May 25th 2013 3:53 pm
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My meowmy was furry sad on my 1st anniversary of my Bridge day. It was May 22. She could not write in my diary for several reasons. Part of that was her sad memory of that day. Meowmy was NOT prepared to say her earthly goodbyes to me. I had just turned 10 a short time before my departure. Another reason my meowmy did not let me write was that she kept Cameron all day long and then she and my dad went to a Bluegrass concert out of town that evening.
I know my meowmy did not forget that it was my Bridge day. She just has problems facing losing me and then all the other losses of her beloved furbabies.
I thank all my furiends for their notes and gifties in remembrance of me. I love you all. Thank you for being my furiend.
May 9th 2013 8:14 am
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I am celebrating my first birthday at the Bridge today. I have been trying to make my meowmy happy and maybe even laugh but I have seen her tears today. She misses me and my wonderful, nightly biscuits. She says that of all the kitties, I kept her laughing. I was the clown of the family. Meowmy had always leaned on me and told me that I would have to be the man of the house after Hooch was called to his home at the Bridge... she never knew I would be the first to go. I was always such a healthy boy. Meowmy says to all her furiends, "Love your furbabies like it is the last time you can do so". She says you never know when that last moment will come. We have been praying for so many of our furiends and their humans.
Thanks to Platelicker and his furmily and to Sonny Bono and his sisfurs for remembering my birthday with lovely prezzies and to Hazel Lucy for my birthday message.
I miss all of you but fly by to check on everyfur.
March 18th 2013 12:12 pm
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Meowmy has not been around much lately on Catster because of many things, including the sad memories of so many losses. We are hoping she will get back to the business of helping us on Catster again.
I would like to thank Auntie Patricia for my new and beautiful new moving wings pictures. We just love them.
Most of you know that my big brofur Hooch made his Bridge journey just one week ago after a four year battle with many health issues. He fought a very brave battle and I know my meowmy will miss him more than she can express. Just like when I abruptly made my journey... so unexpected. She still tells me that she misses my nightly LONG biscuit making efforts and my love of playing with my toys until the wee hours. She tells me that I always made her laugh and will be her little clown.
July 1st 2012 8:01 am
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Mercy me. I was one of yesterday's DDP honorees and I MISSED it. Thank you Catster HQ and Diary Gal for the honor. Thank you to my sweet furiends who sent me messages and gifties to help celebrate this honor.
I missed it because my human grandma (my dad's) mom had to go to the hospital. She is getting on in years and had to go to "home" about a year and a half ago. She has something called dementia but I don't understand that word. This time they are not really sure what is happening to her and are running lots of tests to see if there is a cause for her unresponsive actions this week or just this thing called dementia. We know she has fluid in one of her lungs but the doctor does not want to aspire it because it could cause an infection or they could actually puncture something they should not in trying to get the fluid out. The doctor said it is not causing a problem for her at the moment.
Anyway, I am so sorry I missed seeing my honor but I do thank my sweet furiends who did see it and sent me concats.
June 26th 2012 7:40 am
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Just 5 weeks ago today, I was called to the Rainbow Bridge. My meowmy wants me to thank all of our very dear furiends who have sent me beautiful wings, stars and all the other precious gifties and to thank each of them for the special messages. Meowmy is still having a very hard time in facing the facts that our earthly life together has come to an end. She tells me she loves me daily and how much she misses me.
Yesterday a very special package came for my meowmy in honor and memory of me. Inside was a beautiful bracelet with my name on it. It is really sparkly and so special to my meowmy. She immediately started to cry. I wondered why she was crying because it was a wonderful gift from her furiends. I will never understand humans. After she had a long cry, she opened the beautiful card with the beautiful poems from Moozer's mom and all the wonderful messages from caring furiends... and there was a check enclosed to help with all the vet bills my pawrents have had these past three years. Meowmy said she will probably get a portrait and a memory box for all my special toys and collar and sincerely hopes her furiends understand her choice. She says that each time she looks at the portrait and box that she will remember all the wonderful furiends who so generously and lovingly supported her during this extremely sad time in her life. She does love her furiends so much.
