Can the Power of Love keep cancer away, or at least at bay?

I THINK SO! I beliEVE so! I have been feeling the Power of Love consistently and strongly for the last month since my cancer diagnosis. Many thanks, HQ, for honoring me as a DDP today and to all who read my diary and are holding my paws throughout my journey.

First off- I am doing really well with my Meloxicam. Mom thought I didn’t have much time after that very upsetting day. Dr. Pogrel beliEVEs as well… as he was the one that said, “I THINK YOU SHOULD TRY THIS”…. After he and mom agreed not to pursue cancer treatments that have little effect. Mom at first said no to the idea of treating me with Meloxicam! Thank goodness Dr. Pogrel coaxed her. The Meloxicam has kept me comfortable and I am almost my normal self. That combined with all of the love all over Catster, and the extra attention I’m getting at home.

Hug your family members tight and let them know how much you mean to them… my family is letting me know that they will not let me go without fighting this terrible disease that afflicts so many. My 12th birthday is in 9 days… I WILL be around to celebrate it and I hope that my friends are at my side to share my special day.

My beautiful flower that I wrote about in my previous diary entry is growing taller and stronger every day. It is a sign and I thank my dear SoulKitty AGGIE for bringing it to me. I love watching it grow and I promise to post pictures on my page when it opens. My best friend EBONY has kept me company every day too, watching my beautiful flower with me. I love you both!

Have a wonderful day, stay pawsitive and beliEVE! I love you all!

My Guardian Angel sent me a beautiful sign

Dearest Diary,

I take so much comfort in pouring my thoughts out on paper. I want to share with my friends that my wonderful SoulKitty Guardian Angel AGGIE sent me a beautiful sign!

I know that she and my little sister Eve are in cahoots together in Heaven, doing what they can to make me happy. They sure are doing a great job! I am happy to know that they are the best of friends in Heaven; I love you both.

Yesterday mom noticed a gorgeous flower coming up, about to bloom right in front of my bedroom window, right in front of MY bed. The thing that is so special about this is that this is the first time ever that this plant has bloomed for us, it is called a Bird of Paradise. I know that Eve and Aggie helped make it grow and flourish so that I can enjoy it at my window. What makes it even more magical is that my bedroom is ….. on the SECOND floor! It is a very special flower, reaching high so that I can see it! I can’t wait to watch it open. I beliEVE!

TeeHeeHee… I’m not done yet either…. For it gets even better! My sweetest friend EBONY checks in on me EVERY day, asking how I am. And she invites me over every day to sit in the window and watch the birds. Well my sweet friend, the angels brought me a very special bird; a Bird of Paradise for us to watch together from our warm sunpuddle. I beliEVE!

Do you beliEVE?

I’ve got mom eating out of my paw!

Well… okay. Mom has ME eating out of her hand. *giggles* I am figuring out her routine. I picked at my tuna… so mom gave me Friskies chicken. I picked at that. So mom gave me kibbles. Well I picked at those too! This is our secret, dear Diary: I’m picking at my food so that she hand feeds me … CHICKEN! Mmmm yummy boiled chicken breast bites, gently heated, and all that I want. One piece at a time, until I have had my fill. I love my family and I know they love me, as I slowly savor each piece.

C’mon, mom. You can’t fool me. I am on to you. I KNOW you have chicken for me, so I’m holding out for the good stuff. So don’t worry if I don’t eat my Fancy Feast or my Royal Canin crunchies. I really don’t mind waiting for the goodies; I have your routine down!

I’ve lost some weight, but I still look as handsome as ever. Perhaps even more so! My strategy is paying off… mom took another ½ chicken breast out of the freezer to thaw tonight so that she can boil it for me with the yummy juice. MMMMM! (ssshhh… hoomans are such pushovers…)

Until next time dear Diary and friends. Do you beliEVE? I do. I love you all.

Meowing out to my friends with happy purrs

Meows to my friends!

It has been a few days since I've written, and I am very appreciative of the concerned and loving pmails I've received.

I am holding steady now; it has been 2 weeks since the awful diagnosis of my cancer. I'm comfortable and content and I know how loved I am!

Mom's biggest challenge is getting me to eat, as it is bothersome. At first it was tuna that I loved the most, today it seems to be chicken. Mom boiled chicken breast for me, shredded it and hand feeds me after trying to get me to eat breakfast and dinner as best as she can. MeoWOW! CHICKEN! My kingdom for chicken! I gobble it down, yet I do so slowly and carefully.

(Mom: GO POO, GO!!! Baby boy!!!)

Mom figured this out. And to try to explain in human terms... sometimes the 'junk food' is just SO much yummier! We've all been on very healthy diets and prescription diets (*sigh*... my family...MOL) so mom gave us all regular Friskies wet food, and we ALL went nuts! Me especially! To make a human comparison, it would be like feeding us tofu, broccoli and peas for so long, then to be served a burger and fries; well we went WILD! MOL! So mom is giving me anything ane everything I want. If it is yummy friskies, which is still very good, it's friskies I get! And with boiled chicken for dessert! mmmmmmm.....

we have our quiet times too. I gaze up at mom and purr, and open my mouth to meow out to her, and nothing comes out. My little voice is not working as much as it used to. But it is okay, I am loved and mom knows when I tell her I love her :)

Until later, dear diary. To all of the dedicated mommies out there taking care of us, happy mommy's day.

