March 26th 2009 11:57 am
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Hi everyone. First of all I want to thank everyone for their well wishes and rosettes and gifts that you are sending to my sweet Shadow boy. Last week I took Shadow to the vet, and he had lost a pound in the two weeks since his last visit, and his face was more swoolen. It was assumed that the cancer had really gotten the best of him, and his pain meds were increased.
I just wanted to update that he is still here with me. If the swelling increased it is only a small amount, and he eats pretty well, so that he (in my estimate) has put a couple ounces of that pound back on. He sits in the window, eats his favorite foods, (although he is a bit pickier, but I just give him a new can whenever he rejects an old favorite!) and spends a lot of time with me on my lap. Sometimes he even goes to the cat tree, scratches on it, and climps on up! I am giving him lots of TLC, and I monitor him for any signs of pain or discomfort. When he starts to itch I give him a bit more meds. So far, so good.
I figure that I am at least blessed enough to be home with my boy, to be able to do this for him, and not back to work. I wish with all my heart that I was blessed enough to have him cured of this horrible disease, but that is also the dearest wish of so many of us on Catster and around the world, with loved ones sick with cancer, that I am unfortunately not alone. I will give any update if there are any.
The only thing I am doing now is taking each day as it comes, buying more pain meds, fillet mignon, shrimp, cod, and his favorite canned food. I have resigned myself that Shadow may not have much longer, but he has today, and probably a few more days after today, and with the help of God, more than that. Although I am facing this terrible thing, I still can not get my head around the fact that he will be gone, and gone soon. I just can't picture it. I dread it, and can not imagine that I will have to drive him to the vet for a final visit where he will not come back, except as a box of ashes. I have two boxes up on the mantle already, one for Tiger, who I lost in 2001, and one for Caesar who I lost about a year and a month ago. I can't believe that my poor Shadow will be up there soon. At the very least, I have him today.
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