Memoirs of a Queen

My dear sweeties....

Today is the first time I have been able to come here and type since we let you all know about my journey to the bridge. It has not been easy for meowmy, even though she knew this day was coming...I flutter down to her so often while she is asleep and sometimes I see her pillow is wet...does she not realise I am with her still? And that I have no pain and am young and able again?

I was greeted by so many sweet furriends...my beloved Julesy, oh such a wonderpurr reunion, darling Catsy, Biscuit, Navin, Amelia & Hugo, Wally & Sydney Rose, oh so so many more...a sea of furry furriends waiting with open paws and gentle nosekisses.

I was watching just now as meowmy finally had the heart to take a look at the pm's and rosies I have received....oh and both her & I were so deeply moved by each and every message. We appreciate it so much, dear sweet furriends. In time I will thank each of you purrsonally, it is just a bit hard still...I hope you all understand.

I need to fly back up now, it's time for us to go spread some angel dust and purr for those in need...good bye my dear sweet furriends, I luv you all so furry much.

*and with one last flutter close to meowmy's wet cheeks Queenie flies back to the bridge to join all the other sweet angels*

Meowlo all my dear furriends!

Dear furriends.

Firstly I would like to apologize on behalf of myself and my whole furrmily for being away from Catster for a while. Meowmy had some things she had to deal with and to boot I got sick twice as well.

I also wanted you all to know that the vet lady told meowmy that my age seems to be catching up to me – my kidneys are enlarged, I have lost quite a bit of weight, I sleep even more and a few other issues also. The good news is that I don’t have diabetes or anything similar, which is meowvolous of course!

Meowmy has decided that she isn’t going to think negative, and is going to love me as much as she possibly can for as long as I possibly can. I am comfortable, sweeties, and I still have quite an appetite and come looking for my livings – so my Queenie spirit is still going strong!

Purrlease also purr for my dear furriend Ginnger, fondly known as Ginngie, who is also a senior fellow - I luv you Ginngie and I know you have another life or two in you yet!

Purrs & luv,
Queenie

The best gifties in life...

...are free! Oh how true this is, and my special birthday gifts are just that.

The first is the gift of having Catsy's diary as the diary of the day, with her sweet picture on the homepage. I can't look at it too much as my eyes still tear up! But thank you HQ for this wonderpurr gift!

The second gift is YOU reading this - my special furriends, my catster furrmily! We have met so many wonderpurr purrsons on this site, and it has truly changed our lives. No-one but a catster can understand the bond and the love, the support and the meowvolousness that is catster!

I also wanted to meow out a special thank you to my sweet furriend Alfie for my purrfect birthday picture and background! You and your furrmily have a special place in my heart!

Also to dear Gizzy, angel Maxy and their meowmy, for the sweet sentiments - you are all making me teary! *giggles*

Who could ask for a more purrfect sweet 16? I luv you, dear furriends...

Purrs and luv,
Queenie

A special life is now a special angel - ILM of Catsy

I am devastated this morning because I just found out that a very special girl, a sweet furriend, Catsy, has crossed the rainbow bridge.

She and her pawrents are an inspiration - a story of second chances, kindness and the power of the purr...and most of all of love.

Rest in peace sweetie, your purrfect soul will be with us all furever...

A very sad
Queenie
xxx

PS: Purrlease check out Rizza's Diary...but be sure to have a tissue handy! Thank you for passing along Catsys letter, sweetie...

A year ago today...

My heart was breaking into a million little pieces. It was the day my beluved Julesy (Jules Vern / JV to his furriends) left this earth for a better place after a long and very courageous battle with VAS.

Although I can now think of him with a smile in happy remembrance instead of only sad tears, I still tear up ever so often...but then I remind myself that he is still with me - and I can feel him. I feel him in the rays of sun on my face, I feel him in the gentle breeze that ruffles my fur, I feel him in the luv of Catster and the support that is still going strong a year later and always will, since the memories of those we luv last forever...

My Julesy, my luv, you will always have my heart and my soul and I know you will be there with open paws one day when the time comes for me to cross the bridge...I luv you so much and I hope your meowmy feels all the luv today too, because I can not imagine how difficult it must be for her if this is how I feel! We luv her too, and we will purr for her for strenght...