Meowmy also told me that one day in the future, she will adopt another orange boy from the pound... like she did for me. I had that awful euthanasia date over my head and I meowed so pleadingly and sounded like my big brofur Hooch. Meowmy said I chose her and she just had to get me. She has NEVER for one minute regretted that decision and tells me how much I blessed her life daily. I do wish I had not had to leave my meowmy because I know how much she needed and still needs me. Meowmy was my best furiend effur... and I do know how much I was and am loved.
June 2nd 2012 2:47 pm
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Oh,thank you to Catster HQ and to the Diary Gal for making me one of today's DDP honorees. I want to thank Angel Buddie and his furmily for the concats and Big Harry for my pawsome picture memento.
Tuesday, the 5th will be two weeks since I made my journey to the Bridge. I am still bugging my meowmy to help me write my thank yous to my furiends who sent such love, sympathy and gifties. I still see my meowmy's eyes leak so much for me.
Thank you to special furiends who sent my meowmy some wonderful sympathy cards. To my doc doc and her staff and to the furmilys of MouseMouse, Mocha and Kay, thank you for thinking of my meowmy and me in such a sweet way. Meowmy has the beautiful cards displayed with my urn and toys on the table in our living room.
I must work on getting Meowmy to get with "it".
May 29th 2012 9:42 am
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My meowmy will try to help me with my diary very soon. She has a very hard time visiting my page right now but I do want to thank all of you for the beautiful gifts you have sent and my meowmy wants to thank Auntie Laura for my beautiful wings that she made and sent my meowmy on Facebook. Meowmy came to my page and I am using my beautifur wings as my main picture now. I saw my meowmy in major tears when she saw what a purrfect angel I make.
I received a very sweet message from Cesar and his sweet furmily, especially his dad Greg. I am going to put the message in after this so others can read these precious poems. Thank you Mr. Greg for this special pawmail.
From Cesar and his furmily ~
We are so, so very sorry to have read about the loss of your little boy, Prince. He was such a cute little boy. We are sending you our purrs, sympathy, and condolences for your loss. We are leaving you these poems, may they help you with your pain and grief. May these poems find there way into your heart.
Purrs & Prayers
Greg & Kitties
I know God has taken you home. I'm just someone that's taken care of you," "It's hard to believe that you're gone. But you're in a more peaceful place than here. I'll see you when I can. Wait for me at the gates of heaven."
How can I bear to lose you, my precious gentle one,
To know that you will not be here when my day is done?
So much of my heart, my love, have I given up to you,
How then can I stand the pain now that your life is through?
My sorrow overwhelms me, the tears so freely flow,
How can I carry on my life, with a heart that's laden so?
Then the answer comes to me from the stillness in my soul.
Remembering the love we shared will help to make me whole.
I'll hold you in a special place, so deep within my heart
And in these loving memories we'll never be apart.
You will not be so far away, your presence I will feel.
I'll wrap myself in your memory and so very slowly I will heal.
The years we shared, the little joys, the laugher and the tears
My love for you will never die, but strengthen with the years
So fare you well, my precious love, I gently let you go
And pray to all the Gods there be that you will always know
I loved you so, my little one, that love will never cease
I gave you warmth, I gave you love, and now I give you peace.
~ Constance Jenkins~
A Cat's Prayer
To Those Who Love & Those Who Love Me
When I am gone, release me, let me go-
I have so many things to see and do.
You must not tie yourself to me with tears,
Be happy that we had so many years.
I gave you my love, you can only guess
How much you gave me in happiness.
I thank you for the love you have shown.
But now it is time I traveled alone.
