Celebrating you, Mommy--1-28-2012

Dearest Mommy,

I know you say we were always your strength...but you were always ours. I guess we truly needed one another. I will be watching from above and sending warm rays of sunlight to give you strength....I know this is a day full of all kinds of emotions for you...a day we celebrate your stength, courage, and life....a day we have never experienced without one another....wow....my passing 3 years ago to the bridge adds a whole new array of emotions...for this day, we always cuddled together. Mommy, I am still your strength and your sunshine...I honor you from above...We are your forever angels….and now you have Ivy Joy and Luna Rose to help you on earth.


I hope everyone takes a moment to be TRULY thankful for what they have....Thank you Sissy for writing such a wonderful dedication to mommy....she will always be my strength, my hero....my soul.

Sissy, thank you for writing this tribute to our mommy:

"I want you to know you are my hero. I know 1-28-2012 is a bittersweet day for you....even more so, without us here with you.I know how much you miss us..we miss you, too.

Mommy, you always told me it iwas important to reflect one's journey and remember what makes you who you are today. I am doing that for you....You are an amazing woman and I admire you more than you know. I can't help but have mixed feelings either. We are all so happy you are with us, and yet so sad because of your continual pain and daily struggles. It's hard for me to imagine it has been 22 years since the careless drunk driver hit you and changed your life forever. The person you were, died, and when you came back to us, we were so thankful.

This is like another birthday, mommy!!! I love birthdays!!! We are partying at the Bridge today!!!

I know as you face your continual health decline, you get scared. I know one day your body will fail you and you will not be able to walk again. Your future is so uncertain....but I believe you are never alone as you have helped so many with failing bodies, including me....there will be others to care for you and appreciate your mind and spirit.

We admire you tenacity and strength. I know I was not a part of your life then....and neither was my daddy, but if things would have been different, our paths may never have crossed. I am so thankful to have you for my mommy and so proud of all you do and who you are despite what you go through daily.

We know this day makes you sad, and yet grateful to be alive. It is a day of total reflection. That's okay. It is a bittersweet day and you are entitled to have these feelings..................if we could make you better we would, but want you to know, we think you are perfect just as you are....and despite what happens, we will always be by your side watching over you from above.

An extra special thank you to my angel sister Jazzi and my sisters in spirit at the bridge, CheyAnne and Sugar, who laid in your hospital bed and stayed by your side and helped you walk again. They watched you endure pain and stuggles unimagineable to many.... I am glad I could be a part of what and who you are now..............you will always be my hero...today, I say thank you for being alive and WALKING into my life and heart forever!!! Thank you for taking care of me as my body failed and helping me find peace at the Bridge…thank you for letting me be and loving me for who I am!!!

May you find your own strength and courage to face life's obstacles and appreciate and celebrate the rewards.

Celebrating and honoring you, mommy.

"One isn't necessarily born with courage, but one is born with potential. Without courage, we cannot practice any other virtue with consistency. We can't be kind, true, merciful, generous, or honest."

- Maya Angelou"


You are my hero....I am your sunshine....Love, your special Jazzi Sunshine Angel Girl...xxxxooo

Sending Angel Love and Sunshine

Wishing you a peaceful day full of self discovery and compassion towards others....

"What lies before us and what lies behind us are small matters compared to what lies within us. And when we bring what is within out into the world, miracles happen."

-- Henry David Thoreau

Our hearts are connected by paws, Jazzi Sunshine Angel

May Peace Be Yours....This Holiday Season. Merry Christmas!

To my Catster and Dogster family!!

Wow, we are so full of love and gratitude for each of you...our lives are forever changed in such a special unique way because of all of you. When we joined the catster/dogster family, we never imagined we would meet such incredible pups and kitties (their humans, too) who would become our family. Your continued support, love, friendship and kindness is overwhelming...Thank you for being the best Holiday Gifts ever....we could ask for nothing more.


