August 21st 2006 11:49 am
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I have been on duty for the past three days.. and I am so sad by what I see. We have had a lot of cats and kittens coming over and it breaks my heart to see. We had over 400 older cats yesterday, due to the fact that rescue centers had to make room for new kittys coming in. We had over 600 new born kittens come in.Humans letting their cats have litters that are not wanted and thoughtlessly disposing of them.We have had numerous kittens and cats that have been killed on the highways or injured and killed by predators from humans leaving thier pets to fend for theirself.. they get pets and then go away and leave them or just don't want them.. my heart is sad and heavey for these beautiful cats an kittens. The only good thing is there are here in heaven now to be free of hunger, cold and pain... we ,cats that have had a good life will take them under our wings and show them what a good human is... they can chase butteryflys and play,, and roll in the sun... I pray that all you good humans will get the word out to spay ,& neuter and teach other humans the responsibility of owning a pet... because you are the good humans.. Bear
August 18th 2006 5:55 am
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I visited mommsie last night while her sleep.. I touched her face and she open her eyes. and said, Bear ,is that you. I have come to my mommsie before, one time I even led her to the kitchen, she could see me,, it was shortly after my passing, I wanted to let her know I was ok and say good bye....she had gotten my sis Bluie and was not crying so much.
Every now and then I come down and give he a kissy on her cheeck , cause we are soul mates and went through a lot together.
She has been thinking a lot of me lately.. so I had to come and comfort her..
When I entered their bedroom, I was overwhelmed by my mommsie smell, it made me feel alive again, so comforting,so beautiful.. I drifted to her head an just touched her cheek, with my wet nose.. she reached out and lifted the blanket up like she use to when I came to sleep with her, so I could crawl under the sheet.. and said "hi sweetie" mommsie loves you.. then she open her eyes. and knew I was no more.. only in spirit.. I loves you mommsie , your Bear cat..
July 21st 2006 6:05 am
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My sissy Bluie is a silly kitty cat.. as much as I try to help her from the Rainbow Bridge her not get it.. I show her how to hunt a kill miceys. She chases them and sit on them and look pretty. The one she killed actually I scared it to death.. I appeared and it gave the mouse a heart attack. When I lived there,I eliminated all mices,moles and chipmonks.. I show her how to catch a bug fast , she sits and looks at them, finally one walks by and she steps on it and tries to peek at it, it crawls out between her toes. Duh"""""""
If I say did you sneak out of the house yet, her say, "what" don't the humans carry you out.. what can a older sissy in memory do.. Blue is Blonde. Bear
July 12th 2006 7:51 am
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Bear you are a true heroine/
I came to know You after I had lost my kitty Peanuts to cancer. You were at the local dog pound here, but if they get cats they have them put down immediately.
I decided on this morning to try a find a kitten . I chose to call our pound ,in the possibility an unfortunate cat or kitten had been turned in there.
A gentleman answered the phone and listen as I made my request, there was silence on the other end of the line for a while. My heart sank, thinking this met that none has been turned in. He clears his throat and says,, yes,mam, last night,the vet is on his way to put her down. He continued talking, saying, that a week ago they had notice a small kitten in the guinea pig display at our local zoo. They had finally caught you last evening.He said you were very very wild and it took five men to get you and when they caught you,you bit through their gloves. You would never be tamed for a house cat. My mind was a whirl, with all the thoughts that must have been going through this your mind, first to be tossed a way, taking up residence with the guinea pigs, eating and sleeping with them and then the men trying to capture you. I knew I had to see this baby. I asked how old you were, they figured about 8 or 9 weeks old, you were what they call a Tortie domestic short hair. He again reiterated that you would always be wild. I asked him not to do anything til I got there. It would take me about 30 minutes to get there. I knew I had to see you , no matter what they thought. He agreed to have the vet wait til I got there.
