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Confessions of a semi feral

At the rainbow bridge....

There are SO many wonderful kitties here at the bridge. I have met them and I am really enjoying their company.

Looks like Food Lady has made me a candle tribute page.

If any of you wonderful cats would like to light a candle in my memory, the page can be found

here:


Or you can copy this address and paste it into your browser window to get there:

http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng&gi =MERL

Headbonks,
Merlin

Hello from the bridge

Hello from Merlin

I have arrived at the bridge, and I have to say, it sure feels good to finally be healthy, and not have any more worries.

I sure miss Food Lady, but my love for her will be eternal, and I will always watch over her and extend my undying love to her. I know she tried her best to save me, and I know she did her best, but she needs to understand that you can't change fate. I know she loved me. I know she always will.

Being the incredibly cool cat that I am, I sent her a parting gift. I saw from above that a little black kitten was in trouble, and does he ever resemble me! I tell you kitties, it's like he has my face but on a little skinny kitten body, I am not kidding you! So I knew he and Food Lady just HAD to get together. They were meant for each other, and I knew they could heal each other's wounded spirits. I had to pull some strings, as this kitten's place of abandonment wasn't really in Food Lady's neighborhood...in fact it was going to be a bit of a drive, but I knew all I had to do was make sure someone nice picked this little guy up and that it would be someone who would manage to let Food Lady know about it.

Well, lo and behold, an angel named Eva came driving along and saw this poor guy, so hungry he was eating some roadkill on a country road. She stopped and picked him up, being the angel that she is. She didn't know Food Lady, but fortunately, she did know some people who did. That "friend of a friend, of a friend" kind of thing, you know? So emails went out, and Food Lady read about him, and saw his picture. The pictures didn't really do the little guy justice, but still, Food Lady knew this poor baby was meant for her.

Food Lady and Eva exchanged a couple of emails, and the angel Eva knew Food Lady was the right person for this kitten. It was a done deal. Human Man, Food Lady's husband, made the drive out to get him. He got lost, and I got a little worried they might never meet up, but it all got sorted out, he got his bearings, and found the angel Eva, and took the skinny little kitten home to Food Lady.

Well the rest, as they say, is history. This kitten was just what Food Lady needed to help her understand that life comes full circle, and everyone is expected to do their best with what is given to them each new day.

I hope Food Lady makes the little guy a Catster page soon, and I hope Efurrycat will make him feel welcome. Having been found on the country road the very same day I left for the rainbow bridge, Food Lady thought it was appropriate to name him "Phoenix", and I quite agree.

I know Food Lady will always miss me, but I hope she feels less sad soon. I know Phoenix is just the right cat to help her heart and spirit heal, and I have no doubt Food Lady is the right choice for a guardian to help Phoenix grow into a healthy, happy, well loved cat, who knows he has found a home for life.

Take care of my gift to you, Food Lady! I love you!

Merlin

Merlin has gone to the bridge

This is very hard for me to write.

I knew when I sent Merlin to the vet to have him thoroughly checked out, that he was not well. I had a feeling things might not end well for for the sweet baby, but I hoped. You have to have hope, right?

Well, they did finally manage to get the poor, scared little thing tranquilized and they caught him, and did his exam. He was FIV positive, and was very ill. With great reluctance, and with a very heavy heart, I agreed to allow them to help him cross to the rainbow bridge, and they did so, gently, and with great skill and care. I wish I could have told him a final goodbye. I know it would have helped us both.

I had wanted so badly for things to end up different. I dreamed about getting him healthy and well, and bringing him home to show him what a good life was like, where there was always plenty of food, always a lap ready for him, and every comfort he could ever want. That was not to be.

I am happy I knew him though, and I am glad he came into my life, however briefly, and graced me with his presence, and his incredible spirit. I know I will see him again one day. I miss him really, really badly, and I have done nothing but cry today.

Want to hear something weird? Tonight, on the very day of my Merlin's passing, I got an email about a solid black kitten with big gold eyes, who was found on the side of a roadway, so starved he was eating roadkill. Is it kismet? Should I take him in? Am I ready, so soon after losing sweet Merlin? I don't know. I follow my heart on these matters, and let it take me where it will. If it is meant to be, it will be.

I will always mourn the loss of my sweet, eerily intelligent, abundantly affectionate little Merlin. I will never forget him, and the pain will last for a long time.

The Food Lady