I really appreciate you being there for my family after both Ck and Sissy joined me at the Rainbow Bridge….and now Lil’ Blackie (our 18 year old feral)…..it has been a really tough year for my family’s hearts. Recently more good friends came to the Bridge too and the sadness can be overwhelming….
Please remember to reach out and love each other through the difficult times…..and to laugh each other through the good…..
Sissy, Ck, and I are always watching over you….and we are pleased Ivy Joy and Luna Rose have come into our family’s home…I think they were led by angels!!!
Please remember to look to the sun and know I am always in your hearts.



" What is Christmas? It is tenderness for the past, courage for the present, hope for the future. It is a fervent wish that every cup may overflow with blessings rich and eternal, and that every path may lead to peace."

~author unknown

We love you all and thank you from the very depths of our souls...Our hearts are forever connected by paws.

Sunshine hugs of love, peace and joy.

Jazzi Sunshine Angel and family

Happy Thanksgiving....so very thankful for all of you!!

Dearest Friends,

I wanted to wish you a sunshine kind of Thanksgiving! I know this has been a difficult year for many of us....and yet, we get through each day the best we can....we keep hope and realize that no matter what, we have each other for support…something to truly be thankful for.

I know it has been especially hard for my family as both CK and Sissy have joined me at the Bridge....and so much illness in our family.

Thank you for all the support and special gifts you have given our family during these difficult times....it is overwhelming and so appreciated.

So very thankful Ivy Joy has come into our family....she is so special.

Often we spend a majority of our time working so hard to overcome and deal with the bumps in the road of life that I like to get up on Thanksgiving morning and truly clear my mind allowing me to focus on only the good...the things I am thankful for. Although we try to do this on a daily basis, life can get in the way.Honestly, sometimes we find more time for reflection here at the Bridge...something I encourage all of you to really focus on while still on earth.

Interestingly enough, we have to also remember that some things which we consider to be "not so good" can still help us grow and become stronger....therefore, something to be thankful for. With most all experiences in life, we can find something to be thankful….we simply have to look and sometimes harder than others.

As I celebrate Thanksgiving, I reflect on all that I am thankful for in my life....and my heart is over-flowing with an abundance of thankfulness.

There is too much for me to simply put into words to express my thankfulness, but I want you to know....how thankful I am for Dogster/Catster, community spirit, acceptance, valuable friendships and each of you.

As I count my many blessings, you are on top of my list.

Our hearts are connected by paws!

Sunshine hugs of thanks, Jazzi Sunshine Angel and family

"Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow.”

– Melody Beattie, bestselling author and journalist

Reflecting on my 3rd year anniversary of becoming an angel- (October 27th)

My family is celebrating me with love and sunshine in their hearts. Thursday, October 27, 2011, is my 3rd year bridge anniversary. Can you believe it has already been three years since I became an angel?

In the past couple of months, my other earth family siblings have joined me at the Rainbow Bridge and we are together once again....Sissy-Golden Angel and CK Angel are here with me....I know this has been so very difficult for my family, especially my mommy.

I am so very grateful, Ivy Joy has come into thier lives....she has some big shoes to fill and she is doing a wonderful job....Thank you Ivy Joy for helping to heal my family's hearts.

Reflecting on that day....Three years ago, I grew so very ill….I had struggled off and on for many years…but this day was different. Mommy knew it was time to let me go and peacefully send me to the bridge.

So on October 27, 2008, I spread my wings followed the sun…and made my journey to a place of beauty and peace. There are no words to express the pain and emotion of that day…………………my final moments on earth………..and the overwhelming peace of the journey to the sunlight of the bridge. It will be forever with my family, but now, they are able to think of me with smiles and joy...as I have always wanted for everyone. I am not gone, just glowing in a different way.

I never knew one kitty, me, could touch so many lives and hearts….but I learned I had….I now understand how my work as a new angel is invaluable to others. I have spent the last three years spreading my sunshine wings and supporting others as they end their life’s journey and come to the bridge…I work alongside all the beautiful angels here at the bridge to bring peace and comfort to all. Mommy says I did that on earth, too. I guess what she says makes more sense now. Mommy tells me, “My angels wear fur…” That is so very true....all her angles now wear fur. This past year I have helped so many close friends and family become angels....it is hard. I have welcomed, CK, Sissy, Boss, , Leo, Goofie, Sally Maria, Riley, Rascal, CoCo, Hazel Lucy, McDuff, Boots,....the list goes on....


