One year later

tomorrow is the 1 year anniversary of the day that I had to say goodbye to Selby, and pet her while the vet made her go to sleep. She was in pain, her liver, kidney & pancreas issues all flared up suddenly, I knew she had some issues, but past vets had said just to keep an eye on her, and make her comfortable since her true age was never known, and it was apparent to everybody that she was dealing with some sort of pain, and that she was born deaf. I know I gave her a good quality of life, and tons of love, Selby will always be my favorite pet, and my best friend. She was so sweet, and so loving toward me. She used to follow me around like how dogs do. I was crushed by her death but I feel like I made the right decision to spare her from any more pain & discomfort. Everything was so sudden and unbelievable. I came home from work on December 4th I think it was, she was lethargic, hadn't moved from 5 hours earlier, wouldn't eat & just looked miserable. In the days leading up, she didn't seem any different than normal. I guessed she likely had undiagnosed kidney issues the last few years of her life because she always drank tons of water and peed more than average cats do. Her previous vet advised to just keep my eyes open, and keep her happy and try not to worry unless she displayed obvious symtoms of pain or changes in behavior. So, I said goodbye on Tuesday, December 8th 2009. I don't know how I'll feel tomorrow, but I'll always love Selby, and cherish our memories, and look for her when I pass on. She affected me so deeply in the decade we spent together, and made my own life so much better. I will always love you Selby, I feel that we are meant to see each other again. I won't let the universe keep us apart. I hope you don't have any anger or frustration because I didn't pursue figuring out what was wrong with your body earlier. I hope you know how much i will always love you, and how much better you made my life. It was an honor, and a privilege to spend 10 years by your side, with your sweet warm little body nestled between the pillows as I fell asleep every night. I will never forget you, and I will come find you when my time here is up. I love you more than you could ever know, and I miss you every day. I even got an "S" tattooed on my arm in a very nice, clean script, to represent the mark you left on my heart. I love you so much.
-your dad, Aaron