Tis so hard!

My mummy is missing me really bad,I wish I was there to make her feel better,she cried last night when she found one of my bottle caps,she has Molly MaGuire chase the bottle caps like I used too but she doesn't pick them up in her mouth and bring them back to mummy like I did,mummy thinks Molly might be a reincarnation of me because Molly trills like I used to,and like me Molly doesn't like to be held but will lay in mummy's lap like I did,she will ask Molly if she is "Enis" and Molly looks up at mummy and closes her eyes so mummy thinks just a wee bit that I'm in Molly,I want my mummy to smile again,she loves all her furbabies but I wish she would not cry anymore,she loves me so much,I wish I was there with her!

"I ONLY WANTED YOU"

They say memories are golden
well maybe that is true.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.

A million times I needed you,
a million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you
you never would have died.

In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place
no one could ever fill.

If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane,
I'd walk the path to heaven
and bring you back again.

Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same.
But as God calls us one by one,
the chain will link again.

Enis,my trilling baby,I miss ye so much!

This is dedicated to Enis my beloved 1 eye kitty,I will miss her so much and the grief is right now unbearable but I know she is no longer in pain,I loved her...nae,I love her and cannot wait til she and I meet again,I know she is now healthy,playing and chasing her favorite toy...bottle caps that would accumilate in the 50's underneath my hutch,stilll have to clear those out,I will miss her jumping on my lap and kneeding my belly like it was dough,but most of all I will miss her trill,that oh so adorable trill.
Thankye Enis for being a huge part of my life,ye have my heart and love forever

Mum


May I Go
Do you think the time is right?
May I say goodbye to pain filled days and endless lonely nights?
I've lived my life and done my best, an example tried to be.
So can I take that step beyond, and set my spirit free?
I didn't want to go at first, I fought with all my might.
But something seems to draw me now to a warm and living light.
I want to go, I really do; it's difficult to stay.
But I will try as best I can to live just one more day.
To give you time to care for me and share your love and fears.
I know you're sad and afraid, because I see your tears.
I'll not be far, I promise that, and hope you'll always know,
That my spirit will be close to you wherever you may go.
Thank you so for loving me. You know I love you too,
And that's why it's hard to say goodbye and end this life with you.
So hold me now just one more time and let me hear you say,
Because you care so much for me, you'll let me go today.