I arrived at the pound and walked in,,one of the saddest places I have ever been, at least 30 dogs barking and crying and looking so sad. I looked for the man, and the kitten.. He came over and said you were in the back of the room. I walk pass over the sad faces and hopeful faces...then I saw two cages.The first cage had a tabby cat, about 3 months old very very hurt.. they said some dogs got her and they were having the vet put her to sleep this day.. such pain she was in. asked why they had let her suffer until now. They said the vet comes once a day. Then in the second cage I saw you "my Bear" you were small and rolled in a tight ball like a little hedge hog..you did not even lift her head when I approached you. I spoke softly to you and you opened her eyes. The eyes of a cat not a kitten, that had already suffered way to much in your little life. " I saw a small woman with blonde hair and soft blue eyes. She was whispering to me.. I must be dreaming and gone to heaven. I lay my head back down.". You were the size of a little toy ,tiny, petite and scared to death.
I set my carrier down and told the man I would take you. He again advised me against it..
I said, she is met to be with me.. I spoke softy to you again, and went to open the cage. " "Kitten,to the lady, Please ,don't let the man in here with me.. mew." He said, mam, here are the gloves.. I saw the terror in your eyes when you saw them. I said ,no, thank you. "Kitten, thinks, oh, no, I am going to be thrown away again. why, are these humans doing this to me.. but this lady's eyes are so soft and voice so sweet.." He said if you try to hurt me, we will put her down.
I looked at you and started talking , sweetie, it is ok, this is your last chance. Let me help you ".Kitten thinks she smells so good. I wish she loved me." I kept talking and moved my hand inside your cage, you started to jump and back up, I stopped for a moment and said , it is ok. You must let me help you. Your eyes were large as pumpkins but you stopped and watched me." Kitten,thinks, be careful maybe she is tricking me. I got to move away.." I touched your little face and then reached for you..you did not do anything, I gently took you out of the cage and held you close to my chest." Kitten speaks ,this feels so good. I have been afraid and alone so lone. Can I trust you. Will you help me? Mew"'
You started to struggle but then relaxed and let out a big sigh and collapsed on my chest. "Kitten, I love you, give me time to trust you. humans have not been good to me . sigh"
I put you in the carrier and took you home..I knew it was to soon to introduce you to her new family yet. Cricket, ShizTu, Zelda,Peanuts sister cat.
I put you in our bathroom which is where you stayed for a week. Every time I went in there I would pick you up and hold you tight." Bear, that is my name now. The lady named me that. This room is good, lots of food and a neat place to sleep.. I am safe. I stay in here forever. " You would always tuck your head under my arm.. One day when I did this you started to purr.. " Hello , mom, I like it when you hold me. You are the best human ever.. I will never be able to thank you enough.. purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrs." I knew we had made it. Finally I took you out and explained you had to socialize with your new family. The first two days were spent under my bed but slowly you came out. " Mom, I like the bathroom. Just you mom, not want to be around others.. I do not trust them. grrrrrrrrrrr... very soft grrrrrrrrrrr.." Bear, you need to be with others now.. I know you can do it.. no ,mom, not want to.. but out I came. under the bed I go.. Cricket and you became fast friends. Zelda and you tolerated each other.
Bear ,you got your name because you were found at our zoo and we felt this was appropriate for you. "Bear, that's mean, small and cute and tuff.."
