June 7th 2012 10:53 am
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I have been away a lot lately. Mommy says it's cause she gets sad coming onto Catster sometimes, and then she doesn't help me to write in my diary, which makes me sad. We still love our furrriends so much, but with so much that has been happening lately, it's been tuff fur her and me too.
The title of my diary today is new beginnings, and it's because Mommy and I are having a new beginning right now. We have been afraid to write about it fur fear of losing our furrriends, and at the same time, I keep telling Mommy that true furrriends love and supports each othfur. Evfurry fur knows about Harrison and my troubles. It's not a secret. We even were furmous fur a minute when our good furrriend Monster's Mommy wrote about us in her article fur the Humane Society. Some furrriends already know this, but Mommy has been struggling and it's time fur tha trooofths. She decided, aftur lots of weepies and talks with the vet, Jackson my dude furrriend, and the othfur official vet behaviorist, that Harrison needed to has a diff'rnt furever home. I feel awful 'cause Mommy at night gets so upset 'cause she can't get his special cuddles, and then I get upset 'cause I wonder why aren't my cuddles good! I guess they are just diff'rnt, that's what Mommy says.
Mommy brought Harrison back to his rescue. Even though we lost Indiana, she says the loss is like the same feeling, even though it's diff'rnt. We had so much halps from furrriends, 'specially Angel Alex's Mommy, who was trying so hard ta helps. But the right home wasn't coming, and Mommy feared what if Harrison went to a home and then something bad happened and he got thrown outside or even worse, brought to a bad shelter. Mommy called the rescue and ovfur lots of tears, spke with Harrison's guardian there, who helped with the adoption in tha furst place, and they both were furry emoshiunals. She said to purlease bring Harrison back, that he will always have a home and never have a time limit. Even the vet behaviorist that Jackson referred us to called them, and said so many good things about Harrison and how he is the best kitty, but maybe he should be the only kitty, 'cause his awesomeness is just so big.
I fear that if I wasn't so scared about some stuff, Mommy would've found me another home instead of Harrison. Harrison was the kitty that evfurryone, the vets, behaviorist, Jackson, all said would adjust much better and smoother in a new place 'cause he's just so kewl. Me, well, the only home I have evfur known since I was about 6-8 weeks old was my mommy's home. Mommy keeps wondering if she made the wrong choice daily, but the way things were getting, I wasn't eating anymore and whenevfur I moved, Harrison would try to get me. Even when he was on his harness and about to go fur his loved walks, if I was hidden on the couch behind a pillow and moved, he would want to get me instead. Plus, this last time that he did got me, I didn't just pee pee, I poopied all over myself. and my favorite spot and other stuff too.
I am getting more comfy again though. I am sleeping in my special spot again and I am now going in and out of rooms without looking behind my back and crouching low to the ground. And I am eating lotsa food again! And I am talking to Mommy again a whole bunch MOL! She is always saying ta me, what's a matter Kitty?
I hope that my furrriends can understand how hard this was and still is fur Mommy. Some do that we have spoken with (and we are grateful and blessed fur their support), but I think some may not. When we has kids, they is fur life. That was the plan. And if Mommy could've changed everything, she would have in an instant.
We are keeping Harrison's page up 'cause he is still such a huge part of our life. I think he may paw in his diary too from time to time =)
Love and purrrrs and hope fur understanding,
Kitty and mommy
We know that your Mom made a very difficult decision, but it was the right decision for the whole family. It wasn't fair to you to have to live in fear because of Harrison.
Harrison is a wonderful, marvelous boy - just not good with other cats. You and your Mom worked so hard to make things work with Harrison, but sometimes it's not meant to be.
Sending you and your Mom lots of purrs and hugs.
Of course we love you and your mom. You did everything anyone could think of to make it work, and nobody will be mad at you for doing what is best for you, Harrison, and mommy. She is a kind, loving person.
It will all be okay, Kitty. You need to eat, and Harrison is being cared for. He will always remember the love he got from your mom.
This is why we love you and your mommy so furry much Kitty P. Because your mom's heart is as big as the sun and unfortunately it breaks as much, like my mommy's. Good thing they have each other to cry to when it does break. We're so sorry we couldn't find him a good home, we thought we did there for a bit. But your mom is THE BEST! Do you hear me? THE BEST, MOST NICEST PURRSON WE HAVE EFFUR MET. It's no one's fault and your mommy's heart will eventually mend, but we are here for her as long as she needs us.
Luv you guys!!
