at the white kitty! She is beautiful!" and I got so mad because you are just as handsome as Kitty is beautiful! But what do they know anyway!
I miss you so much. I know that I made mistakes when you and Kitty were kittens. I could've done things better and I am sorry. I did my best.
No matter what, my heart will always have this huge, special place for you that will never be filled. A place that is all yours and full of our memories. And that makes me so happy and lucky!
Sending you lots of love on your birthday Indy. I miss you very much.
PS from Indy:
Thank you so much fur the messages and presents for my birthday! I is partying with Angel Sugar right now, Natasha, Alex, Jasper and all of my dear Angel furrrriends, new and old!!
Thanks to Angel Crystal (a doggie!) fur the cake and fur helping to throw me a party with my other Bridge birthday kitties in the Rainbow Bridge group!
Thank you to Jezebel DG (yep!!!) fur the lovely message =)
Thank you to Smiley Cassanova fur the Beachball and to Monster fur the Beachball as well!
Thank you to Teebo, Callie and Rose fur the Kite!
Thank you to Bear, Angel Onyx, Jasper, my new angel furrriend, and their furmily fur the Lemonade with a twist of Nip!
and Thank you to Angel Sugar fur the yummy Ice Cream Cone.
Bridge furrriends are the best. To all the meowmies and daddies, we all just wants you to know, we are far away, but are never gone and we all have each other until you get here to be with us too!
June 18th 2013 4:31 pm
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Yesterday I was a DDP! Thank mew to my furriends who helped me to celebrates, both new furriends and old. I will give proper thank mews, pawromise!
I has something so much more important on my mind right now, and Mom does too. All us furrriends have been on Catster fur awhile, mostly. And if you has been on fur long, you all would be furmiliar with a very special kitty. This special kitty was called Skeezix. He also wrotes a very kewl thing on Catster, befur Catster got all "fancy...and I use that word furseeeshusly" and this Kewl thing was called The Cat's Meow Blog.
Skeezix ungraciously was told no longer would he write fur Catster. It was a very sad sad day fur all of us furrriends.
Well, today Skeezix made the biggest journey yet-he came to us here up at the Rainbow Bridge. I know all us kitties are super special, and Skeezix was no excepshun to that.
If ya didn't knows Skeezix, and even if ya did, would you send a purrr up to the Bridge and to his furmily? They are so sad right now, as is so many of our furrriends.
June 13th 2013 9:12 am
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My bridge day came and went last month. Mom had been checking my page that day, but was sad too, but is so thankful fur all the furriends to celebrated my memory. I even got some Rosettes too! I have some thank mews to say!
Thank mew to Crystal fur the lovely PMail. =)
Thank mew to Angel Taag, Nuk, and their furmily fur the lovely Golden heart!
Thank mew to Gunnarr T, and his furmily fur the Angel star!
Thank mew to Felix (Honey Angel); Luke, Tully, Sammy and Natasha; Angel Rebby and Angel Hazel Lucy fur the Hearts!
Thank mew to Mia, Milo, Xena Princess Warrior and my Angel furriend Queen Tallulah and furmily; Angel Hooch and furmily; Finney, Lacey and Angel Alex; Bear, Angel Onyx, Jasper and furmily; and Molly Angel fur the Rainbows!
It's such a strange thing to has another Rainbow Bridge Day. I watched over Mom extra careful that day and helped to dry her wet eyes with my Angel paw. I whispered in Kitty's ear to give extra loves too-even though she already does. And even little Jack too-I asked to to purlease be a good boy and trust Mom a little more, and he is listening. He even is gettin a little freckle on his nosie like I had MOL!
Evfurry pawrent knows how hard it is when we have to say good bye and even though time is s'posed to heals the wounds, some never close up.
I am so lucky and happy to have such wonderful furrriends here that I have met. I love you all.
May 22nd 2013 3:00 pm
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My Rainbow Bridge Day is coming again, fur the second time. Another year apart, another day of tears that I can't paw away.
It makes me so sad to see Mommy (even with Kitty and little Jack there fur comfurts) feel so alone sometimes without me, even though she will always have the Love Button that I left on her heart.
There is something some hoooomans say, and this is my version of it-You will never know true love until you've known the love from a furbaby.
I don't know about any other fur, but I know fur me, and fur my sisfur, we wouldn't have known true love if we didn't have our mommy and all our good furrriends.
