December 19th 2014 8:49 pm
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Happy 16TH MEOWDAY ADAM, wow 16, my baby boy. But, I was only suppose to see 12 Meowdays with you MY LOVE. Why can’t I dream about You? I don’t understand. Maybe I think about You too much. PLEASE come see me in my dreams and PLEASE send me a sign, I REALLY need one today. I miss You so much, never a day goes by that I don’t think about You. I KNOW You will be eating lots of Chicken today and chasing Butterflies and playing with all your Pals today, there are way too many of those. I wish I could kiss You today, I will come and sing and I hope You will join me. I LOVE YOU!
WE LOVE YOU MR. ADAM!
Happy Meowday, MY LOVE!
Sending lots of LOVE to You today.
Mommy and “The Gang Of Furs”
May 12th 2014 11:10 pm
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My Adam, My Love, it is so hard to believe that it has been 3 years now. I think about You everyday. I am doing better, I am Happy, but then I get this feeling, how can I be happy when You are not here. I feel so guilty, I cry. But, I know You would not want me to be sad.
This past week, You have been on my mind more, leading to that day, which I will never forget.
I miss My Babboo, so much, Your sweet face, Your voice, Your Kisses, even Your bites. I don’t know why I can’t dream about You. I know You sent Me that Little Boy to Love and I have, but, He isn't YOU. I forget sometimes and call Him Adam, then I remember that it isn't You. He is gray and his tail looks like Yours. He makes me happy and sad at the same time, Thank You for sending Him to me to Love.
I hope You will send Me a sign today, You sent Me so many signs, I really need one today. I need to dream about You, PLEASE come and visit me, I need You.
I LOVE YOU ADAM DYLAN, SO VERY MUCH.
I MISS YOU, MY LOVE, SO VERY MUCH.
I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN, MY LOVE,
YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY FURMATE.
MOMMY, & “THE GANG OF FURS”
December 19th 2013 8:20 pm
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Happy Meowday My Adam, My Love. It is so hard to believe this is your third Meowday without You. I hope you will come and visit again, I REALLY need it. I am doing better. I guess that is why God and You decided that it was time for me to take care of another little boy. Thank You for sending him to me. But, did you have to send me another baby boy that has diarrhea. That smell is back just like you. Giving him pills mixing medicine. Makes everything about you come flooding back. But, you know I will do all I can for him. He is a very sweet little boy.
I find myself laughing about him and then I get very sad, I feel so guilty Loving another little boy. HE will NEVER take your place, who could, you are one of a kind.
I hope you have a good day and eat so much chicken. I know you and Little One and all of your furfriends will have a big party.
So have a very special Meowday MY LOVE. I will come and sing to you. I hope you will be there.
WE LOVE YOU ADAM!!!!!!!
Sending You a Big Hug and MANY Kisses to My Birthday Boy.
PURRS & MUCH LOVE,
MOMMY AND “THE GANG OF FURS”
May 13th 2013 11:43 am
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My, SWEET Baby Boy, My Sweet Babboo, My Love, MY ADAM. I can’t believe it has been 2 years now. The week leading up to today, was so very hard for me. I have cried so much, I don’t know why that week was so very hard for me. I think about you all the time. YOU are never far from My Heart. I woke up today and that day came flooding back. I started to remember every little thing that happened that day. I look at the clock and think about what I was doing then. I feel you are here, the Girls are acting strange, looking down the hall. I was sitting on the floor where you left me. Are you here my Sweetheart? I will go later to your grave to put some flowers and to sit and talk to you. I hope you can send me a sign a message. I know you are ok , I just want to hear from you.
I miss my Babboo lips so much. I went on your page today. I was so happy that you are still remembered and that they haven’t forgot about My Baby Boy. Of course that made me cry too. THANK YOU SO MUCH for LOVING MY LOVE.
I was going to find a poem or write something yesterday, but I just couldn't. There are no words that can say what I am feeling.
