Wow. It's really nice up here, and so many of my pals were waiting for me when I arrived. It was pawsome. My sisfur, Chloe, sure acted glad to see me too. The first thing she did was fank me for looking after mommy, then she bopped me on the head. She said it was payback for when I always chased her around when I was just a baby. MOL
Sorry I haven't gotten to thank all of my wonderful pals who have sent cards, flowers, left messages on my page and sent me zealies, but THANK YOU!! I've been really busy watching over mommy and Felix.
Mommy has been really sad and I try to keep sending rainbows to her, but I don't quite have the hang of that yet. And Felix stopped eating for a bit after I crossed the bridge. He usually started dancing on mommy an hour before dinnertime, but the first night I was gone, he didn't even go to the kitchen after mommy put out his dinner. She even took it to him and put it down in front of him, but he wouldn't eat. I sent him some good vibes and let him know I am ok and that he has to eat so he can be the man of the house and look after mommy. I guess he heard me. He's still sticking close to mommy, but he's at least eating again. Whew.
I need to sign off for now. Mommy is crying again so I am gonna try to send her that rainbow.
While they were trying to make me feel better, I stopped breathing and crossed over the bridge. Not long after that, mommy stopped by to hold me and tell me how special I was to her and how much she loved me.
Mommy is glad I'm not in pain, but had wanted to be with me while I crossed. I'm now with my sisfur, Chloe, and all my other pals at the bridge.
Thank you all for your purrs and prayers for me, but it was my time to go. I just couldn't hold on any longer. I'm at peace.
I got to the hospital and when they ran tests, they discovered I am dehydrated and my kidney values are really bad, so no surgery today. They will see if they can get some fluids in me, but that will also make my blood count go down, so they are telling mommy surgery may be too risky at all.
If that happens, I will be crossing the bridge on Friday to meet up with my sisfur, Chloe. I'm really tired and mommy seems to know this, so she promised me I wouldn't have to stay in pain.
I don't want to go yet, but I'm hurting, so mommy says it's best for me. She's trying to be strong, but I can hear her crying sometimes.
I'll write more when the surgeon contacts mommy later. Just wanted all my pals to know I love you all and mommy has been comforted by the support.