So grieve awhile for me if grieve you must,
Then let your grief be comforted by trust,
It is only for a while that we must part,
So bless the memories within your heart,
I will not be far away, for life goes on,
So if you need me, call and I will come.
Though you can not see or touch me, I will be near.
And if you listen with your heart, you will hear
All my love around you soft and clear.
And then, when you must come this way alone,
I will greet you with a smile and "Welcome Home".
With heavy hearts; and a tear in our eyes
after all these years; we must say goodbye
Please understand; we've done all we could
if there was anything we could do; you know we would
I'm sitting right here; gently rub your ears
while I talk to you softly; trying to hold back the tears
The memories you gave us; we'll never forget
especially the ones; of the day we all met
One last hug; and one last kiss
you have no idea; how much you'll be missed
To look into your eyes; this one last time
you tell me it's ok; you know it's your time
Close your eyes now; and go to sleep
we'll pray to the Lord; you're soul he'll keep
Go in peace now; our good friend
we'll stay right here with you; until the end
Dream of that special day and time
when we'll meet at the Bridge; and all will be fine
We'll run and play; side by side
with a soft warm feeling; deep down inside
Your memory will live on; in each one of us
you'll always be number 1; to all of us
Have a safe journey; through the night
I promise when you awake; you'll be in God's light
So with heavy hearts; and tears in our eyes
just for now my friend; we say goodbye
FROM FRIEND TO FRIEND
You're giving me a special gift,
So sorrowfully endowed,
And through these last few cherished days,
Your courage makes me proud.
But really, love is knowing
When your best friend is in pain,
And understanding earthly acts
Will only be in vain.
So looking deep into your eyes,
Beyond, into your soul,
I see in you the magic, that will
Once more make me whole.
The strength that you possess,
Is why I look to you today,
To do this thing that must be done,
For it's the only way.
That strength is why I've followed you,
And chose you as my friend,
And why I've loved you all these years...
My partner 'til the end.
Please, understand just what this gift,
You're giving, means to me,
It gives me back the strength I've lost,
And all my dignity.
You take a stand on my behalf,
For that is what friends do.
And know that what you do is right,
For I believe it too.
So one last time, I breathe your scent,
And through your hand I feel,
The courage that's within you,
To now grant me this appeal.
Cut the bonds that hold me here,
Dear friend, and let me run,
Once more a strong and steady cat,
My pain and struggle done.
And don't despair my passing,
For I won't be far away,
Forever here, within your heart,
And memory I'll stay.
I'll be there watching over you,
Your forever friend,
And in your memories I'll play,
Healthy once again.
May 23rd 2012 7:41 am
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To my caring furiends ~ I want to thank you for all the support and love you have shown during my illness that began in early April. It has been a journey filled with hope and despair. I can't begin to address or update my journey at this writing.
Most of you know that I made my Rainbow Bridge journey yesterday at 1:35pm (EST). It was not really expected but my meowmy awoke to find me struggling for breath and knew I was critical. She rushed me to my doc doc who immediately put me in oxygen and gave me lasix to try to remove the fluid from my lungs that was causing my distress. I arrived at my doc doc's sometime around 8:30... meowmy says yesterday was a blur and some specific times are forgotten in her panic. I will let her write more about it when she feels up to doing so.
The song I chose to play for a while is If Tomorrow Never Comes and this is from me to my meowmy. You see, Meowmy stays up late most nights and sometimes she falls asleep while watching late night TV. She would awaken to find me looking at her from the back of the sofa. I liked to watch my meowmy sleep. So, I thought the song to be appropriate from me to my meowmy. For me, tomorrow will never come again. I know how much my meowmy loves me and she knows how much I love her. I watched from my lifeless body yesterday as my meowmy stroked me and kissed me and saw her tears freely falling all over my fur. I wanted to tell her it was okay and that I was no longer suffering but I could not make her hear my words. I know that Meowmy is hurting very badly now and I hope to give her my sweet comforting biscuits. I hope she can feel it.