I led Mom onto the internets ta find something special to say fur me, 'cause sometimes it's still too hard to find the words herself...here's one thing that was nice, I thought, since I was homeless, and this sounds like my half-brofur Jack that was homeless too, and Kitty who was homeless too:
To Love Again
Oh what unhappy twist of fate
Has brought you homeless to my gate,
The gate where once another stood
To beg for shelter, warmth and food
For from that day I ceased to be
The master of my destiny,
While he, with purr and velvet paw
Became within my house the law.
He scratched the furniture and shed
And claimed the middle of my bed,
He ruled in arrogance and pride
And broke my heart the day he died.
So if you really think, Oh Cat!
I'd willingly relive all that,
Because you come forlorn and thin
Well don't just stand there - come on in!
April 2nd 2013 3:20 pm
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Happy Easter! I got so many wishes of goodness, thank mew! I has to do something good in return. You see, since I went to the Bridge, and Harrison found a new furmily, Mom hasn't been on Catster as much (I tell her she is silly!) and so I have lots of zealies to share. Does anyone know of a little kitty or a few who might need some extra so I can shares?
Thanks fur the halps!
March 15th 2013 12:44 am
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I thought now might be as good a time as any to tell you about my very special visit with mommy a few weeks ago. And I visited again too this past Tuesday! All mommy has to do is ask fur her spirit guide, and there I will go!
So mommy did this class a few weeks ago, and learned this thing called Reiki. It's awl about life energy and good stuffs, and also, if you has a spirit guide, well, sometimes they can helps with the reiki. During the class mommy had to do these things called meditashunnns, and usually she's not so good at them, cause she says she has a busy mind. But this one was so very special.
In the meditashunnn, mommy went ups a mountain and when she got there, she imagined a rainbow, and in her imaginashun, the rainbow was limitless, and long like a big old slide, she even slid on it fur a minute! Well, so her reiki master said to ask if she had a spirit guide, fur it to come out if it wanted. Well, I gots to say too that in this meditashunnn, mommy imagined all these cloaked figures standing in a line on either side of the rainbow, like fur pawrotecshun. And so mommy asked fur a spirit guide to helps, and guess what! There I was!!! I walked right through the middle and out of the rainbow, with awl the protecshun from the cloaked dudes, and I ran right up to mommy and jumped up fur loves. And she was sooo happy. And remember, this wasn't a dream! It was all real! Then I gave mommy a present. They said she should see a little box, but I gave her a golden treasure chest, and in it I put Harrison's goldish blankie that he slept with, and then when mommy picked it up, it turned into my favorite blankie, the one I used to nurse from, and the same one that mommy put away in a drawer so no other kitty could use it. Then we had to ride a swan down the mountain and as we went down, I slowly disappeared and all mommy had left at the bottom was my blankie, but also the knowing that I would always be her spirit guide. She took out the blankie and now it's under her pillow :)
I visited again on Tuesday. Mommy went to a gathering where a dude was playing healing Tibetan bowls, and I came to visit. But when he played that silly gong, I rolled around and decided it was time ta go!
It was so kewl to visit mommy where she could see me too. It's just a reminder that we angels are always there fur our furmilies, seen and unseen.
March 11th 2013 4:35 pm
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Purrrrrs fur my buddy Hooch. He just crossed over the Bridge aftur a long and hard fight to be well. His meowmy was such a good meowmy and helped him so furry much. I've been wanting ta tell you awl about how I visited Mommy and showed her I'm her special spirit angel always with her, but I think I will shares it later. This post is fur Hooch.
Fly free furrriend.
January 11th 2013 11:56 pm
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I wanted to stops by and say hello and Happy New Year! We, my furrrriends and I up at the Bridge, we had such a fun night. Did you know at the bridge they has nip-champagne mol! I was a little too young last time, but I has been at the bridge long enuffs now that I can has some! We all made a special trip down to visit our dear furmilies and furrrriends too...did ya feel us?
I am so proud of my sisfur Kitty too. She's been such a sweet girl and giving mommy so much extra loves lately.
I don't has much to say really, just wanted ta checks in with my furrrriends :).
Bonks and love,
November 30th 2012 1:31 pm
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Guess whatZ!!! I was a DDP on Thanksgiving! ON THANKSGIVING!!! What an honor and how special it felt ta be able ta give thanks fur meeting all my furrriends on Catster and fur having the time I had with you guys. And thank you to Tate fur tha turkey-that was one of my favfurrrite treats! and Thanks to Angel Buddie and all his furmily fur his message, Tabatha (the dreamette) fur her message and picshure, and to Smiley Cassanova too fur the message! So much ta be thankfuls for, indeed!
With Love and Bonks,
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