After I had ,had you ,8 years ,you paid me back for my kindness in full.you were always a loving cat, we were very close as I had a very bad abusive marriage that I just kept thinking I was to blame for.." mom, please ,do not blame yourself. You are a loving person. I hate him, and I will watch over you.. I love you mom.". I love you to Bear .I had to teach you to play as you did not know how.. but you learn to do it in a awkward way. Bear, here, chase the string." I look at the string, what do I do with it.". Bear she would say, chase it.. "What I have to do to please her.. ok. I chase the string, now what," She says, catch it.." so I do, but not good at it. How did I do mom.". Bear, you are a classic... I liked it when she talks to me.. You would always be aloof, but each day you would sit with me for a while, you would sleep with me at night, you followed me every where. If I went for a walk you would be behind me, keeping an eye on me".Let me just say , I had my job cut out for me, keeping a eye on my mommy.. I could not let her out of my sight for a moment. hey , mom remember the walk to the beach. " One time I went to the beach near our home. I walked out into the water, and then I heard the loudest ,distressful noise of my life. It was a cat yowling, I turned around and you stood by the edge of the water, yowling ,wanting me to come back out of the water. Another family was there and good not believe what you were doing." Meowwwwwwwwwww, mom ,please come back. I can't swim,, meowwwwwwwwww,," I came in and picked you up and hugged you tight.. and carried you home.. you purred all the way... my beautiful little Bear You never got very big.". Whew, I thought you would not come back and get me. I do not want you in the water. I worry so, I know how bad daddy is and how sad he makes you. so sad . I fraid you hurt yourself and I would be alone.. mew, mew,,, love you mommy.". I love you to Bear
One evening, my ex husband came home in a meaner than usual mood. I knew it would not be good.You sensed my fear and stayed close.."Mommy, lets go to the bedroom an lock the door. I am worried. meeewwwwwwwww, please." I told you to stay away from him, as he had hurt you once and I did not want you hurt again." I remember, I was sleeping in his chair. he was drunk and he threw me on the floor. You defended me and got hurt yourself. I will never let him hurt you again." I sat down to watch TV ,in hopes he would fall asleep. I saw him get up and come towards me, anger and hate in his face, he screamed and hollered and raged on and on and grab me by the throat, I felt the air leaving my lungs, my eyes looked for you." I saw him grab you, mommy, my heart was stone still. I was fraid but I knew I would have to help you. I remember it all mommy" , I, worried you would get hurt if I died.. I could see you circling, I tried to cry out to you but could not, I was going to die, I saw you jump to the top of my curio cabinet and leap through the air and land on him, you bit his hand so hard he had to let go.. as I gasp for breath ," As I watched my mommy gasping ,I knew I had to help you. I looked around and saw the curio cabinet, it was a high jump for me but I did it.. I growled loudly and leaped and landed on his hand. I bit through his thumb and made him let go of you.. when you were up ,I ran with you.". you snatched me up and ran to your room and locked the door. mommy hugged me tight," Thank you Bear, I love you so much. I will never let him hurt us again.."I gave her a kissy and was shaking inside my self.. Mommy, I love you too. Mommy knew he would kill both of us." When I heard him finally leave the next morning, I took you and a bag of clothes and left. We never went back, I got a divorce and made a new life for ourselves.. Bear you are a heroine in all aspects.. I still cry when I write this.. my heart aches for you. " Mommy, it is ok, I am still with you and watch over you.."
" We met a wonderful man, John. John took me to live with him for 2 months before mom and he got married so I could get to know him well.WE became fast friends. He was wonderful to mom and I.. " mom, remembers ,when I got old and had cancer an arthritis", he made life easy for you He built you a ramp to go down cellar so your legs would not hurt, because you loved the den down there. He made you a small ramp to get in your favorite chair.. he would carry you out doors when you was not able to do it herself.. "Bear, here, just a few words about John, You were the first and only man I ever trusted. I knew your were kind and you made mom and I so happy. I would even play with you... I loved you to..". two years ago we took you in to go to Rainbow Bridge because we knew it was time. you would come to me and sit on my lap and purr and purr and shiver.. I knew you were telling me it was time for you to go.. my heart was heavy but I knew it was up to me not to let you suffer. Every selfish bone in my body wanted to keep you with me. I went with you and we sat and talk to each other, Dearest Bear, you are my soul mate, you came into my life and changed it forever.. You showed me what a strong little cat can do, You showed me what a survivor is, how to make it on my own, you showed me how to be fearless in the eyes of danger and sobbing I ,you showed me what real love is.." Bear, tells me, I loved you forever mom, you save me from sure death, you gave me home and friends, the best care a kitty could have. You loved me for who I am and you never hurt me. You gave me John a dear friend to.. I love you do mom, but I must leave now.. I am sick