I love you all. Every day is a gift.

Every day is a gift

My SoulKitty and Guardian Angel Aggie taught me that every day is a gift.

The smallest most inconspicuous, often overlooked gifts are the most treasured. My family has learned throughout my journey that the most important things can be so easily taken for granted. Mom’s spirits were lifted high today after coming home to *ME* after work, for this morning I was coughing and struggling and fighting taking my medicine. She was leaky eyed all day at that place humans call ‘work’, and couldn’t wait to come home to me.

I truly beliEVE my medicine is making a huge difference for me! If it can prolong my life for as much as possible, we are all grateful and determined to fight.
My gifts to my family this EVEning:

I pranced up to mom, tail held high, and gazed at her with love and light!
I was eager to eat my dinner, and ate with gusto! Mom didn’t have to follow me around with my bowl tonight.
I followed mom around the house until she got my dinner ready... I love my family!
I am enjoying my kibbles, after having eaten my entire bowl of wet food! (I get chicken treats later!)

Do you beliEVE?

We beliEVE! My family is grateful for my humble gifts tonight. My gift to my friends is that of furever friendship, support and love.

Every day is a gift. Treasure every moment that you can. My family learned that from me and will never forget this.

Good night dear diary, until next time.

My Guardian Angel Aggie checked in on me

My BEAUTIFUL Guardian Angel Aggie Waggie whispered her love into my heart today! She is such a wonderful angel, watching over me and asking how I am doing. Here is what I had to say to her:

Thank you for checking up on me! It has brightened my day so much. I have been holding steady all week since starting my medicine. Mom is praying that this holding pattern will stick for a long time to come. I am still eating very slowly. Mom follows me around with my wet food bowl every time I walk away from it, and I eat again when she puts it in front of me. Silly food bowl following me! After wet food I really do enjoy my kibbles, and I come and go from my bowl for about a half hour ever morning and evening until I’ve had my fill. Mom sits with me the whole time. She noticed that it is easier for me to eat the larger kibbles, than the smaller ones. Maybe they’re easier for me to grab with my teeth? I am drinking and using the kitty box regularly. It looks like my weight is stabilized (beliEVE!!!). Dad reports in every day to mom, who is stuck at work, and he feeds me turkey treats. I ate a WHOLE slice yesterday!!! This morning I am enjoying sun puddles in dad’s office with him. Mom and dad are grateful for whatever days I enjoy.

Aggie, want to know two things? There is a reason that we were both picked as DDP’s together yesterday. We are SoulKitties! I know that was a sign that you sent to HQ, to be together on the Catster homepage (beliEVE!)
Want to know the other thing? This one gave mom goosebumps. Auntie Jeanette sent mom and dad a card yesterday in the mail, expressing her love for me, and know what? The card arrived without postage!!! (I know that was you that made it arrive!) beliEVE!

I love you my SoulKitty Guardian Angel.

Happy Air Paws,
Your loving Poo

*giggles at sticky sweet Air Paws covered with grape popsicle dust and catnip* …MOL!

Thank you for the DDP honor, HQ. I am deeply touched and- very grateful!!

MeoWOW!! I am a DDP along with a number of wonderful friends today! THANK YOU HQ! This has been a very difficult week, as today marks the one week anniversary of my cancer diagnosis. My friends coming together in love and support has helped boost my spirits tremendously as mom and dad fight to keep me comfortable and happy. This DDP honor is so much appreciated as I share my story and love throughout Catster with my friends! THANK YOU!!!

I send out a very hearty concats to my good good friends and fellow diary honorees today!
AGGIE MY GUARDIAN ANGEL (I LOVE YOU, sweet Aggie!)
RALPHIE
HAZEL LUCY

Please stop by their pages and offer some loves!

We are purring and praying for our friends who are dealing with sickness as well.
BOB THE TOMATO is fighting the same cancer as I am
MAZIE, Hazel Lucy’s sister, is in need of expensive dental work
SAMOA has a mass in her abdomen that her mom fears is cancer
STRYDER has trouble going potty and needs purrs of comfort
SUGAR BEAR, my cousin at heart, has survived breast cancer TWICE

Please stop by their pages and offer some encouragement and much needed love.

Thank you for beliEVEing in me and loving me!

small miracles!

The smallest things make my family so happy... like me eating all of my breakfast!

Mom talked to Dr. Pogrel yesterday afternoon and he suggested Meloxicam. Mom at first said no, as neither she nor my doctor want to put me through treatments that might not work for me. But... Dr. P. said, I think you should try it....

So mom picked up my prescription. Meloxicam is for pain/inflammation. She gave me my first dose and I didn't even run and hide as I usually do. Well, dinner time rolled around, and I'd become.... my old self!! I was acting happy, tail up, eyes bright, wanting dinner! I ate and ate and ate! Granted I still eat very slowly, but I didn't jump away from my food bowl as I'd been doing. I even had turkey treats without spitting them out.

