September 4th 2009 9:11 pm
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My baby girl Missy has always been a bossy bitch. I finally got the chance to visit with her for about two minutes last week. Was the first time i even saw her face in over a month. She looked into my eyes like she had no idea who I was. It was heart breaking. I picked her up. She fought so hard to be let go of. I let her go. She sat back down on her chest of drawer sun spot and fell back asleep.

I know right now that I am powerless to change the situation. I have no home for her and her father does. But that does not make the pain deep within, any easier to bare. I hate waking up without my beautiful babies sleeping on my feet or sharing my pillow with me. I even miss picking fur out of my mouth after every time I kissed them. I miss them so much it physically hurts me.

I love Missy and miss her and her brother Freddie so much. Soon, hopefully, we will be together again. Keep your fingers crossed and read more in the future, of the struggles I go through to get my babies back in my arms.