Adam, I miss you so very much, it is strange, when I do something with the girls, I still think I wonder if or what Adam would think.
My heart just hurts so very much today. BUT, I can just think that one day we WILL be together again and we WILL walk in the sun, without a harness and you can chase butterflies. We WILL have Eternity together for many walks and We WILL walk alone, that WILL be “OUR TIME”, just Me and My Son. You WILL be able to chase your SisFurs and just hang out with them.
Adam, I MISS YOU and I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH.
Purrs & Very Sad Tears,
Mommy & “THE GIRL GANG OF FURS”
December 19th 2012 9:39 pm
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I am sitting here listening to your music, as the tears just stream down my face. I can’t believe this is the second year I can’t celebrate your Meowday with YOU. I am trying to type, but I can’t see. My Adam , MY LOVE, I miss you still so very much. I still look for You. You haven’t sent me a message since Your Last Meowday, I guess that was the last one You could send me. I know you are watching over Me and Your SisFurs. You sent me such a gift last year, I will tell everyone what you sent me last year.
It was raining so very hard all day. I have to go , so I walked slowly under an umbrella to your grave. I had a chair to sit in. I sat and sung Happy Meowday To You. I was crying so much and I talked to you. Then I was just sitting there crying when all of a sudden this bright light was shining in my eyes. I looked up and I could not believe, the sun was coming out. But it was just over your grave and me. Its like Heaven just open its window. I looked up over my head, what I saw was a very blue sky and sun. But, I looked over further and I was shocked, it was still dark and grey and raining, but not where I was. I looked on the ground and I could not believe what I saw……………..
On the ground was a shadow, what I couldn’t believe , that it was in the shape of an Angel, yes an Angel. I really could feel You there. I know YOU WERE THERE!
I cried more, I talked to You more. I KNEW You were showing me what you were seeing in Heaven. YOU were showing me that it is Sunny and Bright and just BEAUTIFUL at the Bridge.
After awhile the Sun went away, just as quickly as it showed up. It looked like Heaven just closed its door to me.
I looked up again and the blue sky was gone, it was so dark and gloomy again. I KNEW there was no way the Sun would have came out that day, it was too dark and rainy and gloomy. But, YOU HAD to come see Me and to share this wonderful feeling to me and to make me feel what you are feeling and to tell me that you are ok. You have sent me so many gifts from Heaven, to let me know that you are ok and happy. I did feel some what better knowing and seeing where you are. I just miss you so very much.
I told your Maw Maw what happened at first she didn’t believe it , but then she told me that when she went to get the mail. She looked at your grave and saw a light from Heaven shining down on your grave. It was raining but not on your grave.
I KNOW where you are, I know YOU are SAFE and HAPPY and YOU are with GOD. I know GOD is taking good care of YOU until I get there to hold and just LOVE MY SWEETHEART once again.
I will come today and HOPE and PRAY that maybe just maybe you might could come and just send me a message, to let me know you haven’t forgot about ME.
You would have been 14 today. I miss you MY LOVE, MY SWEETHEART. You are still THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. I hope YOU have a good day My BABY. I know You and Little One will have fun today.
HAPPY MEOWDAY ADAM.
LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART ADAM.
May 12th 2012 11:35 pm
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Oh my, this is so very hard to type. I still can’t believe I am really typing this. I can’t believe it has been a year since My Sweet Adam left me that terrible day. I am still stuck on that day and that time 3:15 when I heard that terrible scream and He was gone. Time has not helped in fact it just makes things worse, I still cry at strange times, I see something that reminds me of Adam and I cry. I wake up in the middle of the night hearing that sound and start to cry. This has been so very hard on me and I know My heart will never mend, this pain will never go away or ease. There is a huge hole in my Heart that will never close.
I look back all the time thinking what if I did
What if I could go back and do things over, better than I did.
It is the little things I miss,
I miss him yowling at the door.
I miss him waking me up in the middle of the night saying Mommy wake up I AM HUNGRY!
I miss those big BEAUTIFUL eyes looking at me first thing in the morning.