The comfort, support and love so freely given by each of you through this journey is an amazing gift. Thank you. Also, for all the time we have spent on Caster and Dogster, please know what each of you does never goes un-noticed or unappreciated by my family or me. We can never say thank you enough for sharing our lives and hearts and for making my journey and my family’s healing easier to handle. I know there healing has only began for the other losses they are expereincing...


I too, miss my family….but know they are where they need to be for now. I will always miss the comfort of my mommy’s arms, and the play times with Dad, …………………but as an angel, I get to stay close and share in special moments in a different way.

I will always miss each of you and the times shared……..but I hope you know as an angel...I am always there. I find comfort in knowing, I have become the Catster/Dogster Sunshine Angel….as I have always worked to bring sunshine and peace to all. I realistically know as one little kitty angel, I can’t make a huge difference in the world; however, I do believe it is the small differences that count. If I can wrap my sunshine wings around one kitty, doggie, or human and make difference………….my angel work has been successful.

October 27, 2008….I went to sleep and opened my eyes to the beauty of the bridge, the warmth of the sun and the heartache of being gone from my family. I know my family, especially mommy, misses me so……………….however, I see her smile now when she thinks of me and feels the warmth of the sun on her face.

I thank each of you for all you are, and all you do……………and all you will become. I am blessed to have you for friends.

Please…as you honor me on my 3rd bridge anniversary...find a quiet moment in your busy day to close your eyes, relax and let the stress of the world go………………put your paw and/or hand over your heart….feel the beat….it’s me….look to the sun…………..and smile for I am watching over you…and most importantly, take time to give of yourself to another. It doesn’t have to be anything big…simply reach out and touch another’s heart…………………this will be the best way to honor my memory.

“Do what you can, with what you have, where you are.”
~Theodore Roosevelt

I love you all and am so grateful we have had you to help us adjust to my new life as the Sunshine Angel. To all of you who have watched your special ones leave and go to the bridge, please do know....time will lessen the pain, but never the memory of what you shared together.

“Beyond The Rainbow

As much as I loved the life we had and all the times we played,
I was so very tired and knew my time on earth would fade.
I saw a wondrous image then of a place that's trouble-free
Where all of us can meet again to spend eternity.

I saw the most beautiful Rainbow, and on the other side
Were meadows rich and beautiful -- lush and green and wide!
And running through the meadows as far as the eye could see
Were animals of every sort as healthy as could be!
My own tired, failing body was fresh and healed and new
And I wanted to go run with them, but I had something left to do.

I needed to reach out to you, to tell you I'm alright
That this place is truly wonderful, then a bright Glow pierced the night.
'Twas the Glow of many Candles shining bright and strong and bold
And I knew then that it held your love in its brilliant shades of gold.

For although we may not be together in the way we used to be,
We are still connected by a cord no eye can see.
So whenever you need to find me, we're never far apart
If you look beyond the Rainbow and listen with your heart. “

~cg - 1995

I am smiling down on each of you……….always warming your hearts with sunshine and peace!

Our hearts are connected by paws.

Love and Sunshine Hugs, Jazzi Sunshine Angel and family

CK has joined me at the Bridge....Farewell Precious- one...Fly Free.