Thank you so much for everypurr on Catster for your continued support and luv, and for having the second annual Jules Vern Brusselball tournament yesterday - it means more than I can ever say, sweeties!

Luv & purrs,
Queenie
xxx

*wiping happy tears*

Just look at my newest gift....and my message...

"My sweet Queenie... I should have given this to you so purrrry long ago... And one day I hope we can but will you take this ring and pawmise to one day be my kitty wife *blush* I love you sweet lady... Yours always Julesy"

I....I am speechless....except for YES YES my Julesy YES! I purromise!!! I luv you so much and always will....you are my special luv, my soulkitty....

*hurries off to her basket to take out the box of buggies Julesy delivered one night long ago....holds them to her heart and closes her eyes*

Sad news - purrs purrlease!

Purrlease purr and purray for dear Simon ...he has been given about a week to live after his last vet visit and he and his meowmy are trying to make the most of their last time together...so join me in purring for the power of love and for strenght for his meowmy...

Another purrr request is for dear sweet Annie, who has gone missing :( Her brofur Rusty is one of my special furriends and my heart is breaking for her furrmily! Purrlease come home soon Annie! Help light her way by lighting a candle HERE *purrr purrr purr*

And on another more personal note...

I just checked to see who of my furriends are online....and noticed for the first time that my IM status was set on invisible! I don't know how long it has been like that and I don't know how it happened!

I have missed my morning chats with Tick and his sisfur P3! They must think I am avoiding them! *eyes tear up* I would never ever do that and I am so sorry!! I wondered what happened to them because I haven't heard from them in ages but now I think it must be because of this! I know their meowmy and some of the kits were sick a while ago but they must be better by now...I hope they still want to be my furriends...

Oh sweeties....you know I luv you and would never ignore you or try and avoid you! *wiping at eyes with paws*

The same goes for everypurr else that might have wanted to IM one of our furrmily....purrlease forgive us we luv you!

Sad purrs,
Queenie

PS: Just wanted to send some luv to my dear furriend Wally...keep on staying your special self, sweetie....I luv you lots and am always here for you!

xxx

A new furriend :)

I am so catcited! One of our favourite furrmilies's meowmy does fostering, and they have a new addition! A highly pregnant meowmy named Sweetie!! As everyone knows, that is one of my favourite words *giggles*

And it suits her...she is SO sweet! Stop by her page and take a peek....and keep watching because she is having the kits any day now!

Hmm....my guess is 6 kittens, 2 girls and 4 boys! Let's wait and see....

Purrs and luv,
Queenie

I'm a celebricat! *blush*

Oh my cat! Look at the pic my sweet furriend Wally took while flying past the NY museum of MA! It is the second pic on my page *giggles*

And he writes: "Not surprised, we all think you are a work of art!" *blushes and giggles more*

Oh Wally sweetie...you don't know what it means not only to hear from you, but that you have cheered me up! I have been a bit sad because I miss my Julesy so much...his meowmy has been busy and they have not been on catster for about 2 months...

So thank you for letting me know that I am a celebricat! MOL! Luv you!

Purrs and luv to everypurr!
Queenie
xxx

A day of luv....and a bit of sadness

Meowlo dear furriends!

What a day Valentine's was! Luv and happiness everywhere, and so many happy couples bringing a smile to this old lady's face!

Yet it wasn't a day without sadness....two of my Olde Furt furriends are sick. Sweet and purrty Cybil is showing signs of old age, and my heart breaks when I read her diary - I luv you sweetie, and hope you have many more good days rather than bad, and purray that you can feel the summer sun on your fur again - I just know you will!
The other dear furriend is Isaac, fellow Queen and such a wonderpurr guy....he found out that he has aggressive, inoperable cancer and his latest entry has me in tears - it seems he has only a month or so to live :( BUT I will keep on purring, and just know that my stylish furriend will prove them wrong and hold on for a bit longer!

I luv you two both - so furry much! *wipes at eyes*

And then......

