Likes: Whiska's Temptations, being held like a baby
Pet-Peeves: Whitie pushing her away when she wants attention and abusers.
Favorite Toy: it is a catnip duck. Also her turbo blaster even if she doesn't play with it anymore
Favorite Nap Spot: Either on my bed in her cat castle or on the couch or on top of her turbo blaster
Favorite Food: Whiska's Cat food and that's all she eats.
Skills: cleaning her paws in the water dish and telling her sisters what to do, Also helping her sister Whitie stay calm at night when she has a nightmare she calms her down
Arrival Story: Hi all Well my story is pretty long maybe I'll write a diary when I have more time.
But to make a long story short. Mommy and Nana and Uncle Robbie came in to the Toronto Humane Society and nana wanted my sister and mommy wanted me My sister Luvbunny has since passed she passed on August 12 2004 shortly after I came to live with mommy for good.
Anyway mommy got nana to get both of us and I became my mommy's baby.
Then mommy left in 2001 and couldn't bring me with her and I had to stay with nana but we were reunited in Feb of 2004 and I got to go home and stay with mommy for good. I'm so happy I love my mommy.
I came here to Heaven Wed June 25, 2008
Bio: I'm epileptic and I take seizures sometimes but never mild ones always grandmal and it's scary. I take my phenobarbital pill everyday to help me not have seizures and keep them at bay. But stress and things like that can cause me to go into one. So mommy is very careful including with the camera flashes and everything..
I also have Severe Arthritis and I have to take 2 meds for that. I am on meta cam 3 times a week only and Sasha's blend everyday a pinch of that on my tongue so that it keeps the pain at bay and it doesn't stress me out and put me in a seizure.
I also have a slight bit of brain damage because of all the grandmal seizures I have taken since I developed epilepsy in 2005 so mommy has 2 nightlights that she puts on for me at night so that I don't walk into walls so that's great for me.
It's time to make the truth known and that is even after basically a year since Whitie's Passing I miss her only like it was yesterday. I am still hurting and I know there will never be another dog like her she was so special to me and meant so much. AS Bon-Bon meant to me too.
I miss them so much and I am hurting as if it were just yesterday since they passed this is my very first Christmas without the both of them by my side giving me cuddles and kisses and letting me their mommy know that they loved me and that everything was going to be ok.
This Christmas is very hard for me because I am not going home this year and am basically I guess you can say spending it alone.
People keep telling me that I should be over the loss of my baby girls by now because they were just animals but they were my daughters my precious girls.
I know God Gave HIS son for us and HE hurt too.
I feel so selfish for feeling this way as you have all noticed I have not been active at all in dogster and catster lately.
I feel guilty also for jumping in the decision of getting Freedom I never considered the size of my aprt for such a big dog. Freedom went to her new forever home last week a friend and her family took her in. Freedom loves it there yesterday her mommy, daddy and I signed a contract and made it legal she is now their family member but she will forever be in my heart. Freedom needed her Freedom she lives in a house now with a backyard and another pup to play with with 4 cats too. They have company all the time and Freedom loves the people and she already knows this is her family. I miss her but I know she's so happy in her new home. I get to go over and see her anytime I want to in fact I was there yesterday spending time with Freedom they will keep me updated and will send me pictures too.
But I feel so bad for still missing my angel girls. Sometimes I wish I was like Autumn and Terucan my cats and that I could be over their loss already. I know most people who lose family pets usually are over it before the year is up.
But I still only want them back. I miss them so much. Especially my helper dog Whitie who helped me feel safe while I was outside around so many people but I know I will never get either of them back and I know they are in a much better place. But then why does it still hurt so very much?
Autumn has not left my side this whole week she has been such a suck. Now that Freedom is gone Autumn is almost back to her normal self ask for attention no longer hiding during the day and once again playing with her sister Terucan and running around the house at times. But for the most part she has been by my side cuddling me and loving me and Terucan has taken her turns also to be a snuggle bug. They are a big help to me right now. But there is still that big huge hole in my heart of my two angel babies that are not there. The first two babies that I ever had..
