Queen Tallulah's Heavenly Messages

MY ANGEL QUEEN TALLULAH WITH PINK WINGS

August 25th 2010 2:21 pm
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I don’t know where to begin….but to say thank you for all of your emails, comments, gifts, love and support. At this time I am just unable to read them I will when I am feeling better. I can’t even be on her page right now it is too hard and it hurts too much.
You all have been here from the beginning with Tallulah’s fight she began in July of 2009. The love and support has been so awesome I know I would never have been able to get through this past year and these last few days without all of you.
Tallulah’s last visit with her oncologist he told me that it wouldn’t be long until the chemo wasn’t working and once that happened she was going to go fast, little did I know how fast….it was hard to hear, so I knew I had to spend as much time with her as I could.

Thursday I got the feeling that she wasn’t feeling well, Friday I knew she was going downhill and wasn’t going to be here for long. I made her comfortable, I hand fed her baby food when she stopped wanting her regular food.

She became very weak on Saturday, was having trouble getting around, she had to lay down after only walking a short distance.

I saw it in her eyes that her fight wasn’t as strong as it had been. She even felt different like some of her spirit was gone...

I didn’t sleep much as I was with her and I had to keep checking on her. I was crying and praying for her. I told her it was OK if she wanted to go…but she hung on.

Sunday came and she was worse, she crawled into her dog brofurs cage to sleep. I had to feed her in there, it was hard to pick her up as she cried every time I did…I felt I needed to let her lay there…then that evening I decided I needed to get her in her own bed the one that her boyfriend Merry sent to her just a few days earlier…she was happy to be in it, but she wanted to spread out, I think she was hurting when she was all curled up..
When I was ready for bed, I picked up her bed with her in it and she cried again and then she threw up which she never does…I knew that was not a good sign. Again I didn’t sleep I was so upset, crying and wanting to be with her.

Sometime during the night my sweet Tallulah found the strength to get from my nightstand I had her on to my bed…she wanted to sleep with me like she always did until recently. I lifted her even though I knew it was hurting her to get her to her spot near me…I petted her gently, loved her and kissed her. We both feel asleep for a short time, when I woke I knew what I had to do…she gave me her last gift of sleeping with me…I had to give her the gift of peace.

I got up around 5:30 am as I had to go take care of a dog, but I knew that my Tallulah came first, I had to let her go. So I called the Vet Emergency Hospital near me to see if I could bring her in, I couldn’t wait for her vet as I knew she would come to my home to help her.

The drive to the hospital was so hard and it was the worst drive I have ever had to do…I sat in the car for a short time trying to get the nerve to walk in and let my precious baby go.
They took us to a private room so I could spend some time alone with Tallulah before they took her to get her ready and to check her vitals. The Vet Tech brought her back to me and then the Vet came in. Told me to let her know when I was ready. I told her I will never be ready, but I knew I had to do this for her. We talked about Tallulah. She was still in her bed I didn’t want her last memory of me hurting her, so I put my face to hers, kissed her, lovingly petting her and told her I love her and I will see her again ..so around 7am she became my angel.

Know that she went peacefully, she was ready. Her fight had left her and her spirit was gone, her body just couldn’t take anymore…the bond we had will never be broken not even in death. The Vet spent some time with me and made sure I was OK…she told me her vitals were very weak she wouldn’t have lasted much longer.

The pit in my stomach that has been there for a long time was gone, I was at peace with knowing my Sweet Tallulah was an angel now being helped by all of her angel friends and guardian angels that have been watching over her this past year.
I brought her home to be buried in our yard with her other cat sisfurs.

This is the hardest diary entry I have had to write, but I wanted all of you to know about my sweet girl QT.


REST IN PEACE MY SWEET WHITE FURRY ANGEL WITH PINK WINGS…YOU WERE A QUEEN IN PINK, A FIGHTER AND A SURVIVOR…


Now my other gift to her will be to keep the fight going with me being on a campaign to spread the word that not only humans get cancer, but our precious pets, it is deadly to our little girl kitties…so please check back as I get ready to start my quest for my Tallulah that she did not die in vain…but in honor and to help others so they don’t have to hopefully go through what she went through..

For now I still need to heal and mourn my loss. Know that she loved you all she sat with me all the time and watched the computer screen…THANK YOU ALL….CRYING AS I TYPE THIS, IT STILL HURTS….Peggy QT’s mom

 
Purred by: Alfie - DB #37a - Dearly Loved (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 2:41 pm

Tears are rolling down mum's face and it took her ages to read your diary. It must have been so hard for you to write it Peggy and we know just how you are feeling. You are in our thoughts and prayers at this sad time.