Thank you to all who have sent stars and gifties for my page to help comfort my meowmy and me. I will try to write a thank you to each of you when I am able. For now, please know your furiendship and love are deeply felt and appreciated.
May 11th 2012 1:36 pm
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Well, now.... isn't this a fine pickle? The title of my diary should actually be Oops!... Meowmy Did It Again... because it is her fault. We thought we would use Britney Spears song title, however. All of us kitties thing this will be our new mantra... *shakes head*
I was excited to learn that I had been chosen as one of the DDP honorees yesterday. It was so nice of Catster HQ and the Diary Gal to select me.
I want to say special thanks for two lovely picture mementos from Big Harry and from Rory, Tundra, Manytoes and Lynzee. I am posting those pictures on my page.
Meowmy never got back to my birthday diary so I will aim to finish it later in this diary writing.
First, I am so behind on my POP gifties and messages I received in April and May. Thank you to Leo and furmily, Mocha and furmily, Angel Rebby, Luke, Kaci Sunshine and furmily, Big Harry and furmily and Angel Wanda and furmily for the meaningful POP gifties you sent me during April. Thanks to Angel Buddie for the blue ribbon and special get well message.
Thank you to Angel Wanda and furmily for my fun yarn ball, Aedan for my birthday hat, Blade and furmily for my yummy shrimp, Teebo and furmily for my lucky lady bug, Morticia and furmily for my heart, Big Harry and furmily for my shrimp, Ozzy and Harriet for my blue ribbon and Tessa and furmily for my baseball. All the messages were so lovely. Thanks to Mocha and furmily for my furever crown and Cleo for my furever gold heart. Your messages were so special.
On my birthday, I received a red heart from the ARG with a nice welcome to Olde Furts. Thank you to the ARG.
On May 9, I received POP from Cleo, in addition to the lovely furever giftie she sent me.
On May 10, I received a purrty bluebird from Zack and Zoey with concats for my DDP honor.
I received a nice birthday greeting from Phantom and DDP concats from Smile Cassanova and Angel Buddie and furmily. Thanks to all of you for helping me celebrate my birthday, DDP honors and MOST OF ALL POP for my health.
Let me get to what is going on with me, for those who do not know. My meowmy was loving on me in early April... a furry common, daily event. She noticed a very small lump on my side... rather like a bb in size under the skin but not that hard. She called my doc doc and scheduled my physical and rabies shot on April 2. The doc doc said she wanted to do a needle aspiration of the site. It showed some odd cells and my doc doc said she wanted to operate to remove it. Since Easter was coming up that weekend, they (Meowmy and the doc doc) decided to wait until the 10th to do the surgery. My doc doc shaved that area and removed a good deal of the surrounding tissue and sent it off to be biopsied. The initial report came back "iffy" and the doc performing the tests requested permission to do more testing. All of those reports came back "normal" but there was a note on the papers to keep this doc informed of my health status. Meowmy should have figured out then that something was not exactly right but she breathed a sigh of relief and gave thanks that I did not show up as having cancer. My doc doc was afraid of some type of blood cancer. I seemed to be healing well and moving along as per normal when suddenly on May 1 about noon, I came running into the catputer room and jumped on Meowmy and was licking like mad at the site of my operation and on the other side and fur was flying and I was meowing funny and rather loudly... I kept it up all the rest of the day off and on. I was "normal" other than that. However, on the 2nd, I did not show ANY interest in eating and was wanting to lay on the granite counter... Meowmy offered me some canned W/D and I did eat some of that but did not offer to get up. Meowmy called my doc doc and she said bring me right on in... she examined me... felt all around my operation site and sides... she said that I might be having some inflammation issues or an allergy and gave me some prednisilone. She said if that helped me, then we would have our answer...