Fantasia Moon who is also on dogster she was one of our family dogs I grew up with passed away 2 weeks ago she had a brain tumour and mom finally had to make the decision to let her go. It has not hit me yet that Fanny is gone because I have yet to be home and looks like I won't be going home this year. But she was a sweet little girl and I grew up with her she was 11 yrs old. Brittania from what mom said is doing alright she has a heart murmur and I pray Brit won't suddenly turn to depression once she realizes that her sister and best friend of 11 yrs is gone and pass away too because I know my mom wouldn't be able to handle that at this time.
I just keep remembering the times with My girls Whitie and Bon-Bon and just how much all my furfamily loved each other and took care of each other and just how protective Whitie was of her cats. And how she became the mother of Autumn basically when Autumn was only 4 weeks old.
how is it possible that after a year I still miss her this way and after 6 months I still miss Bon-Bon so much too? I do not know but I do know I am selfish for feeling this way and I feel so guilty for it because I know my mother is grieving something awful right now too with the loss of her baby girl just 2 weeks ago one year ago this past November she had to say goodbye to our last family cat Butterfly too who passed away from Liver cancer.
So to be truthful to everyone this year has been extremely hard on me and this Christmas isn't that much better.
Thank-you for all your support and prayers and thank-you so much to those of my friends that I have met on dogster and Catster that have kept in touch with me via e-mail it is very very much appreciated and helps show me that people do care and don't just say well they were just animals you should be over it by now.......... Especially when I already feel guilty enough for feeling this way..
Once again thank-you
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year
Well although I did arrive safely poor mommy doesn't know as of yet I still have not been able to go down and visit her for the one time to tell her that I'm ok like Whitie did..
Mommy is depressed and of course the closer it draws nearer to the July 20th the day I would've turned 10 (I wasn't adopted till a week before mommy's birthday when I was 11 weeks)
Mommy gets even more sad.
She misses me so much she just wishes she could curl up in her bed and never get up again.
But she can not Thankfully Freedom is there to make mommy take her for walks.
Poor Autumn is depressed to and I think she could be sick I just hope it doesn't need vet attention whatever she's got cause mommy spent all the money on me and Freedom on June 25th.
Autumn doesn't do nothing but eat drink go to the washroom and sleep sometimes she won't even let mommy pet her or hold her.
During the day Terucan stays in the cat room all day cause she doesn't want Freedom to bug her then at night she will come out and play and then sleep by mommy's bed on the floor all night long .
But of all my sisters I worry about mommy the most so does Whitie.
She is just wanting to isolate she doesn't even want to eat or do anything at all.
She feels guilty cause she doesn't think she's doing what she needs to for my sisters on earth you know?
But I know mommy will be ok and I know she'll get out of this she always does.
She's just go so much on her mind and so much to handle right now.
Like when she found out Bandit was euthanized 2 weeks after he left mommy's place she's blaming herself for that. and it was that bad woman's step son who shoved it in her face too. Said he was euthanized for being rambunctious just broke mommy's heart before I even passed on you know.. But he's up here in Heaven too. He's part of the our family up here. If only I could tell mommy that and tell her just how much Bandit knows he was loved by mommy and appreciates that too.
She's dealing with plenty of stuff right now
Well that's it for me I'll be back another time when mommy's up to helping me write again
I fought the sedation so hard the vet put something in the sedation also to help with me not going into a seizure and for pain. But I fought it and wouldn't sleep even after 15 minutes I was awake after a second sedation shot. I got sick 4 times also the vet said she's never seen a furbaby get sick from it before.
Finally they just gave me the second shot the Heaven Journey Shot. Whitie and Aunty Butterfly and Luvbunny all flew down and made me go home with them I didn't want to leave mommy she was holding me and kissing me so so much. She kept telling me she loved me and it was ok to go.
I had a talk with Jesus when I arrived and HE held me in HIS arms.
Mommy is hurting so much Whitie and I are hurting seeing just how much she is crying right now and Autumn and Terucan are so lost and right now won't let mommy pet them or cuddle them. She gave them extra treats though
Right now she's crying so hard and she just can't stop she hasn't eaten all day nor can she sleep.
I just wish I could be with her right now I know how much she loved me and i loved her so much too.
Well pls pray for her and my sisters thanks