April 14th 2007 3:42 pm
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I have not felt well the last four days. something is not right, but I am not sure what.. I have been so happy with my new home. It is warm and lots of food and I know they love me, I had my beautiful children and they are doing so good.. eveything is sunny and great.. but now I donot feel right.. at first I had a pain in my back but now I feel nothing.. I can still walk but I am not hungry and feel very tired.. my kittens want to play and I have no energy to play with them.. mom is worried.. she gave me some mild yesterday and it helped a little. I am embarrassed to say ,I donot know when I have to potty, it just happens. but mommy is very good and cleans it up and never yells just pets my head.. she told me she has to call Dr Kibbic, she is very worried about me,, I cannot even eat my favorite food anymore.. what is happening,, first I am thrown away out of a car, and mom and dad save me and bring me in to have my kittens.. now something is not right.. she comes down this morning, an sits and sobs and cries and says, my Issyadora, what is wrong, I look at her, she knows what I am saying.. she picks me up, i let her and puts me in the carrier.. we go for a ride, Dad ,Mom and I.. the Dr takes me out back and does some pictures and brings me back. They gave me a shot to calm me down, I was very very scared of all of them.. she looks at mom and says Izzy has a large tumor on her spine and it has caused paralysis of her bladder and bowel.. and soon she will not be able to walk or breathe, it is a miracle she has gone this long. I think quietly I had to have my babies first... she said child birth made it become very active and started growing fast.. mom is sobbing and dad touches my head, and say, I am sorry, my tough little girl... I lay my head down tired. mom sniffles and pets my head, they give me more medicine, I feel very warm, and funny.. the pain is leaving me, I feel like I am floating, I am I can see mom, she is holding me now. and hugging me.. theycarry me out and I follow them, they bury me in a box deep in the ground...and say good bye, I am in a flower bed.. I mew, I am here, but she cannot hear me. I hear another meow and see Autumn and Bear and BBbear and Miss Mickey an Gremlin and all the rest calling me.. I go to them over a bridge and it is warm an sunny and bright.. I have left your world.. I am no more.. good bye Isadora..please watch over my kittens, I love you Ren
March 11th 2007 9:34 am
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Diary of an invisible cat, now named Isadora, or Izzy.
I am invisible, no one can see me or wants me. One time a human had my brother and me and then when we were about 6 mo they took us for a ride and the next thing we knew we were in a yard . We were confused and scared.. we ran and ran and found an old bus and hid in it.. we stayed there for days but got hungry so I took my brother and went up the hill near a house.. a woman would put food in a pile, each day.. we learned to eat it.. then we would run for the bus and hide.. one day, my brother saw some food in a cage and he went to get it, it was good food, cat food. and the cage shut him in. I was frantic but could not help him.. the woman had another woman come and she took my brother out, and he was good, and this woman took him home.. no one was aware there was two of us. It was at this time I became invisible... so no one would ever hurt me again.. One day after I ate from the compost pile , I lay in the sun for a moment in the wood shed near by, and I felt something, I looked up and the woman was watching me.. she looked concerned.. but I stayed in the sun, warming myself. the air was getting colder lately and besides I was invisible and she could not see me.. after that I found a dish of cat food everyday and fresh water in the wood shed. This was great and I would see her watch me. I would sit still like a statue, when she looked and I would just stare into space, I was invisible and she could not see me if I did this.. one time I heard her say, I was like a statue of a cat goddess, still with no moment, and eyes blank from fear and pain.. she would call to me.. and something inside would stir, a memory, but I could not stay, I would run to my bus.. then one day as it was getting quite cold, I went to my bus and found a small condo and a furry bed in there.. I was careful for days then I used it.. it smelled like the woman.. as the snow came and it got cold and blizzards came. it was hard for me to get up the hill to get food.. one time I was snowed in the bus and I heard the woman, talking and crying, and talking,, she was digging out the door of the bus and open up my hole I used to get in and out of.. I was so hungry, I waited til dark and dragged through the deep snow to get to the wood shed, and there was food and water and a new bed set high on the wood pile.. I would stay there til the snow stopped.. when she come out I would hide in the wood.. I am about 10 months old now and on my own about 4 months. she tried to catch me a few times, but I am smart and invisible.. no one can see me, no, never again, that way they cannot hurt me.. for some reason I was starting to feel heavy and sick.. it was getting hard to walk up and down the hill to the bus, something strange was happening to me.. I heard the lady talking to me in the woodpile. She knew I was there.. she said , I have to get you, it is to cold for you to have babies. out here.. I am invisible, you cannot get me.. so that day she put out no food. and then later the cage my brother went in came out and inside was sardines.. but she did not fool me.. the next day I was very hungry and she was crying, her husband said, you are doing all you can. She said I have one more thing, she went in and got roasted chicken, she told him, she loves people food , chicken, later that night, I sat and stared and stared at that roasted chicken.. I am invisible, I will not get stuck in there.. so in I went,, down the door went.. I ate the chicken. They came right out and put me in their family room in another cage, I went in it with not problem. They could not see me, so I was ok.. she put in blankets, litter, food, toys.. I just sat frozen, and chattered. I do not mew, just chatter.. she went away.. one day, she says, we have to clean the cage.. she removed everything, and I was sitting in the corner and she could not see me I was invisible.. I did not move or breath, but her head got close and I did not mean it, I thumped her good on the head and hand.with my nails.. I did not bite.. then fear set in, oh, no, she will scream and hurt me.. but she pulled back quick and said, now that was not nice,, but I should have known not to try and move things when you are in a corner. How did she know I was there, I am invisible.. I did not mean to hurt her..
It has been 2 weeks now, and I am getting very fat.. and something is moving in me.. she says I will have babies soon. What are Babies? I am worried.. I made a nest out of basket she gave me.. I chewed the top all away around and then I got under the basket.. the man came down and said, Izzy, silly girl, you go in it,, I hide under a big pillow now.. she can't see me , I am invisible.. I like her and I want her to touch me and hold me. but I cannot let her yet.. she understands.. being with child makes me more edgy.. sometimes. she says, now, MIss Izzy, the Invisible cat. we are cleaning the cage.. and fresh blankets and all. so no thumping me... I just sit and stare... she cannot see me.. she looks and blinks her eyes slowly,, no baby, I cannot see you, but we love you... Izzy , the invisible kitty
PS, it is so nice to be warm and full again, and if they do not look, I have tried to play...