Dearest Friends....
I visited with CK a long time last night and he let me know he was ready to fly….I gave mommy the sign and she knew in her heart, it was right for him….she also found comfort in knowing I would be there to escort him in my angel wings of sunlight and peace. With the loving help from our family, I watched CK very peacefully fall asleep today at 1:45pm-----he was not afraid and felt so loved….Once mommy and daddy had held him one more time and kissed him good-bye, I gently lifted his tired 22 year old body and started our journey back to the Rainbow Bridge…..Fly Free in Peace with me, Angel Brother of mine.
Don’t be afraid of the journey as the sun shines so brightly from the rainbow bridge. I am with you always….and swept you peacefully from mommy’s loving arms and tear stained checks to be with me. So many other angels were with me for your journey, as well. As we fly through the peacefulness, Ck and I turned our heads for one more glance to see our mommy and daddy for the last time....together again for a moment, all of us….. Now I led CK to the warmth of the sun and the colors of the rainbow to fly free and be forever with me.
We will miss you mommy, as you will us! I know losing another beloved fur baby deepens your grief for all those you have already lost…. I know many truly understand the bond we all had...I look back on all we have been through and know we could have asked for nothing more. The love and care you and daddy gave us was more than words can express…....We have been through more than most and not nearly as much as some....but together, we always found our way. Death can never take that away. Please remember that mommy! We are always your strength...Always your heart….nothing can take that away.
As far as CK goes, mommy, you and daddy gave him a beautiful loving life….you rescued him from a horrible situation of pain and despair and helped him through all his challenges and obstacles he had to face….he was your special needs boy…You gave him more that most….the best life and the best death ever. You made a promise to rescue him, care for him, love him, and make him know that not all humans are bad….....and you told him, as you once told me…. you would let him go peacefully when it was time....I know it broke your heart as I saw it and felt it so deeply…and the pain is so raw....but I thank you for loving him enough to let him go. Our hearts will always be one and I know yours is filled with a huge hole that no one can fill.....reach out to others, mommy....Sissy is there for a tad bit longer and CK and I will be back for her when the time comes....all of Catster/Dogster are there....when you are ready mommy reach out.....be gentle with yourself...as you are with others. I know Daddy is hurting so much too.
Mommy, I remember when Daddy was so sick with Cancer and could no longer speak to us….when CK could not hear his voice, he starved himself for weeks….you forced feed him and kept him alive as he was Daddy’s strength…..I know he was a difficult kitty, but you never faltered and loved him no less….your love was more generous because of all his challenges. He knew how much you loved him….as I watched the two of you sleep together last night; he would gently purr…..it was his way of saying thank you for all you gave to him in this life.
I thank each of you, my Catster/Dogster friends for coming into my heart and leaving forever paw prints. Thank you for accepting CK as he was….and being there for him after I left for the bridge….he was such a shy boy and I am so grateful he finally found his way on Catster.
Ck and I will watch over all of you. Thank you for walking this journey with us...and know, my heart can never really express how much I love and appreciate each of you. CK is at peace and so very grateful for all the love he found from everyone. Mommy is now “catless” for the first time in her life in 21 years. We are worried about her as Sissy will come be with us soon, too.

It was time for CK to spread his wings and fly.....

Here is CK’s Biography written by mommy: July 7, 1992-August 1, 2011
“My husband (then boyfriend) and I were taking a walk. We heard loud dog barking/growling noises and squealing kitty noises which really concerned us. We followed the noise....and were totally stunned by what we found. We will spare the details as it is gruesome and graphic....we just knew we had to get the cat away from that situation. When the man with the dog saw us, he pulled the dog away and left....and the cat ran off. Luckily we found him under a car....catching him was a whole different issue. This cat was hurt and scared beyond belief. We finally got him and took him to the vet. After he was released from the vet, he went to live with my boyfriend (now husband) across the street. He remained under the bed and couch for weeks/months and would not let anyone near him. If you approached him or touched him, he would attack you and fight for his life. Not a good situation.
We were not sure we could handle him, but we had to try...he deserved a second chance at a good life. We knew if we didn't keep him, no one would....so we did. In his golden years, he calmed down some and learned how much we loved him….always will; however, he could still be defensive, somewhat aggressive and had reactionary trust issues. Who could blame him? However, it did make it difficult in certain situations. We have had him for almost 20 years and despite all the love, he still attacked on occasion when he became scared. It is simply a fear based reaction. He did try so hard to be gentle and loving...and he was, in his own special way. He was my special boy. We love him and accept him for who he was.....We simply allowed him to be.
Before we knew a lot about him, we wanted to name him Cuddles....but given his personality we changed his name to CK....the short version of Cuddles Kitty. He has been a great addition to our family and has a special place in our hearts. He is our special needs kitty who really learned to be a part of our family with the help and support of his bridge kitty sister, Jazzi Sunshine Angel. They are together again….which I know brings them both comfort.