I miss him walking in my room with his nails clicking on the floor, nobody else did that, I knew he was in there.
I miss him purring when I would walk in the room and sit with him or hold him.
I miss him grunting when I petted him.
I miss holding MY BABY.
I miss kissing those Babboo Lips, that I long to kiss right now.
I miss him kissing me, he was such a good kisser.
I miss taking him for walks.
I miss so many more things.
I MISS ADAM.
I know he is in a better place, I know he is out of pain, healthy and young and he has his little toe back, but it still does not help me with this pain I am in.
Adam, MY LOVE,
I still can’t believe you are gone. I am so sorry I could not save you, I tried so very hard. I am so sorry I let you down. I am so sorry I can’t handle this better. I am so sorry you have to see me this way. I know you have come to visit me, I felt you here. I know you are trying to heal my heart. You have taught me so much, You taught me to LOVE again. You gave so much to me and you still are giving to me with all the signs you send to me. Oh MY LOVE, there is so much I want to say but I can’t see for all the tears falling. You were such a big part of me and now all I feel is numb and empty inside. Of all days for this to fall on, Mother’s Day, it just hits me harder. But, any day would be hard. Coming to this day, was so hard for me, I knew I had to write a diary for you.
My LOVE, I can’t type any more.
One day WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN, then just maybe my tears will end and all there will be left is Happiness & Joy, because once again We are together again. Until then MY LOVE.
I LOVE YOU ADAM SO SO VERY MUCH.
January 31st 2012 1:15 pm
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I am just Speechless.
I want to THANK the very Sweet and very Generous Person who, not only sent My Adam a Beautiful Forever Heart of Gold, but also gave us a year of Catster Plus. THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH, this doesn’t say what this did for me, with all the things going on in my life, it is so very nice to know there are so many SWEET & KIND People here on Catster.
It seems that just a THANK YOU isn’t enough to say for this Kindness, but this has made me cry so I can’t type anymore.
THANK YOU FOR LOVING US!
Purrs & MUCH LOVE,
ADAM & CHRISTY
January 26th 2012 12:17 am
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First off, I have to apologize again for being a Terrible Person to all of our good and sweet Furiends. I am so ashamed of myself for not sending and saying THANK YOU for sending Adam’s gifts on his Meowday and for ALL the gifts you guys have been sending to all my babies. I AM SO SORRY PLEASE FORGIVE ME!
I am just having such a very hard time, NO EXCUSE, I am just BAD. Sorry guys.
The holidays were really hard, Adam’s Meowday, just days before Christmas. Christmas was so hard, unwrapping gifts and not finding Adam under the paper or him on the bed HIGH on his new catnip toy. Then New Years Eve, when midnight came I went and found MY LOVE to kiss him, but this year all I had was his picture on my computer screen. So I kissed that and wished him a happy New Year and said I hope you felt my kiss in heaven. I went and found all my girls and kissed them and wished them a happy New Year. Then I took my diaries to the back bedroom, where he loved to stay and held his picture and kissed it and wrote in my diaries to Adam and what I did with My Girls that day. There I sat writing and crying as the fireworks went off outside.
Rambling again, sorry again.
13 years ago I found THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, yep, I found out when was My GOTCHA DAY, January 26, 1999. Yep, that date and day I will always remember. I found My Sweetheart. Little did I know that day, the happiest day of my life would come to a screeching halt May 13, 2011. I never thought My Love would be gone now. That day still haunts me and I still cry everyday. Things remind me of My Adam and I guess it always will. I try so hard to keep busy but Adam always seems to creep into my thoughts and then I start to cry.
WOW! 13 years it would have been. I am just BLESSED to have had MY LOVE 12 short Years. I don’t know why I thought He would stay forever, I guess a lot of Mommies and Daddies feel that way. They are here for just a very short time, we all need to just LOVE and HOLD and PLAY with them everyday, you NEVER know when they are going to leave you. All we have to do then is think one day we will see them again and then we will be together again forever. I just have to keep reminding myself about this.