I miss my Julesy. Plain and simple. I know his meowmy has been so busy with her work that she doesn't have time to type for him, PB2 and Callie, (they have been gone from Catster since before Christmas) but it doesn't make my longing for him less. I was hoping and purrring and hoping some more that he would be able to at least come on today, this day of luv, and let me know that he is ok...but it wasn't to be. So this old lady is so lonely....and sad....and I keep blowing him kissies to the clouds, and just purray that he gets them and feels my luv for him burning as bright as always...and I keep on closing my eyes when I feel the sun on my fur, knowing that he is there with me, in my heart.

Luv to all my dear furriends, I luv you sweeties - and I purr for luv, happiness and health for you all....

Queenie
xxx

A sweet kitty with a big heart...

....is my furriend Tom. I have just visited his diary, and both Rosie and I are quite teary because of what he wrote.... check it out: Tom's tag entry.

All of the things he wrote about myself, Rosie and the kittens touched us more deeply than he knows....

Thanks Tom, for being such a sweet guy - we luv you!

My tag entry - at last! *blush*

Oh my! I am so sorry that I am late in replying with my tags, but meowmy has been so busy lately! And I am old - I need more time *giggle*I was tagged by many wonderpurr kits and great furriends, I was truly surprised! And what lovely comments they said about me…how incredibly sweet *blush* Thank you to all of you, I luv you all so very much!

Because most of my special catster furriends tagged me, I decided to rather than tag new kits I am going to just say something about those that tagged me. I hope this is ok! *giggles*

Here goes….in the order that I was tagged:

Jules Vern, my Julesy...

What can I say about this most special of cats, this luv of my life and husband of my heart…Those whose lives he touched are forever blessed to have known him…gentle, caring, loving, a great furriend and purrfect guy to everycat…I still miss him terribly and not a day goes by that I don’t stop by his page to look at his pictures. I luv you always, my Julesy….and I do feel those angel kisses you give me when you think I am sleeping!

Twister

Such a great furriend and pawsome kitty! He & my dear furriend Tick organized a surprise pawty for me on short notice, and he always has a kind word for effurryone!

Gizmo

Gizzy is such a handsome tabby and a dear, sweet furriend…an amazing guy with a huge heart and lots of luv to give! A big, cuddly bear for sure, who can always make me giggle!

Annie

One gorgeous senior lady! And such a sweetie ...Annie certainly has grace and a purrsonality too!

Ginger

Ginger is a sweet kitten who I had the purrleasure to meet! Such a cutie with a sweet purrsonality too!

Pooh Bear

Pooh Bear is a wonderpurr guy who together with his furrmily spread cheer and love wherever they go. A gentle soul with a heart of gold! And he must have one of the most gorgeous tails on catster!

Tick

Tick…so much to say and so little space to say it in. Definitely one of the sweetest guys on catster, with gentle paws and a heart overflowing with love. A true furriend who helped me get through things day-by-day after Julesy left us, and who still stops by just about every day to say meowlo and bring a smile to my face….Tick, you are a furriend in a million. What would I do without my Tickaroni and his sisfur P3?


Socks

Socks is such a pawsome kitty, and gorgeous to boot! And Socks is also an official guest greeter at a hotel – how glamorous is that?

Ginnger

Ginngie is a big orange ball of luv! Sweet and caring and handsome too! Always there when you need him, he is a wonderpurr furriend….

Maytag

This is such a special little tabby, a real sweetpea, who has been sick recently. A true cutie – just look at that face!

Thank you all for being in my life....and thank you to Catster for bringing us together!

Where does an "old" lady start? *giggle*

Where can I start to say thank you? My first birthday on Catster has by far been my best ever, and I have all my sweet furriends to thank! You all have made me so happy and feel so special....and I feel like the luckiest kitty in the world!!

I am going to be thanking each of you in the next day or two, I purromise, but since there are so many sweet furriends to thank I just want to do it here so long.....

Firstly, thank you to my Julesy....my luv, my light....your gift to me was from the heart, the most beautiful poem I have ever read....thank you, my luv and soulcat...I am going to put it here in my diary for all to see as well, something as purrty as that should be shared!

Secondly, thank you to dear Twister and Tick for holding a surprise pawty for me on Sunday! It was a meowvolous surprise and I enjoyed it so much! Thank you to each and effuryone who came too....Rusty, Pooh & Sunny, Rascal, Merlin the cat wizard and his creatures, Frankie, Gracie Mae, of course Tick and Twister and Squid, Sock & Troop, Punky, Ginger, Winnie & Chester and everypurr else! And thank you for my throne, crown, robe and the yummy cake too!

