Queen Tallulah's Heavenly Messages

Mom lost a piece of her when I died

November 8th 2010 5:25 pm
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Tallulah reporting from the Rainbow Bridge earth window...I have been very busy learning all the ropes here, there is always something to do and friends to help...we do have fun up here....


Well I haven't been around much lately not only because I have been busy, but mostly because Mom is now having a hard time coming to my page...when she was busy with spreading the word about breast cancer is wasn't so hard, now that it is slowing down a little Mom has been very sad.

You see Mom has realized that when I died she lost a piece of her and she knows she will never get it back....this has been so hard on Mom she fought so hard for me and hoped against all odds that I would be one in a million that I would survive, but that wasn't to be, God had other plans for me.

Moms heart is so broken, she is lonely without me with her on earth and so sad...she hides it mostly she doesn't want others to know, but I know one day down the road she will feel better. I thought bringing her and Tu Two together would help her and she is don't get me wrong she has helped, but no one and I mean no one will ever be able to give Mom back that piece of her that I took with me....I was so special to her, we loved each other so much, the bond we had was so special especially when I got sick that bond grew even more...how do I help Mom, I am not sure I can help her except come to her in the night and give her little angel kisses...most of the time now she doesn't know that I am there except in her heart she knows I am with her...she grieves for me all the time, some times it is easier for her and out of the blue she will cry, it doesn't matter where she is or what she is doing she will think of something about me, think she sees me and she will cry...

Well I gotta go to another class that is one that teaches me how I can help my Mom more, I know the piece I took with me can't be given back but I am going to try to help her though this...Mom I love you and will always be right there with you...

Tallulah signing out for now....know that I am watching over you all, praying for you, sending healing dust to those that need it...and Mom is here to help support others, maybe that is one way for Mom to heal to help others like she has been doing...

QT Angel in Pink

 
Purred by: Hazel Lucy

November 9th 2010 at 1:30 am

I know it's really really hard after losing you, your mom has to go through all the stages of grief, there is no getting around it..... It hurts so much, and everything reminds her of you.... the only thing that helps a little is time, and that seems to take forever. Sending purrs of extra-love and comfort to your amazing mom.

Hazel Lucy
Purred by: Sky (Catster Member)

November 9th 2010 at 1:44 am

Just remember QT will always be in your heart. You will never forget her. You heart will break many times but will heal again and you will remember the wonderful time with your precious angel.

Mom still misses and thinks about Sissy her first furbaby all the time but she also remembers him with love and happiness.

xooxoxo
Purred by: ♥Simon♥ (Catster Member)

November 9th 2010 at 1:47 am

We know all too well along with so many here what your mom is going through. She will never forget you QT, you were a big part of her life and she loved you so very much. In time the tears and sadness will not creep up on her so much. Like HL said, there is no getting around the grieving process. It must take its course no matter how long. There is no judgment here, just a soft place to fall to feel the warmth and comfort of friends. We love you and your mommy QT!

Hugs and purrs,
Simon & Reuben(an angel)
Purred by: Wendy C

November 9th 2010 at 2:01 am

Mommie knows too what you are going through. Everyone grieves differently. In time, it will get a little easier. Mommie still thinks of Teiga every day and she still has days that she tears up but now she remembers more with smiles too. What your Mommie is feeling is normal. Every kitty has a special place in their Mommie's heart that no other kitty can fill. It does not mean that the other furs are not loved just as much, they all have their special place in their Mommie's heart. Sending your Mom lots of hugz, purrs, headbonks, and kisses.

Hugz and purrs, Sassy
Purred by: Rex (Catster Member)

November 9th 2010 at 2:26 am

We will be purring for your mommy to start feeling better, she will always love you and you will always be in her heart.

Love Rex
Purred by: Queen Tallulah Angel Dreamgirl (Catster Member)

November 9th 2010 at 2:34 am

As Mom reads all of your messages she is crying trying to get through them...she knows that catster is the one place she can come and write how she is feeling and she also is here to support others even if it is hard for Mom...she just right now can't look at my pictures on my page without the tears pouring from her eyes...she has lost other fur babies and it was hard on her too and she knows one day it will be better, but for some reason losing me is so different, she tries to get better thinks she is doing OK and the wham she takes a step back...she knows one day she will think of me and smile with all of the wonderful memories she has of me....

Mom says thanks for all of your support & love you have given her, especially now, it will be 3 months soon since I left and Mom really thought it would be better by now, but it isn't, she will keep trying.

QT
Purred by: Baby-G (Catster Member)

November 9th 2010 at 2:46 am

QT, you are such a sweet angel girl. Your mommie will always carry you in her heart. We are so sorry she is having a hard time right now, and send purrs of comfort and strength.

Love and purrs,
Baby-G and family
xoxo
Purred by: ♥ Jezebel RIP ♥ (Catster Member)

November 9th 2010 at 8:20 am

Sending purrs for your mom.
Purred by: Arlene S

November 9th 2010 at 12:57 pm

Your Mom just has to feel what she is feeling and go through her grief, QT. Acceptance and peace can take a very long time. Your Mom has to have faith that one day whs will see you again and get back that missing piece of her heart. That is the only thing that has gotten my Mom through our losses.
Love
Elise
xoxo
Purred by: Tilly (Catster Member)

November 9th 2010 at 5:35 pm

Oh QT my mommy is crying, as she knows what your mommy is feeling. When we lost Rhea, she got herself so down and could not pick herself back up, she told me that her heart just died too. It does take time and even now 2 years on Mommy still has bad days. When I arrived, she was not ready but took me on due to my circumstances and it has been a hard two years, with the help of people on catster mommy knows that people understand. Anytime QT your mommy is feeling down, we will be there for her aways. Sending lots of loving purrs Tilly xx
Purred by: Aryeh - Love Forever (Catster Member)

November 9th 2010 at 6:22 pm

momma is having similar problems. Maybe we can take those classes together on how to help our mommas out. Me and my brofurs are all purrring for your momma!
Purred by: Jeanette C

November 10th 2010 at 5:25 am

Oh QT, Mom cried as we read this post. We love your mom and we feel so helpless and sad that she is in so much pain.

Mom has a magnet on her fridge that someone gave her when she was getting divorced and in a lot of emotional pain. It is a quote by Sir Winston Churchill (who was a cat lover) and it says:

"If you're going through hell, keep going".

Sometimes that is all we can do - one day at a time, one step at a time, sometimes just one breath at a time. But we have to keep going and do the best we can do.

Much love & many hugs & healing purrs,
Chai & Mama J
Purred by: Pipo (Catster Member)

November 10th 2010 at 2:38 pm

It is always so hard, when all the busyness after a loss slows down. Then the empty feelings seem to take over. But yes, we are here to listen and to be that shoulder to weep on, and the ones who will be with you to help mop up those rivers that seem to always flow at flood stage.
Big hugs to you going out right now, and many purrs!
Purrs & ♥hugs!
Pipo & Minko
Purred by: Emily Felicity, Precious Angel (Catster Member)

November 15th 2010 at 3:01 am

I understand Queen Tallulah. We take pieces with us when we go.

 

Queen Tallulah Angel Dreamgirl


 

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