We will never forget Tallulah and she'll always be a special kittie to us. She loved you so much and even when her little body was so weak she wanted to be on the bed with you and even managed to do it by herself.

It will take time for the pain to go but in time the sun will come out again and the happy memories will take their place and she'll be in your heart forever.

Love & hugs
Alfie & mum
Purred by: Alfie - DB #37a - Dearly Loved (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 2:41 pm

Tears are rolling down mum's face and it took her ages to read your diary. It must have been so hard for you to write it Peggy and we know just how you are feeling. You are in our thoughts and prayers at this sad time.

We will never forget Tallulah and she'll always be a special kittie to us. She loved you so much and even when her little body was so weak she wanted to be on the bed with you and even managed to do it by herself.

It will take time for the pain to go but in time the sun will come out again and the happy memories will take their place and she'll be in your heart forever.

Love & hugs
Alfie & mum
Purred by: Calvin ~ Knead On (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 3:05 pm

I know how hard it was for you to let QT come to the bridge cause all our Mommies feel that way, but she was telling you it was time. She wanted to come to the bridge to learn how to be a guardian angel. She can now watch over all the other kitties that get that nasty C, and she will always live in your heart.
Purred by: Edwina (Angel Eddy) DG#1 (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 3:47 pm

Queen Tallulah was a most brave kitty. We are so honored to have known her. She was a great example of how you must keep going on and fighting.
Eddy & Family
Purred by: Wendy C

August 25th 2010 at 3:51 pm

I know how hard it is for you and was for you to let her go. Mommie went through the same thing with Teiga, seemed like that last night, he tried to get on the bed with Mommie and couldn't so Mommie gently picked him up and he purred and layed with Mommie, Mommie said the same thing, it was a gift from Teiga and him telling Mommie it is okay, I have to go. Mommie held him and cried all night. He had not purred or tried to sleep with Mommie in a couple of days and that was unusual. It will take a long time, Mommie still hurts for Teiga. We understand you need your time. Take all the time you need. Me and Mommie are thinking of your during this difficult time and praying that you find some peace. When Mommie done Teiga's page and first diary it was the hardest thing in the world. Just know we are here for you.

Hugz and purrs, Sassy
Purred by: Sky (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 4:06 pm

Sky "Sobs" "Tears" This reminds Mommy when she had to take Sissy, Sugar and Autumn to cross the Bridge. They all had cancer so we will join Tallulah and her mommy in the fight to let others know of cancer in pets.

Such a brave kitty Lulu was and she will be watching over her mommy forever.

xoxoxo
Purred by: Aryeh - Love Forever (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 4:12 pm

Sending purrs to your momma.
Purred by: ♥Simon♥ (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 4:42 pm

Thank you so much Peggy for sharing the story of your beloved Angel Queen Tallulah who now has the most beautiful pink wings. It too took mom several times to read the entry as tears were clouding her eyes. What a wonderful gift she gave you in her final days...unconditional love and as you said a bond that will never be broken. QT meant so much to so many and we will never forget her beautiful ways. Please take time to grieve and heal your broken heart. We will be thinking of your family now and forever. Fly free QT with all the angels up above!

Hugs and purrs,
Simon, Reuben(an angel) and mommy
Purred by: ♥Kally Kat♥ (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 4:47 pm

QT's Mommy Peggy,

Thank you for sharing your diary with us all, as painful as it was to type through all your tears & broken heart.

I did the exact same thing for Kally Kat's sisfurr
Buffy St. Marie on her final days, );
I remember as I held her after she passed ova to the Rainbow Bridge, she did a wet one on my hip, a pee pee, & you know what Mommy Peggy it felt so wonderful to feel her warm wet pee - pee from her precious body. I will always keep that t - shirt.

Peggy,just being there for her at her final precious moments for her to be able to hear your voice, smell, & hear you talk to her so gently knowing her Mommy was right by her side to the very end.

It's neva easy at all, our furrchildren always come first.

She was a very brave & strong fighter with all she had to give. Now, she's a Purrfect Angel in kitty heaven.

Yes, Mommy Peggy that wondrous glorious day will come when we will all be reunited.

You need this time to grieve, & heal thy self with all our love & support that we are here for you fureva!

QT, couldn't ask for a betta Mommy. We will pray for you Mommy & yur whole family.

God bless you all.