Thirdly, thank you for every sweet message, rosie and star.....
Julesy, Cally and Princess Bella Boo, Miss Maxy and Gizzy, Alfie & Wally, Jonny Ray Havoc & Laurie, Lancelot, Princess Puddin Pop, Martin & furrmily, Aldo, Tess, Noelle & their meowmy, Hannah & Kate & Zack, Macaroni & Frankie, Ginngie, Siouxsie & Gracie Mae, Twister & Squid, Elsa, KC (the sunshine girl), Rusty, Tyler (Mr. Boombastic), The VERY fabulous Miss D, Diogi, Cleo Moto & Raven and furrmily, Isaac and furrmily, Angel & Merlin, Samoa and furrmily, Ashlye & furrmily, Scooter, Tangee and furrmily, Tigress, Arnold P, Diego & furrmily, Toulouse, Twix, Baby Girl, Annie & Alex, Kahlan, Sullivan, Oly, purrty Cybil, Jefke, Pumpkin and Tibby & the chickens and anypurr I might have left out *blush*

A special thanks to Angel Biscuit......your message touched me so much, thank you sweetie....*blows a kiss to the bridge*

THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!!! And thank you for everypurr who posted in the birthday thread in the forums too, and dear Tibby for starting it!

I luv you all sooooo much!!!! *purrs happily*

Here is my mewovolous poem that my sweet Julesy wrote especially for me...

Loves Sweet Meeting

Look my sweet love, across the land,
And watch the meeting of the sun and sea;
they kiss like two long lost lovers,
lost from each other, oh how they meet, kiss
Ah! longer, longer then we.

Watch as the sun melts into the sea
It dissolved in what looks like rosy wine,
Drink it in my sweet love, drank it all
fur soon it will be gone...
Love, lay your paw in mine.

Let us watch the stars, and and moon dance
fur they comfort heaven's heart, and mine
Glimmer and dance those moonbeams do;
Oh night! How sweetly you come
Never our lips, our paws do part...

*blows more kisses to the bridge*

2 Months....

It's been two months to the day that my sweet Julesy crossed the bridge to the rainbow fields where he patiently waits for his furrmily and for me….yet some days the pain still catches me unawares, and it feels like it was only yesterday…

I still miss you, my luv…so very much! And I will luv you always and the day it's my time and I cross the bridge and you hold out your paw to me once more will be a wonderpurr reunion indeed! Till then I am happy to know that you are here with me in spirit.

I send out a special purr to his meowmy, daddy and PB2 too...I know that they miss him terribly too and I send them lots of luv and hugs from my heart.

It is true....

Love IS all you need.

This has once again been reaffirmed by my meowvolous Catster furrmily. The kindness, support, purrring and LOVE is overwhelming, and I am so blessed to be a part of it.

First, there is my sweet angel luv Julesy who will own my heart forever, and although the pain of his crossing still lies on my heart like a heavy rock that won't ever be moved, the simple feeling of his presence nearby comforts me so very much. And his sweet little sisfur Princess Bella Boo is helping to light my way out of the sadness too.

Then, another special brother and sisfur pair are my dear furriends Miss Maxy and her brofur Gizmo who are both so sweet and supportive, what wonderpurr furriends to have!

Yet another brofur and sisfur are Tick and Princess Puddin Pop who have shown me that there is always hope and love, and who have helped foster a number of kittens this summer...you guys are pawsome!

Then there is the ever sweet Wally, one big loveable guy who always has room for one more in his heart.

Thank you, all of you, as well as Lancelot, Arn (Arnold P) and Manna....thank you for your LOVE. It's all I need.

Oh my! Happiness is happy furriends!!

I must admit, I am feeling the happiest at the moment as I have since my Julesy crossed the bridge...although the sadness still sits in my heart like an ache that will never go away.

