Sarge's week

My time is coming.

May 30th 2012 5:48 pm
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Thanks for all the kind words everyone. We wish I had more time, but things are going downhill fast. I don't eat much and I spent a lot of time hiding in the bathroom. Tonight I wasn't even at the door when Dad got home. Those weeks and months you all wished us had already happened after my first operation. We're not even sure I have days. I only have a few joys left in life and too many things I can't do anymore. My stomach hurts and I don't feel right.

This morning Dad made THE appointment this morning for Friday. He has it off for a sci-fi convention. The fan community can be great and very supporting which Dad will need once I'm gone. We really don't think I'd make it another week and even if I could, it won't be a good one.

Tonight Dad let me go outside for half an hour. Instead of nibbling on the grass and walking around, I went to my favorite spot to lie down and soak up some sun. Dad took some pictures then laid down next to me for some from a better angle. I crawled up on him, something I haven't done before, for pets. After a while I got down. I tried again a few minutes later but I wasn't sure enough on my feet to stay on for long. Then Dad held me in the rocking chair he dragged outside and cuddled until it was time to go in. Usually when I come in I want to go right back out. Not this time, a sure sign that I had enough.

I want everyone to know their thoughts are appreciated, but we shouldn't delay the inevitable. I'd love to have more months and dare I say years with my family, but the cancer has robbed that from us. I'm not going to get better and Dad has to do what he has to do to keep me from suffering.

 
 

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Purred by: Tigger (Catster Member)

May 31st 2012 at 1:00 am

It does sound like you had a nice afternoon of making memories. as sad as it is, the greatest gift we can give a beloved pet, is the release from pain. Sarge will forever be your guardian angel, and you certainly gave him a wonderful life. It hurts so much to lose them, but their pawprints are forever on our hearts. We send you many hugs, and so much sympathy. I will not be online Friday, so let me wish you both peace now. Sleep well Sarge, and be free from pain. & Sarge's daddy - you are a wonderful daddy. Peace my friends.
Purred by: Orange Ruffy (Catster Member)

May 31st 2012 at 2:00 am

My dearest friend...

I wish you miracles...I wish you bright days ahead, and warm sun on your fur. I wish you good meals and a bowl that is never empty. I wish you fireflies to dance after and butterflies to watch.
I don't know that we fear 'death'....we are cats, we dance back and forth between the worlds. Our humans miss us in our forms, and we them, but this is but a suit of beloved furr and whiskers we wear, to take up and slide from when the time comes, to leap up, up, up, skyward after that shooting star, to follow those who have 'boldly gone before'.

No matter what, no veil will ever seperate you from us, or from your beloved Dad, who we know will do everything to make your days better...this side and the other side of the rainbow.

Mommy's eyes are leaking, my heart is sad...not for you for you will simply let go of pain and embrace the Source that you came from, heal and return.

But I grieve for us...for we will miss you in this beloved form. And for your dad.

I salute you, Sarge, Brave Warrior of all that Is.

Xeper and Remanifest,
Ruffy
Purred by: BooBoo Kitty Angel DG #28 (Catster Member)

May 31st 2012 at 2:36 am

Oh Sarge I see mom's eyes are leaking too she never new exactly what I had cancer/fip but she knew I was in pain and did not want to eat anymore. ON Saturday mom got some pain management meds so she could spend 2 more days with me and on Monday I left for the bridge. IT was a nice week end, I said all that to say this I sure hope you can enjoy the days with your dad until Friday we know how very hard this is to do. That was a nice evening you had we send so much love to your dad sure wish we could take the pain for you but we know there is only time to heal this kind of sadness and pain. Your dad is so pawsome for givinng you such a great life with all the love a kitty could ask for.
Purred by: Tigger ~ Loved Forever (Catster Member)

May 31st 2012 at 2:45 am

We all send our love and support. We know how hard it is to say goodbye.

Tigger and Family
Purred by: Alex (sweet angel girl) (Catster Member)

May 31st 2012 at 2:46 am

Again we're so very, very sorry. My mom is crying for you and your daddy. We're glad you got to have this extra time with him. *sniff*
Purred by: Natasha (Catster Member)

May 31st 2012 at 3:30 am

Cancer is a tough one to beat.....We tried here and lost the battle but Natasha had one more good year until it returned. When it comes time, it is harder on us to allow them to pass on to the Bridge. Their pain is gone but ours continues for some time. You will feel his burden of pain lift as soon as he gets his wings. It isn't good-bye but I will see you later at another time. They are always with you even though they are not here in person.
Sarge has your love and will be your forever guardian angel as he gets his wings. Giving him these is your gift to him so that he will not experience any more discomfort.....It is sad but you had many good times together...remember these....so sorry....
Purred by: Felix "Honey Angel" (Catster Member)

May 31st 2012 at 5:52 am

Dear Sarge, we will now be sad and will miss you but your Dad will be far more sad and will miss you most of all.