Lubbs & gentle ~huggs~
Kally Kat & Mommy Liz ღ ღ
Purred by: Ava 4 ever Mommy's Angel (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 4:57 pm

This brings back so many memories....I know it is the most painful experience in the world.......please know us girls our at peace now and we love our mommies for what they did for us.....Tallulah and I have so much to talk about together....My mommy sends her love....Ava
Purred by: Rex (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 4:58 pm

We are so sorry for your loss. Sending love purrs, hugs and prayers to you.

Love Rex and family
Purred by: ♥ Jezebel RIP ♥ (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 5:18 pm

So sorry for your loss. Sending lots of purrs for you.
Purred by: mouser (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 5:20 pm

I WILL MISS YOU SWEET QT...
YOU ARE ONE SPECIAL LADY....
LOVE AND PURRS
MOUSER
Purred by: Tully (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 5:21 pm

Our hearts are aching so much for you right now ~ Mom knows this pain all too well and her heart is breaking for you. QT was such a joy and inspiration to so many of us. Peggy, please know that her spirit lives on and the education you are sharing about feline breast cancer and QT's fight will benefit so many. Sending many warm hugs and purrs to you and your family. Mom is wearing pink this week in QT's honor!

Love, Tully and Mom Kelly
Purred by: ~Purrcy ~ Meohmy (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 6:13 pm

Thank you for sharing with us. QT will always be in out hearts. She was truly a survivor and an inspiration for us all.
Hugs and purrs to you, Peggy, the beautiful love you had for QT lives on in all of us.
Hugs and much love,
Purrcy and his mumma
Purred by: Elsa - Dream Girl #31 (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 6:55 pm

And we are still hurting too. We did not want QT to leave either.

To let our baby go is the hardest thing to do. But we had so many happy years with our babies that we'd never give those years away, even when the end is sad. However, those years fly past us in an instant. If only they'd last forever.

I know, after awhile, after losing our pet, the loss has made our hearts bigger; and yours is already Peggy, with your cancer campaign beginning.

Thanks for letting us be almost as close to Tallulah on her final days as you were.

If only we could have held her, and petted her, and touched her, and had been able to hear her purr...we would have been so grateful if we were given moments like those.

Those precious moments were given only to one of the best mommys, who knows she is also one of the most blessed mommys on earth: you Peggy.

::::thousands of tears are falling::::

Love
Elsa
xo
Purred by: Pipo (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 7:13 pm

Minko and I can only say the same things as those who have penned words for you already. So we send you many big hugs, pawyers, purrings and comforting thoughts.
Our meowmy has laid 4 kitties to rest, it always hurts, and it is always very hard. But we know that it is the right thing to do, and so do the kitties, somehow, because they seem to give us the permission we need to do this for them, to release them to the land of painfree living and carefree flying with angel's wings.
((((( ♥ Peggy ♥ )))))
((((( ♥ QT ♥ )))))

Pipo and Minko
Purred by: Jeanette C

August 25th 2010 at 8:55 pm

Thank you for sharing this Peggy. It was hard to read and I can only imagine how hard it was to live it and write it. But I can tell that everything you did was filled with so much love and care for your precious QT. She captured so many hearts here on Catster and we will never forget her or how strong both of you have been in the face of this terrible disease. You know you can count on me to help with your mission to spread the word about feline breast cancer.

Hugs, Purrs & Much Love,
Chai & Mama Jeanette
Purred by: Stacy T

August 25th 2010 at 9:34 pm

Our family knows your heartache and sends our love
Purred by: Pigeon - misses you! :( (Catster Member)

August 25th 2010 at 9:50 pm

My Heart goes out to you. You've been in my thoughts and prayers. ♥ Here is a short video "Rainbow Bridge" that may help you ease the pain. Rainbow Bridge Video take Care♥
Purred by: Mayhem (Catster Member)

August 27th 2010 at 4:30 pm

Me tring to type for mommy and me...mommy can't...too many tears....we are with you at this very sad time...our thoughts purrs and prayers go out to you and yours!
Silent purrs....and many prayers....
>^..^< Mayhem and her mommy Mary
Purred by: Mayhem (Catster Member)

August 27th 2010 at 4:30 pm

Me trying to type for mommy and me...mommy can't...too many tears....we are with you at this very sad time...our thoughts purrs and prayers go out to you and yours!
Silent purrs....and many prayers....
>^..^< Mayhem and her mommy Mary
Purred by: Nikko (Catster Member)

August 27th 2010 at 4:48 pm

We all cried when we read this diary. Tears of sorrow for you and tears of joy for QT, who had a wonderful mommy and a wonderful life knowing what it is to be loved. You gave her the gift of freedom from pain. That was very courageous.

 

Queen Tallulah Angel Dreamgirl


 

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