We love you and and and your mommy too!!! We know Harrison will find a pawsome home and and and maybe your mommy will get to talk to his new mommy/daddy when that happens!!! You need to be strong for your mommy and lap up her tears and and and snuggle with her and give her lots of headbonks!!!
Thank mew so much friends. Mommy got all weepy again with your comments, especially yours Angel Alex. It's why she didn't help me paw this fur so long, cause she knew it would be real then. Mommy says each of us kitties, me, Harrison and Indy, all have a different part of her heart. She told some meowmies this too...I'm her secial baby kitty no matter what, her first love. Indy was her soul kitty and Harrison was no doubt, her heart kitty.
She says he visits her dreams a lot and he sometimes doesn't even remember her in them!
Sometimes I wonder if it's good that our mommies are all such good loving people. Maybe that's why we kitties love them so much though, cause we can tell and that's why we picked them
We agree, your Mom is the best, she tried and tried and we know the decision wasn't easy, but she had to do what was right for Harrison and you. Harrison will always have a special place in your Moms heart....
Our Mom brought in her Moms mean cat, she has to live in the extra room so we know how your Mom feels....she will live the rest of her life there because my Mom promised her Mom she would take care of her. It saddens Mom that Kandi can't be with us, she loves to go after us especially Zeke...so we know how your Mom feels and how hard it was, but your Mom did so much for Harrison and she knows she did the right thing for you her first fur baby....
We are happy to hear you are doing better now and you are eating again.
We send butterflies from heaven for you and your Mom, we will be purring that your Mom heart will heal again.
QT and family
Your Mom went above and beyond what most people would have done for Harry. We're purring he finds the home that's right for him soon. I'm a very timid kitty too like you and would hate to always be afraid in my own home. It's just Lena and I with Sarge off at the rainbow bridge. We don't really get along. Lena chases me away sometimes when I get to close to her and Dad. She's fierce! She'd put Harry in his place but he'd probably chase me like he chased you. Harry needs to be an only kitty and you probably need to be too. There's nothing wrong with that. Good luck and don't be a stranger!
Kitty, your Mommy made the right decision. She did it out of love for both you and for Harrison, and no one can fault her for that. We know it hurts, but we also know that there is a purrfect home out there somewhere for Harrison. Sending you and your Mommy lots of purrs!
Awww, sweet Kitty. That was no way for you to live. Always scared that Harrison might come and love on you in his special, big way. Yes, your Mom did the right thing. We're not mad at you or your Mom. We're purring that Harrison will find a special person who just wants one cat and then he doesn't have to share that person never ever. If this rescue has any adoption events, maybe your Mom could go and help and maybe tell people about Harrison?
Hugs and purrs to you.
Mietzi and Timo
Well, as sad as we are for your Mommy and Harrison, we know that everything was done to help him fit in your home. We know how difficult it was because Mawmee went through the same thing with Vivien. But she is now in a much better situation for her, and we will purr and purr that the same thing happens with Harrison. He is a pawsome cat, and I'm so glad he will always be on Catster so we can visit him. Mietzi has a great idea about having your Mom be Harrison's spokeperson! Sending purrs to your Mommy and to you too!
We know just how hard your Mom tried to have everycat live happily together. Sometimes it just can't be. I'm sure your Mom is sad, a living loss is still a loss and leaves a paw print sized hole in the heart.
Be gentle with your Mom she's grieving again. It's a beautiful thing that you two have each other to comfort. (I'm glad you're more relaxed and regaining your confidence again)
Our family loves your family. That will never change!
Thank you evfurry fur. we are lucky to have the most caring and compassionate furrriends all around us.
Jeepers; we are sorry Harrison had to go back to the rescue, but we are happy that you are eatin again and not so skared. Your mama tried SO very, very hard to make things work out. Sumtimes stuff just doesn't work. Harrison will still find his furrever home; Gunnie and I just know it, and you and your mama will both be OK too. Keep talkin to and snugglin your mama. She needs it real bad right now.
I know it's a hard and horrible decision and choice to make, but you both stuck it out far longer than many other people would have done and I'm sure Harrison appreciated the chance, even if it wasn't to be in the end. Hopefully he finds a home with equally loving people.
Kitty, I am glad you are feeling better. It is hard when you can't feel comfortable in your own home and your mommy did the best thing for you. It wasn't the best thing for her cuz she loves Harrison too. But she did the right thing for you cuz that's what love is. Harrison will find another home because he is pawsome. Purring for your family.
Kristin, Kitty, Harrison, and Indy- we love you all and support you no matter what.
Lucy and family