I want to tell you guys about Adam’s Meowday, of course he sent me a message, he had to. This diary is not for that. But I want to tell you about that day. My baby Boy sent me a BEAUTIFUL Message and I want to share it with you.
I never knew when his Gotcha Day was until lately. So.
HAPPY GOTCHA DAY ADAM, MY SWEET BABY BABBOO!
from Mommy and “THE GIRL GANG OF FURS”
WE LOVE YOU!
December 24th 2011 3:27 pm
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This is Christy,
THANK YOU for ALL the Mistletoe today. WE LOVE THEM!
I tried to use the new way to send to all at once i did, I see some did not get one, i guess you can't send to all at once. So I sent them out again, but this time a page at a time 100 at a time, i LOVE IT so easy and this way i can send one to EVERY FUR!
Sorry if you got them twice, but they are so pretty on our pages. If a Family member did not get one, PLEASE PLEASE paw mail me and tell me we want to send one to EVERY Family member, also it might be because you are a new Family member and we are not Furiends, if you see we are not Furiends PLEASE send a request we want to be FURIENDS with ALL FAMILY Members.
ADAM & "THE GANG OF FURS" & CHRISTY
December 20th 2011 12:51 am
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This is Christy,
First off I want to apologize AGAIN, for not THANKING YOU GUYS for sending us gifts. I am just a BAD TERRIBLE PERSON! My mind is just crazy still, I am still crazy so PLEASE FORGIVE ME! We do appreciate all the gifts and I don’t know why I can’t do this and for making Puff & Little One’s pictures for their DOTD honors. I feel so guilty for not doing this.
I can’t believe it has been 220 days and now over 7 months since MY BABY left me. I am still having such a very hard time with this, I don’t know why this has just hit me like a ton of bricks and I CAN’T move from Friday May 13TH at 3:15 when He left me. That day haunts me , I see those last few moments of him and what happened, I can’t get that sound he made when he left out of my mind. I can’t sleep at all, I stay up till 6 in the morning, I have to be so sleepy so I can’t think when I do get to bed. Then if I do go to sleep I dream of him dying, no good dreams at all. I don’t understand why I can’t have good dreams about him. I have had a few strange dreams about him and I will tell you about them in another diary . I would like to see what you guys think what they mean.
I have got my Guys to sing again, but it is so sad to come here, it seems like all of our Sweet Furiends are leaving too , which just brings me back to that day again. I cry all the time , it’s just the person I am, I can’t change how I feel or act. I LOVE with ALL MY HEART and when Adam left, my heart went too. I try to occupy my mind by playing Farmville, that helps some, but I just don’t want to get out or do anything. I write in my diary every night to Adam and then my other diary of what I did with my girls, which I feel like I am a bad mommy now, because I don’t play with them like I should. They stay with me and everywhere I go they go. They do stay in my lap and I am trying, but this is just killing me. I hate to whine, I know there are so many here that knows my pain and has been or going thru it right now. I am just a very sensitive person , I have always been this way. I know Adam would not want me to do this, but then he would understand too, he knew me so well.
I have been writing this for weeks now, every time I start, I cry. I can’t believe I can’t celebrate Adam’s Meowday with him. I can’t sing to him and I can’t give him a present. My Adam will not get his Arby’s roast beef sandwich, he always got one for his meowday, HE LOVES them. This is so very hard on me. I will go to his grave today and I will sing to Adam, it is going to rain hard, even the sky is crying because Adam is gone.
Adam, I miss you so much, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, it is just not the same. I want to type more, but the tears are falling again. I just want to pick you up and kiss you and sing to you and hold you and never let go. One day I will my Sweetheart, I know you are waiting for me. I just can’t believe you are gone and I can’t hold you and kiss you. One day I will until then MY LOVE , HAPPY MEOWDAY ADAM. Mommy LOVES YOU so VERY MUCH.
Purrs & MUCH LOVE,
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