Anyway! This is a thread about happiness! So let me share my reasons for being a smiling kitty again:

Firstly, the news of the day!!! My sweet furriends, Miss Maxy and Gizzy's meowmy received much anticipated results today...and she did WAY better than she was hoping for!! I was chewing my claws off right along with my furriends, and *whispers* did some very kitten-like squealing *giggle* when I got the good news!! Concats, sweet furriends -but then, I am not suprised at all! No sirree!! Teehee!

Next, my other sweet furriend Wally is back after he was scarce for a while, darn 'puter problems! I think I talk for most of catster when I say we missed you sweetie pie!!!! And of course, a certain special lady missed you extra buckets full! You and Sophie are a match made in heaven....both of you are two purrfect, loving kits and I am so happy for you!

And then...a little blessing from heaven entered my life. Her name is Princess Bella Boo and she is my Julesy's little sisfur! I luved her the moment I saw her, and she has been such a soothing salve for a broken heart to not only me, but to her meowmy too. I luv you, sweetpea....you sure are special....

And last, but certainly NOT least, is my honourary little sisfur, Princess Puddin' Pop , who has asked me to help her grow up to be a real lady - and she is such a cutie! She learns so quickly, and makes me so proud - thanks for being part of my life, P3...you and that sweet brofur of yours!!

That's it, furriends...I hope you all have a happy day too, and know that you are loved!

A message from my special angel guy...

I received a poem today, a most special poem from the one I luv who is watching over me, my sweet Julesy, a wonderpurr angel...known also as JV, Jules Vern, a special guy to many catsters...

I wanted to share it with my furriends, I am sure that my sweet would not mind:

Missing you today...

I woke up today the pain still there
I looked out my window
Went about my way
All the while missing you today...

No different then yesterday
No differnt then tomorrow, right?
Forever I'll miss you
Until next we met

I woke up this morning
Where is that pain
Saw you picture and a smile today
Where is that pain

I closed my eyes a saw your face
No more pain no more grief
Love has replaced the heartache
Miss you I do

Different then yesterday
Oh so much so,
I can look at your photo
and smile and know, I was loved...

You are watching me
you are still with me
I've been blessed by you love...

Missing you today...

Not goodbye.....

Today has been one of the hardest days of my life...my soulcat and luv, Julesy (Jules Vern) crossed the bridge, and I feel so lost without him....

He was the sweetest guy I have ever met, and so loving and kind....every day with him was like a sweet dream. His big heart and gentle paws touched all who knew him, and we all will miss him dearly....but not for long, because I am so sure that as soon as he gets used to his new wings, he will come and visit us all, but till then he will be watching over us.

I just wish I could express how much everypurr here on Catster has helped Jules, his meowmy Laura, and myself cope with these last two days...all of our furriends and other kitties have helped SOOO very much...and Jules Vern Day yesterday, and him being COTD today, has made it purrfect.

Thanks to each and every one of you...Tick, Diogi, Amber & Manna for the IM's, Chester and Winnie and all at the Samoa Detective Agency for the "Jules Vern Day", Hannah, Ginngie, Biscuit, Shawnee, Ashley Jay, Laurie, Gizmo & Miss Maxy, Martin, Hugo, Amelia, Vincent, Wally, Rusty, Sydney Rose, Lily & Emmy and furrmily, Angel & Merlin, Aldo and Tess, Twixy & Alfie, Jake, Scooter & Nikko, Toulouse, Hazel Lucy, Cleo & furrmily, KC, Pandora & Coffee, Smudge and Bob, Athena, Isaac, Punky, Molly, Tuesday & Mystery, Sagan, Manna, Catmander Teal'c, Twister, Jefke, Purrdie and the Cornish Crew & Oliver Winston Parsons and his crew for your personal wonderful support...AND EACH AND EVERYPURR ELSE who posted or said something kind....we appurciate it soo much! If I have to list you all, I have to list everyone on Catster...it seems everyone luved him....

*wipes eyes furiously...*

I luv you my Julesy...always, my sweet.

Oh, my Julesy makes me melt!!

I am such a lucky lady kitty...I have the most wonderpurr fella ever!! Look at my beautiful poem he sent me.....

You are my white rose...