But don't worry; people chose us kitties on purpose, seeing something special in each of us, and knowing almost positively that one day they would say 'bye' to us; yet they chose us because of what we'll give them for quite a few years - friendship, love and joy.

It was touching that tonight you chose a favorite sunny spot and then crawled on your Dad to be just much more closer to him. I wish you could have done it again, knowing how badly you wanted to.

Your Dad made a good choice with you, at Pet Smart years ago. We can see he has never regretted a moment you two had together. And you gave everything good back to him, and more.

Love Felix, xo
Purred by: Monida (Catster Member)

May 31st 2012 at 7:35 am

Sending lots of purrs and love.
Purred by: Ashlynne (Catster Member)

May 31st 2012 at 1:36 pm

We're purring for peace and comfort for you and your daddy.
Purred by: Apollo (In Memory) (Catster Member)

May 31st 2012 at 2:43 pm

Once I got the test results (cancer) I understood why Apollo no longer wanted to eat. It was hurting him too much and I stopped trying to force feed. He no longer came to sleep with me. He had stopped eating because trying to use the litterbox made him cry out in pain. When you have an old cat you try to prepare yourself. You know the time is coming and although your brain accepts it, your heart never does.

I had waited too long with Apollo's sister, Athena. Her heart was still strong and she did not want to leave me. In our lifetime together, she and Apollo had nursed me through two major operations, staying with me constantly through the months of recooperation. But her kidneys were failing and I had to make the decision. Dr. Steve said he never saw a spirit leave so quickly. Just a whisper and she was gone. Looking at her painfully-thin body, I realized that I selfishly waited too long. Although Apollo was feeling good at this time, deep in my heart I felt he would soon follow his sister. Painfully, I was right.

Five months after Athena, Apollo's health dropped dramatically. He was still putting up a good front, going outside at night while we let our dog out. Taking him out in the morning while I fed the birds, he tried his best to walk around the house but after a few feet he would lie down to rest. I carried him around the house so he could finish his patrol duty.

I feel that our cats know when it's their time. Through their sickness, weakness and pain, they put up a good front, wanting us to remember them as we should. But if we hesitate to do what we must, our loving cats can hold it together for only so long. At this time, no matter how hard it is for us, we must do what is right by them and release them.

I had nursed Apollo through his 17th birthday but I wasn't going to let him linger when there was no chance of his recovery. The last morning was a cold April day. We sat outside together for an hour or so, he wrapped in a blanket. Then I carried him around the house for his last patrol.

At the vet's office, I held him as Dr. Steve gave the injection. Apollo's eyes were locked on mine. Then, in that final second, his eyes looked right through me and beyond in recognition. In his final moment on earth, I believe he saw Athena, waiting for him at the Bridge.

I'm sending you prayers of strength to help you through your final moments together.

Purrs and Love ....
Apollo, Athena and their Mom
Purred by: Laura W

May 31st 2012 at 2:50 pm

dood...

yur dad iz doin what kneads ta bee done outta love N compassion for EWE...

he iz rite, itz knot humane ta let ewe suffer; just sew he can haz mor time with ewe...we bee trooly sorree ya don't haz mor time two gether N we bee sorree it comes this quik...

we be askin God ta gives yur dad strength N courage two morrow; it never iz easy...

we hope two yur dad will remember him iz knot saying good bye; merely, until we meet again and just bee coz ewe R knot heer on this plane, doez knot meen you are gone forever, az yur life will and does go on at rainbow bridge.

once ewe cross de threshold, ewe will turn N toss all yur pain N sickness ta de wind and ewe will bee healthy once again N able ta watch over yur dad, lena N pepi.

God's speed sarge N eye will be heer for ya buddy, if for nothin else, just ta show ewe round....

hugs N love from dude K, rainbow bridge cloud 777313
Purred by: Calvin ~ Knead On (Catster Member)

June 1st 2012 at 12:38 am

Your Dad is making the decision that is right for you, Sarge. As painful as it will be for him to let you journey to the bridge, he is not letting it get worse for you. You know all your angel pals will be waiting at the gate. Look for me and my welcome sign. You'll have a peaceful journey, and then you'll be with your angel pals. Purrs to your Dad during this difficult time.


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