Twice is CK’s life time, he almost grieved himself to death: The first time was when my husband had cancer and could not speak for months due to radiation to head and neck….CK missed his voice so much, he stopped eating and for weeks, I had to force fed him to keep him alive….The second time was after Jazzi left for the Bridge….he almost grieved himself to death and went into kidney failure. We were lucky enough to have him another three years. Thank you for allowing us to be your humans and for teaching us about pain, suffering and healing….. We love you, Mom, Dad, Sissy and Jazzi Angel.
With love and appreciation, Jazzi Sunshine Angel and CK, our newest angel

P.S. A message from mommy: Thank you for all the pmails, love, support, rosies, calls, etc............I hope you truly understand I can not even begin to respond to them....I know I will even have difficulty reading them. I need some time and I hope you all understand...it is so hard right now and I simply can't do it, especially knowing we will soon make that decision for Sissy, too. I thank and love each of you....you make our lives’ complete. Our hearts will always be connected by paws….always.

July 28, 2011--Happy 3rd Got'cha Day Remembrance, Dearest- Sunshine Angel

It's hard to imagine July 28th is almost here...the day I walked into my mommy's arms and heart 22 years ago. Meow! I would have been 22 years old this year according to earth time; however, here at the rainbow bridge, age is no longer a factor. We simply are free to be...

I remember three years ago in July, we celebrated my birthday on Caster/Dogster all month long....I think we all knew in our hearts it would be my last birthday on earth. I thank you for that special gift....as it stays so vividly in my heart and mind. It was so incredibly special, not only to me, but my mommy, as well (and the rest of my family, too). Now that things have really slowed down on Catster/Dogster, I am even more grateful for the month long celebration. I must admit, I miss all the fun parties which used to be in abundance in Catster/Dogster Land. Funny how life changes and we move forward....sometimes, on the same path and sometimes not...makes our life expereinces even more special!

My first got'cha day at the bridge was the hardest on mommy's heart (and mine) and this one is going to be bittersweet. I really love all my angel friends, but do miss my family so much. I guess the special occasions, holidays, etc...are the hardest times...hum, maybe not...as I know I often lay in the sun with the endless beauty of the bridge around me, dreaming of laying in my mommy's arms...just one more time. I know my mommy does the same. Once you have touched someone's life and heart completely, you do truly long for just one more touch, one more hug....one more moment together. My family has really had a tough year and I know my mommy finds strength from me....as I send it to her for the bridge.


If I had my wish for the best got'cha gift ever, I would still be on earth with my family....however, they gave me the greatest gift already by letting me go when my heart and body was tired. I can hardly believe it has been almost 3 years since I left. I went to the bridge on Oct. 27, 2008. Amazing how at times it feels just like yesterday....and others not. Mommy and daddy have found peace with it and now they smile when they think of me....I love mommy's smile.

July 28 is also the bridge crossing of my love, Gavroche. He came to be with me on my got'cha day two years ago....we truly our angel soul mates. Hugs to your mommy as I know this is a difficult day for her.

I know this got'cha day will be a little sad for my family (and probably for some of you)....I watch over all of them every day and I know they are doing the best they can....but sometimes, I know they are thinking of me and wishing I was still with them. I can see it in my mommy's eyes....I know her so well. Not sure that feeling will ever go away....the hurt has gotten better. After all, we spent so many years together. I love it now seeing my mommy smile when she thinks of me....

I think of all of you so often....and keep you close in my heart. I also watch over you and send you rays of sunshine and happiness each day....purrs and healing sunshine when needed. I hope you feel me in your heart....as I am really not gone, just in a different place. Remember you are always in my heart....for we....are truly family....and I am your sunshine angel forever.