SMALL MIRACLES!

Meloxicam won't take away my cancer, but I sure am feeling more comfortable after taking it, and if it gives me one more week, one more month, one more year together with my family, then we are determined to make this work!

My good friend BOB THE TOMATO has the same problem; please purr for him too. I am going to tell him about my treatment; I hope it brings him and his family some relief and peace as well.

This morning I even mewed, rolled over and did Air Paws for mom. Small miracles!

I love my vet. And I love all of you. Thank you for loving me and for keeping my beautiful candles lit!

Embrace precious memories

Mom and I are both fighting cancer. Luckily, hers is treatable skin cancer. She had some sort of preventative thingy done on her face and it’s all puffy-scary looking *giggles* so she stayed home from work today. Know what that means? A full day with ME!! I am so loved!

This morning I picked at my food again and am just not as interested in food. I still look good though! Now I am sitting in front of the open door (with screen) enjoying the fresh morning air and listening to the birds chirping. It is a beautiful morning. I am being really quiet, but mom and I keep looking at each other and doing “squeezy eyes” with each other. With that mom wants to reflect on memories of me and what makes her happy, so that she can look back on this and smile and smile always.

She FINALLY fixed my page after many many months! I love it and it is a tribute to fighting cancer, and she is going to keep my diary going for me. Here is a list of some of “Things That Are Only Poo”:

The best thing that I do is hunting bananas. I have a favorite plush banana that I sneak up on and attack, carrying it around in my mouth, yowling at the top of my lungs. I always do this right after breakfast and in the middle of the night; prefereably at 3:00 a.m. I don’t get why mom doesn’t want to get up and play with me??

My nickname is Poo’s Shoois. Shoes. I love shoes. I love to sit on mom’s shoes; she got a good picture of me this morning doing just that. I think I look rather cute in sparkly sandals!

I hold paws with her and I do Air-Paws when I’m really happy. I lay on my back purrrowrring and doing my happy feet in the air.

I have ESP, did you know? I KNOW when she is coming after me with the clippers to cut my nails, and I run and hide. TeeHee! She claims to call it a manicure. Oh right… I am smarter than that.

CHICKEN! My kingdom for chicken! Here is where my ESP kicks in again… I KNOW when she is cutting up chicken in the kitchen and I come running! It is my favorite treat, next to deli turkey. (See? She is just writing about chicken and I came and jumped up in her lap) We’re both purring :)

I am the only one that can tilt the water dish toward me. I lean on it so it tilts a little bit toward me, and it never spills.

I stole mom’s heart that day almost 12 years ago in July, when she was looking for kitten twins. I peeked out at her from that crowded shelter from within a cage that I shared with a nice tortie kitty. I will always wonder about my roommate, if she found a home. The shelter had a lot of sickness going on, and after I was adopted, I got really sick! I was only 8 weeks old and I stayed at the v.e.t. where everyone loved me and gave me toys. They let mom visit, and I had had fluids given to me intravenously in my upper back; the fluid made a big hump and I looked like the cutest little camel!

My brofur Tigger and I got out one day. Mom came home from work, horrified to see the back door ajar. Panicking, she looked all over for me, to find me quietly sitting in the grass watching her with amusement. (she was scared, and I would never do that again)

I have traveled 4000 miles!! I hate the car, but I got used to it. I moved from CA to MN and then from MN back to CA.

One of my most famous stunts was peeing in dad’s suitcase when he was dating mom. I HAD to show him who was boss and protect her. He passed the test though, and he is the best daddy ever!

When I talk to mom, I go “mmmm”. She say, “Poo” and I go, “mmmm”
Poo
Mmmm
Poo
Mmmm

Every morning and evening before breakfast and dinner, my sister Lily and I box together. We always do boxing matches before meals and have done so for years. I haven’t done this lately though. Soft purrs.

I sit BEHIND my drinking fountain to drink water. (it is more fun than sitting in front of it) MOL

Well dear diary and dear friends, thanks for listening. I hope you all have a beautiful day. Every day is a gift; cherish it. I learned that from my guardian angel Aggie’s brother, Ralphie.

love and gratitude for my friends

I have been busy writing thank you notes for all of the wonderful gifts from my wonderful friends. It helps keep mom occupied too. This morning I had some tuna and a few kibbles. I normally love my deli turkey and ate with gusto yesterday. This morning I tried to have some turkey treats, but I kept spitting them out. I still look really good and am purring and affectionate. I slept in mom’s lap for an hour this morning while she helped me write my thank you’s and reflect. She will talk to Dr. Pogrel tomorrow about what to watch for and how to keep me most comfortable. It is comforting to her to write in my diary for me.

My sweet friend CRYSTAL started a candle page for me. Would you like to light a candle for me? I would be very touched. Here is the link:

Poo’s Candle Page

Mom’s tears come and go. Right now after the shock of the news of my cancer, she is focusing on me and spoiling me. I want to tell her, it is okay…. It is okay….

We continue our purrs and prayers for all in need. I love you all