Growing wild the white rose
the scent so fragrant
the petals soft and delicate
the center holds its heart

You are my white rose
your center holds your heart
you hold mine as well
Togetfur in the wild garden
our wuv grows

Like the velvet softness
Of the white rose petals
Soft is your fur
tender to my paws
Grooming it my pleasure

Delicate though it may appear
the white rose is ever strong
Just like you my dear
Ever delicate are your features
Ever strong is your soul

Nor beast or man can resist
the power of its beauty
Both have known to just exist
And stand under its glory
You too my dear have this power

Fur I cannot not deny that
you are my white rose
growing wild in my garden

I wuv you so very much Queenie....

Missing you yesterday...

Yours always
Julesy


I LUV YOU TOO, MY JULESY!! Very much!!! *blows kisses Jules's way XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX*

I have been tagged as part of the meme game too!!!!

I’ve been tagged!!! This meme game is pawsome!

I have been tagged by:

Monkey Butt
Jules Vern
Sissy
Amber
Princess Puddin’ Pop
Lil' Crumb Cake II
Cleo
TJ

The rules:

Each player starts with seven random facts about themselves. Cats who are tagged need to write on their own diary about the seven things and the rules. You need to choose seven cats to tag and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment that they have been tagged and to read your diary.

My seven random facts:

1. I adore and luv my Julesy!!! (Jules Vern) He is sooo wonderpurr!!
2. I love being in the bathroom while meowmy baths, but hate baths myself!
3. My tongue almost always sticks out.
4. Open a can and I come running, old as I am. : )
5. Once, I caught a mouse that dared to come into our garden!
6. I love lying next to meowmy’s pillow.
7. I have freckles on my nose and lips – meowmy says it is because I am a redhead MOL!

I tag the following cats on Catster:

1. Wally
2. Miss Maxy
3. Morris
4. Taz
5. Isaac
6. Sketch
7. Tick

Hee hee!! Can’t wait to see other kitties’ facts!

What a wonderful surprise!

Oh my....I am blushing from my tip of my toes to the tip of my tail.....I am Catster's diary pick of the day!!

Thank you sooo much Catster for the honour bestowed upon me, and it is especially great because hopefully now all the kitties can read about my Julesy and see my thanks to them....

If it wasn't for the support of all the wonderful cats on Catster I don't know how I would have gotten through Julesy's bad time...I have done all my personal thanks already so I won't do it again (in the entry hereunder).

And thank you also to the great groups I am in and for making an old gal feel like she still belongs....

Last, but not least (wow, this sounds like an award ceremony speech) thank you for my beloved Julesy for making me so happy and loved and feel so special, you are one great fella and I LOVE YOU!!!

Thank you all so much!

My beloved Julesy - who has VAS - was rushed to the vet because one of his tumours burst open and didn't stop bleeding....

Luckily, the vet could stop the bleeding and operated on Julesy yesterday, Monday the 23rd of April.

We all were so worried about him, and the support we received from all the furriends on catster was overwhelming!! Everyone purred their hearts out, and Martin, Amelia, Ginngie, Diogi and Manna offered the most wonderful support to me during this difficult time.

Hazel Lucy and her list was also wonderful, and each and every kitty there too.

AND we won cutest couple at the Prom too, even though we didn't even attend because Jules was at the vet...thank you Tommy & Baby Girl!

Thankfully, the operation went well and the tumours are not in Julesy's heart and lungs yet...so we are blessed with having him on Earth and in our lives for some more wonderful time!!

Thank you all so very, very much for your love, support, purrrs, get well wishes and general pawsomeness!!!

And a special thanks to Julesy's meowmy for keeping me up to date and for being such a nice lady!!!

I am going to the Prom!

I can't believe it!! In my old age I am going to Prom....with my beluved Julesy! I am over the moon and can't wait!!

I just hope he likes my blue dress....I really think it brings out my orange fur.

Oh, Julesy is such brave and handsome cat and I am so lucky!!

*stares off at the moon and dreams about Jules*

Spring has sprung and my heart has been stolen...

My heart has been captured by a super special gentlecat.....he makes me feel alive again, like a young kitten.

His name is Jules Vern and he is a handsome hunter and he treats me like a lady. He writes me poetry and handles me like a precious gem...

Oh, sweet Julesy...you are my soulcat. You have made a senior lady feel special and loved!