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My Sunshine Kitty

My Sunshine Kitty

A few more days left since the day you left me on April 26th. My heart still hurts just as much as it did a year ago. I think about you often and wish you were here today to enjoy the sunshine on the deck with me like you used to. I miss the way you meowed every morning when I woke up like you were saying good morning, I miss you bumping me with your head when you wanted me to pet you and I miss you crossing your paws or putting your one paw on me when we layed down to watch tv, what a lady you were *smiles with tears*. I miss you being there every where I was. It was hard in the end because you were fighting a uti and we all thought the kidneys were the first to go but it was your little heart that finally gave out. In the end you still let me know how much you loved me by meowing to me as if to say goodbye. I miss you sooooo much Rcee and wish you were still here with me !!! You were my pride and joy fur child for 21 years.
With lots of love, mom

My Sunshine Kitty

As I sit here typing this my heart is heavy with sorrow and my eyes are wet with tears. I woke up this morning and tried to be as brite and cheery for Minxzie as I could but I could not. My thoughts were for you my sweet angel. I miss you sooooo much and wish you were here with me to enjoy Christmas. While sitting in the kitchen all I could do was look down by the tree and remember last year how you enjoyed opening your gifts that you got from santapaws. I still have your mouse that you played with that day and hold it close to my heart. I still ask myself what happened that day on April 26th. I came home early from work that day bc I felt something was wrong. What made me know that? Why did I take the two days prior off from work to have 1 day with you and the other day I had made arragements at the pet cemetary. What made me do this? Why is it that the day after is when this nightmare began? Why? I'm still not over the shock from that day. It's like a nightmare that I live over and over again in my mind. I was so scared seeing you so scared and not knowing what to do. I felt helpless and feel as if I have let you down. I guess what I really wanted was you to live forever but I know that all things must pass some time but not so soon. I just felt that I never had enough time with you. I would have given up anything to just have you back. Everyone tells me that you are now free from pain but that does not ease the pain I feel. I'm still not over it and I don't think I will ever be. As I sit here Minxzie is sitting close watching me crying. I think somehow she understands and stays close by to let me know it's ok to cry. Merry Christmas my sweet Sunshine Kitty. I miss you so much!
I love you boo boo,
Mom

Happy Thanksgiving my sweet one

Today is Thanksgiving and my heart still aches. Can't believe you are gone. I still look for you when I come home hoping and wishing you are still here with me. I had a dream one night and I swear you were here meowing to me. Three times I heard you meow and then I woke up and you were gone. I know it was not Minxzie bc she was sound asleep when I looked at her. I wished I could have slept a little longer to hear you some more. Come back again when I am asleep just so I can here you meow to me every so often just to let me know you are ok.
Yes Minxzie has been keeping me busy and it's funny how she does some things like you and other times she is just so fresh with me. You would have liked her and I'm sure you would have been great furfriends.
I'm happy some days bc Minxzie keeps me busy but other days I cry bc I miss you soooo much. Christmas is coming up and I'm torn bc this will be the first Xmas without you and Minxzie's first. Not sure how I should feel. I will try to make it a happy day but I will have my moments bc you are not here to unwrap your present like you did every year. You were an amazing cat! Even when I hid the toys you would always find them! I remember one year when I came home and the wrapping paper was all over the place in the livingroom . I thought at first someone was playing a trick on me but then I knew it was you bc the toy was gone. What a good laugh and story I had to tell everyone that year. You always knew how to make meowmy smile.
My heart will always be with you Rcee and everyday I send you kisses. I hope you know that my "Sunshine Kitty". Love you lots....mom