Hear It From Harry

First Day Without You

January 1st 2010 3:43 pm
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To my sweet angel boy~
Happy New Year, my dearest love.
It's the first day of the new year, and the first day of the rest of my life without you in it.
I wish I could have stopped time.

Harry had been slowly slipping away from us for the last couple of months. His kidney values continued to worsen, and he began to cry when we tried to give him his sub-Q fluids. More and more he just slept the day away. I had moved him and Stinky into our office, to give them some privacy, and have a place to administer all the medications. They both loved it there, and rarely asked to leave that room. My husband and I started sleeping there too, on a couple of air mats on the floor. Rather rustic, but it let me stay close, for when Stinky had a coughing spell, or Harry needed something. Harry had a routine of waking up around 2 am, to use the litter, and then have a late snack. He had begun to eat the KD food again, which we were very happy about. Then, before he went back to his bed, he would climb onto my back, and spent about 15 minutes gently kneading me. He has grown so thin and light, I could barely feel his weight on me.
In the mornings, he was always ready for breakfast, and ate eagerly, though not very much. The day before yesterday he didn't want to eat, and worse, didn't drink much or use the litter. He was also much more unsteady on his feet. That night, we hydrated him with 150 cc's. He did not protest, but I feared that was because he was too weak to. That much liquid should have stimulated him to pee, but that night he did not get out of his bed all night. I lay awake most of the night. I was afraid he would pass in the night, curled into a small ball in his new bed. We had just bought him a really overstuffed velour and fleece bed, to help cushion his tiny body. He loved that bed, and sat in it, kneading it for about half an hour before he fell fast asleep.
The following morning, yesterday...it seems so long ago already...he could barely stand. He showed no interest in food or water, and he was unresponsive when I spoke to him.
My husband called the vet, and the vet said it was time. I had wanted to let him pass peacefully with us, the way most of the cats we have loved over the past three decades have, but we both did not want to see him suffer the way Riley had. He is only the third cat I have had to help cross, the first being a precious foster kitten, who had leukemia, and the second being my darling Riley. I know it was the right thing to do, but it was the hardest thing. Our vet was so kind. He reassured us that we had given Harry longer than he ever imagined he would live. His words were that it was a testament to our care that he lived as long as he did, with this terrible disease. But seven and a half short years...it should have been double that at least.
And something else, that we both realized...we adopted Harry from that same vets office. He had been brought in as a days old kitten, found in a backyard, to be put to sleep. Now here I was...years later, bringing him back to the same place to complete his journey. Tears sting my face, and blur my eyes now, so I must end this.
Thank everyone, for your support and friendship, and for loving Harry and all the rest of my precious "Bunch".

With love from a broken heart,
Teri and David

 
 

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Purred by: Samoa - Diva Angel (Catster Member)

January 1st 2010 at 4:12 pm

Harry was given a wonderful chance at life thanks to his Mom and Dad. He knows how loved he was by his family and his Catster friends. We also know many angel pals and his siblings were there to greet him at the bridge. Rest in peace, Harry.
Purred by: Rascal- our OCP Angel '94-'11 (Catster Member)

January 1st 2010 at 4:17 pm

There are no words to make events like this less painful, our pain shows how much love we shared...and the pain eases and memories make us smile.....
The smiles make the ones we love live forever...

hugs and purrrrrrrs,
Rascal and the Carolina Crew
Purred by: George ♥ DB #176B (Catster Member)

January 1st 2010 at 4:25 pm

Dearest Harry and mommy Teri;
what a moving diary and tribute of love to Harry. He will live on in our hearts always. Nothing can take away the pain of losing a loved one, but hopefully soft words of love and healing hope will help. Much love to you.
George & the Crew (mommy Terry too)
Purred by: Chef Rooster (Catster Member)

January 1st 2010 at 4:26 pm

(((hugging you all close)))
Bless you all and we are purring for you.
Love
Chef Rooster and Clowder
Purred by: Alfie - DB #37a - Dearly Loved (Catster Member)

January 1st 2010 at 4:33 pm

We can feel your heartache at losing Harry. Time is a healer but you will always have a piece of his heart with you.
Love & hugs
Alfie & family
Purred by: Patrick (Angel) (Catster Member)

January 1st 2010 at 5:14 pm

Mommy was very sad without me there for the holidays but she knows I am safe and still closeby in her heart. Today is the new year and the first day of your new life as an Angel. You will inspire and help many.

Together we can help ease the pain/fear of others who are living with kidney issues by watching over them.

I love you, Harry my friend.
Purred by: KIBBLES (Catster Member)

January 1st 2010 at 5:49 pm

To Harry and His Family, We send you our Love, Hugs, Kisses, Purrs, and Prayers.

Love, Kibbles, Francis, & Yoda
Purred by: Callie (Catster Member)

January 1st 2010 at 5:51 pm

Our hearts are breaking at your loss. You gave Harry such a wonderful life. We are sending you so many hugs and comforting thoughts. We hope you can feel all the love.
Purred by: Sissy (love you angel girl) (Catster Member)

January 1st 2010 at 6:06 pm

Do not ever doubt how wonderful pawrents you both are. Any fur would be lucky to find you. Sending you much love & purrs.
Purred by: Jack Kayden -love always (Catster Member)

January 1st 2010 at 6:32 pm

I'm so sorry about Harry and wanted to send my sympathy. We lost our dear Jack a few months ago and then right before Christmas we also had to let go of Tiny Tim, a special needs kitten we rescued. I found that people in my personal life didn't really know how to react to my sadness over loosing Jack Kayden, but I've made great friends on catster that understand what I'm going through and have been there to comfort me. I hope that you can find comfort and healing as well.
Purred by: Ava 4 ever Mommy's Angel (Catster Member)

January 1st 2010 at 6:37 pm

I am so sorry, you've been through so much. Harry is safe with me now...I love him because he looks like my Andy and my brofur Arli. Purrs, Ava
Purred by: Kiwi (Catster Member)

January 1st 2010 at 9:28 pm

Hugs and love from my family to your family...I wish that I could ease your grief and pain
Purred by: Angel Soc Dreamboat #56 (Catster Member)

January 2nd 2010 at 5:28 am

We love you all so much, we feel your pain,you are in our prayers,love always soc and familyxx
Purred by: Calico J

January 2nd 2010 at 8:56 pm

Our Humans know and feel your pain. Nothing is easy when you have to help the one you love, cross over the Bridge. Our Humans made a tribute to Suzie last November. One year after she crossed. The hurt is the same and the tears still flow when the story is repeated. You both went far beyond, the love you showed and the care you gave is above and beyond. We pray for you and your pain. Harry was one VERY LUCKY KITTY to have had Humans like you.
Purred by: Annette O

January 3rd 2010 at 11:19 am

Hi Harry,
You were and continue to be a lovely cat. I am so sad to hear of your passing, but know that you will look out for your family from over Rainbow Bridge.
Luv,
Lenore and family
Purred by: Guido the Italian Kitty db 115 (Catster Member)

January 3rd 2010 at 6:09 pm

Resta Inza Peace Harry. Youza got da most meowvaloso pawrents and theyza cares so much bout youza. Nowza pal, youza gonna care and look over them cuz youza an Angel with da flying wings and that's Catzowey! I sends my EyeTailYun kitty luv to all yur family Harry - youza take care pal.
Luv ya dude,
GUIDO


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