So as I celebrate my got'cha day at the Rainbow bridge, please take time to look to the sun and think of me...smile, give a kind gentle hug to someone, a gift of laughter....a piece of your heart...give a little piece of yourself to bring joy to another...do it in honor of my got'cha day....there is no greater gift than giving of yourself.

Thanks for supporting my family, especially as their journey continues to be somewhat difficult right now, especially with Sissy's signficant health decline. I know she will be joining me soon. The best got'cha gift you can give me is to live like there is no tomorrow and to love with all your heart.


And as I said, look to the sun.....

"When you face the sun, the shadows always fall behind you."

~Helen Keller‎


Thank you for changing my heart and life:

"‎"As one person I cannot change the world, but I can change the world of one person."

~Paul Shane Spear


Sunshine hugs of celebration, appreciation and love,

Jazzi Sunshine Angel

Celebrating Daddy....he is 14 years cancer free and my papa- is 5 years cancer free!

This day is not an ordianry day, but an amazing day because it is the anniversary of my daddy being 14 years cancer free. My PaPa has also been 5 years cancer free! What a gift to truly celebrate how lucky we are to have wonderful men in our lives.

Sometimes we get so busy in life, we forget how lucky we truly are...
However, our family does try to make time to reflect within our hearts each day and be thankful...

For each day is truly a gift we have received....and what we choose to do with this gift is up to us....

Life is what it is and it is what you make it....it's about living in the moment and never being afraid to dance in the rain....

Today, June 21....we dedicate to our special daddy.

You are our hero....our champion...our gift.
Today marks your 14th year anniversary of being cancer free...

We remember being so scared when they said, "you won't make it....", but you did! Who were they to say that???? They did not know your motivation and determination....they didn't know your heart, but we did.


For all those who are struggling with cancer or know someone with cancer or have lost someone to cancer...take time today to reflect and truly live....live as if today was the best gift you have received!


What Cancer Cannot Do

Cancer is so limited...
It cannot cripple love.
It cannot shatter hope.
It cannot corrode faith.
It cannot eat away peace.
It cannot destroy confidence.
It cannot kill friendship.
It cannot shut out memories.
It cannot silence courage.
It cannot reduce eternal life.
It cannot quench the Spirit.

~Author unknown

Daddy, I miss you greatly and I thank for all the love you gave me. You came into my life and made it better than it was before. I am so glad mommy has you.

Love Your Sunshine Angel, Jazzi

Purrs of sunshine to all of you...

We think of each of you so often...and keep you close in our hearts. We know the past few months have been really difficult with all the sick pups/kitties and all our special friends who have left earth and gone to the bridge...sometimes our hearts feel sad and it is hard to understand how to help those who are hurting.
Sending purrs of healing sunshine, angel love, and the power of the paw to those who are hurting is the best way we know.

Just remember we are more than friends...we are family and together, we can get through the obstacles, as well as celebrate the gifts. Knowing each of you and having you in our lives is a true gift....we are embracing you and thanking you for being part of our fur family.

May your hearts find happiness and peace.

Edith Wharton said:

"There are two ways of spreading light: to be the candle or the mirror that reflects it."

Love, Jazzi and family

Look to the sun....there are Angels there!

Hellp Precious Friends,

So sorry it has been a while since I have updated my diary; however, angel work has kept me really busy. I know there are so many broken hearts on earth missing their special fur-babies, but rest assured, all have arrived safely and peacefully.

We are with you always....never leaving your sides....put your paws over your hearts and you will feel us forever. Each of you is surrounded by incredible angels who keep giving you strength and healing energy to make it successfully through life's obstacles.

I am surrounded by so much beauty and the love of special friends....I get to spend eternity with all those I love and wait for those on earth whose time has not come....

Look to the sun and see the glimmer of brightness in the shade...you will know, your special angel is there, right by your side.

"Her angel's face, As the great eye of heaven shined bright, And made a sunshine in the shady place."

~Edmund Spenser


Thank you for all the great joys you bring to our lives.

Our hearts are connected by paws.

Sunshine hugs of peace and love to all,

Jazzi Sunshine Angel and Family