and hurt . I know I can leave and John will take care of you... mommy, I going to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.. bye.mew then the vet came in and as I held you you fell into a deep sleep. I just kept talking and he said , Pat, you were gone.. I knew you had but I just had to keep talking.. John ,said after a few weeks, I should get another kitten,I said no, I could not bare it.. but I started looking in the papers. I saw some Persians for sale, I had always wanted one.. I lay the paper on the table and told John about a Blue Persian this lady had. He read it and laid the paper on the table. I was not sure yet, I loved Bear so much. For no reason a huge gust of wind blew through our kitchen and the paper went on the floor to that page.. Bear had chose our new baby.. Azurine Ambrosia Hodge, known to most as Bluie.. "Bear here, I was watching over mom, from above, I knew she was so sad.. I wanted her to have a new kitty.. I knew Bluie was the one. I whisper in moms ear. Its Blue ,get her.. its ok mommy, I am over the bridge.. I love you and always will be with you.. your Bear."... Dearest Bear, no words can speak your bravery and love I will always love you mom Bear a true Tail of devotion
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June 20th 2006 11:05 am
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my sissy Bluie gets all the credit and I do all the work. Every since that little fluff ball came to live in our home after I went to the Bridge ,I have had to come and teach her everything.. let me say, they donot give these Persians an how to book when they are born.. I luv the fluffy ball of hair but ,mew, does she have a lot to learn. Like last weekend, I showed her how to catch a mousie and sent it to mousie heaven.. at first her say, mew, mew, I have to touch it, I say, mewooooooooowwwwwwwwwwww, how else can you do it.. so her sees it and wham, her has him, she pats him and then sits on him.. well, soon, his little head peeking out from under her bum, believe me her a big girlie, 13 lbs and 8 ozs... I say, mew, grrrrrrrrrrrrr, you got to bite him quick he get away ... her say, WWWWWWWWWWWHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTT, YOU SAY, BITE HIM. cough, gag, you got to be KIDDDEN, right,,, he dirty.. so I push and tease her, her finally got up the nerve, and crunch, to heaven he went.. but do I get credit,, of course, not, little Miss Bluie does.. oh , look, our little girl is a hunter,, just like her sissy Bear, oh, what a good girlie... grrrrrrrrrrrr, hey, up here, look up,, I help her.. mommsie say you sister be proud of you... then mommsie say you not eat it, not good for you.. what a sissy for real. well I have to get back to the Bridge, I need another nap before I come back and show Bluie the abc's of cat hood Bear
April 10th 2006 7:27 am
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I am over Rainbow Bridge now,but we still have memories here. It is beautiful and quiet and no fear or hunger or cold.. I have wonderful friends.. many of whom you all know.. I want you to know we are all happy here.
I also want you to know that we visit with you every now and then to make sure you are happy and going on with your lives.. I worry about my mom sometimes, she had a very hard life for a while, she saved me from sure death and I returned the favor one day.. but sometimes I wish I was back there with her.. I know how happy she is when my new dad, he was so good to me.. gave me a cat door and built ramps for me when my old legs hurt so bad so I good get to my favorite places.. he makes mom so very happy to. He let me outside becuase I had gotten very ill and he wanted me to enjoy my last years. He lives in the country and I would go down to the stream and lay where it is cool and watch the birds and mousies.etc.. I always stayed close and come in before dark. That was moms rule...
We still love you up here. We still watch and make sure you are ok..
With the warm days coming in Upper New York, I remember getting all excited about going outdoors for the first warm day. I never went out in the winter cause mom not want me to get sick..
I would go from window to window, looking and watching and then I would run to mom and tap her leg with my little paw.. she would look in my eyes and say OK Bear.. she would open the door and I would run out in the sun, and roll in the grass. The I would walk around the house and garage and pole barn, and make sure my smell was all over cause strangers come in the winter.. then I run down the hill to the stream and hunt for hours and then under the tree and watch the water... then around lunch I would run home and eat with mom and then cat nap,,, then I would go out again and around 4 come in.. mommsy rule... bad things can happen out there in the dark...
Two times I did not.. one time mommsie was late getting home so I went looking for her to make sure her ok... cause of that bad daddy then, he gone now.. good daddy now, and I was walking along the road, whezzzzzzzzz there go mommise, she slow down and back up and get out . Boy was she mad ,, "what are you doing here.near the road, she put me in the car and I sat like a good girl and rode home with her. The last time I was playing with her .,she not think it was funny.. she followed me through the woods for a mile.. and carried me home.. whew, she can get mad. Just so you know I got grounded each time for a week.. so see we are good up here and we do remember our loved ones... be happy ,we are happy Bear
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