I miss you birthday girl......

Seventeen years ago today you were born into this world and at 15 years 18 days you were taken away.
Inside I'm crying, every minute of every day
Memories are painful, and the memories I hold dear,
I'd give all I could ever have, just to have you near.

Mourning has not broken; I don't think it ever will,
There's nothing on this earth, that void could ever fill.

I think about the first time, I saw your little face,
The love I felt as I held you in a mother's embrace.
I said I hardly know you, and already love you so much,
With your paw in my hand, the warmth in that touch.

There's nothing in life, compares to our family and you,
Just how deep my love was, I hope somehow you knew.
I can only hold onto our family, and try to let them know,
My hearts attached to yours and theirs, and I'll never let go.

I can't say goodbye, I'll say till I see you again,
You were more than just a dog you are my baby and my friend
I'll picture you at Rainbow Bridge, in peace and harmony,
And long for the day, you will once again, be with me.

I love you Angelica, Happy Birthday.
Your mom

Moments

My sweet Angelica, you would be 17 on June 6. Another Birthday without you is approaching.

For so long I had hoped, that once all of the "firsts" were over it would become, oh I don't know, somehow magically easier. I was wrong.

When you died, a part of me died with you. I will never be the same person I was.

Yes, there are moments when the grief, the sadness of it all, will go away.
Moments

Yes, there are moments when I actually feel happy, when I smile, laugh, even!
Moments

Yes, there are moments when someone, or something, gives me a little piece of joy.
Moments

And, yes, finally there are moments when I am grateful that you are at peace, where nothing, nor nobody, will be able to hurt you or cause you pain ever again.
Moments

But...so many more of my moments are those of wishing
for just one more snuggle, one more kiss, just one more tail wag.
Moments

I miss you with all of what is left of my shattered heart,

You are never forgotten, Angelica, Snickers, Lady and sweet Liefde.

All my Love Forever,
Mom

1 year ago.....

It's been a year Friday since you passed, and still I miss you - every day. The day I lost you ... I lost a piece of my heart and my life that will never EVER be replaced or never be the same. I may have given you a home, sweet little one, but you gave me a life. I will love you always and forever little girl.

2 months ago today......

‎2 months ago today, my lil girl went to rainbow bridge, I miss you Angelica 15 years is not long enough!

I miss her so much, it hurts!

Bear with me

We thought our sis needed her own page so we gave her our page. Mommy is ok at times then she just holds us and kisses us and cries and cries.

She will put our page together in a little while.

I am feeling not so well again, I am having facial seizures and my hind legs still will not work for me. and my h and go to the Dr again July 2nd at 2:30pm.

Lady is doing great(thank goodness) She was looking for our sis last night and did not want to go to sleep, mom and dad just cried and cried.

Mom said the love she feels from everyone here is some wonderful and she holds it dear to her broken heart.

15 years was not long enough

She's gone................. she just went through too much for her little body to take it, I won't be updating for awhile.

Update 6.23.10

Update on Angelica, Just spoke to our vet and she had her breakfast and got her meds, Dr. G is in surgery and will phone us in about an hour to let us know when to go in to talk with him and bring our baby home.

Doodle is still a zombie I know it is the meds, she is not twitching and has not had a seizure in a few days, yeah!!!!!

Just visited our baby at the vet

She is resting, we will find out more Wed when we go in to bring her home. Dr. G was already gone for the day when they let us come in to see her. Her bill for today $791.50 and doodle needed some more meds so that was another $80.00So we now owe $1,426.89 + $785.70 to emerg vet.
We already have paid over $2,000 out of pocket thus the reason we do not have the mortgage payment.
We are about to lose our house if we are not able to get enough funds to pay our affordable home program mortgage payment. They have been bleeping us around for over 8 months, it was suppose to be a 3 month trail to show we were responsible, we were and have paid faithfully and
jumped through all the hoops, but this will give them a reason to drop us and make us homeless!

Angelica is just waking up at the vet

Angelica is just waking up at the vet, it was not a tumor, Dr. G is not available to go over everything with us, so we are stunned and in the dark right now, all we know is, she had a hernia and where it was made her intestines necrotic, they had to take that part out. we do not know how much they had to take or anything else right now. She has to stay the there tonight.

Thank You!

Thank You !

♥♥♥♥♥♥ This list is not in any order, if I missed you I am sorry, it was not on purpose, thank you!♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

San dra Kotowski-Miller, Chris Rizzuto Neubauer, Pippi & Cheeky Poopilla, Mary Sanchez, Diane Egan, Michelle Phua, Liz Beth Cook, Anjanette Eckenrod Myers, Thomas and Hayley S,Darla DiPietro, handipets.com, Lori at HQ of Dogster, microgiving.com, chipin.com, Tino, Oscar, KIKI, max, Pete, & Wren, Wilson & Cristy, Chaz, Bella & Andre, Fritz & Russ, Dee dee and Sassie, Checkers and mama, Oreo, The family of minister misty, lotus, bull-boy(my sweet angelboy), shayra cream and more!, Princess Jada, The family of Blackburn's Angels ILM, Tinkerbell, Charlie and Stoney, The family of *Candy-O Cootinka*, *Peaches*~R.I.P.~1999-2010, * J.J.* 1992-2003 R.I.P., *Nilla*~R.I.P.~1998-2004 and more!, The family of jonathon my loving angel, sassy, Tito, Spike, The family of Oreo, Buddy, Paws and Down (1975-1988), Jade, The family of Zoee' and Chloe', "Rockin' & Ridin' for Autism", Becky Raymond, Allyson Ingle, Sheree McClelland, Jerry, Tampa Bay Veterinary Specialists & Emergency Care Center Largo and Bearss, Dr. Eimiel Garriga & staff at Zephyrhills Veterinary Clinic, Dr. Gillian Irving and staff, FVS Dr.'s and staff on Bush Blvd, Tails of the Rockies, Connie McDonald