When I returned home, I immediately went into the interior bathroom and got in the tub... I remained there all the rest of the day and showed NO interest in food. I was still scratching and shaking and licking. Meowmy called my doc doc at 3:30 to tell her of my unusual behavior. She scheduled another visit for early the next morning (May 3rd). I was to see the new doc doc because my doc doc was off. Dr. Montgerard immediately palpitated my tummy and told my meowmy that I had a very enlarged kidney on one side and wanted to xRay it... she did and told Meowmy that I needed to have an ultrasound. That was scheduled for the next day, May 4th with Dr. Dodd. She is the doc doc who has done ultrasounds on Baby G, Hooch and Mojo. She travels to the different hospitals now. She was coming to my doc doc's on the very next day... that was convenient. So, I was scheduled for a 2PM ultrasound. My doc doc was in that day and went into the room with Dr. Dodd.
When my doc doc came out, my meowmy knew it was not good. Her first words to my meowmy were, "It is bad... very bad." Not only do I have a mass in my kidney but two other masses. Dr. Dodd requested permission to do an FNA (fine needle aspiration on the spots) and Meowmy gave her permission to do so. They anesthetized me and did their work. They sent me home with buprenorphine for pain and said they should have the results by today. Actually, they will have it but the facility is on the West Coast and it won't be ready until after 4 their time... so, we will have to wait until Monday to get the results of my testing.
At this moment, my doc doc suspects either lymphoma or plasma cell cancer. Neither is desirable. Meowmy is very upset but I am doing my best to console her.
My big brofur Hooch went to his specialist yesterday. Overall, he got a purrty good report. They reduced his insulin to 1 1/2 units twice daily. His labs came back in today and overall were good. Dr. Jaeger said he may lengthen the time between his Leukeran doses in a month. His liver values were slightly elevated but Dr. Jaeger said that he was comfortable with it for now.
My meowmy has been helping her furiend who is almost 92 with his kitties. His oldest kitty named Tiger was diagnosed with CRF two years ago and has done well until the past week. Meowmy took Crawford and Tiger to his doc doc and they found a hard mass in his tummy. Tiger may have cancer, too. Meowmy is going to give Tiger a sub Q on Saturday and then again early in the week and see how she thinks he is doing... Tiger's doc doc told Meowmy that she is fearful that Tiger's time has come. Tiger is 16 years old and his owner really loves him... His owner is close to having to go to a nursing facility himself... he is getting feeble, according to my meowmy. It is a furry sad situation for all.
Many thanks for celebrating my birthday, my DDP honors but MOST of all the POP... I really need those prayers. Thank you. My love to each of you.
May 9th 2012 6:40 am
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Today I celebrate my 10th birthday! Meowmy is very excited that I am able to celebrate this birthday. We have had some most disturbing news in recent months and this will probably be my last earthly birthday. Meowmy is not happy about this but is trying to prepare all of us for what is to come.
Meowmy will help me write more about that later today but she has to get ready to take her almost 92 year old furiend to the vet with his kitty Tiger. Tiger is suffering from renal failure and has lived for several years since the diagnosis. He has not done well this past week and his owner is afraid his time has come. So Meowmy is going to help him but she promised to help me write more so I can update my furiends about what is going on with me and my current diagnosis when she gets back from helping Crawford with Tiger.
I received a nice birthday hat this morning from my furiend Harry and his pawsome furmily. Thank you for remembering me on my birthday. Please remember Harry and his furmily as his doggie brofur Toby had to make his Bridge journey yesterday. We send our love to the whole furmily.
5:27PM EST ~Meowmy ended up having to spend much longer with Crawford and Tiger at his vet and told me she will help me write a much longer note later tonight. You see, today is my human sisfur-in-law's birthday, too. My pawrents are going out to celebrate Julie's birthday and Meowmy doesn't have enough time to write what I want to say.
I saw I received lots of nice gifties and had a few more birthday messages. I will mention each of them later but wanted to thank each of you for the kind thoughts and gifties. Much love from ME!
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