April 4th 2016 12:22 pm
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It is with great sadness that Mom has to share this difficult news, and I asked her to share it through me.
I was diagnosed with intestinal lymphoma in November and skin cancer earlier last year, and because I was more than 15-years old Mom decided on palliative care versus aggressive treatment.
This past weekend I took a turn for the worse. I was running to the litter box 3-5 times a day and had lost a significant amount of weight. I was having trouble jumping up on my favorite surface (the kitchen table and counter), stopped sleeping on the bed, didn't play, etc., and generally started to lose interest in all those things that make for a great, kitty life.
Mom and I talked Sunday afternoon, 4/3/16, and we decided it was best to not prolong my suffering. Mom said that the next 12-24 hours would be awesome. And she was right! She gave me constant treats, cooked some chicken for me to eat if I felt up to it and indulged me in fresh catnip from her garden! And bread! OMG, do I love bread!?! She toasted a slice and broke it into little pieces for me. I only had a few bites, but I loved it!
But the best part was the love - the nonstop hugs and kisses! She held me most of the evening last night and almost all day today until it was time to start the long journey into peace. She told me how much she loved me, and I hope she knows how much I loved her. She saved me from death row, and gave me an amazing home and furmily for 13 years!!!!!!!
She wanted me to leave on this high note: Never underestimate how important it is to always be there for someone you love whether in the midst of a healthy life, or most importantly, in death. She held me, talked to me, loved me and stayed with me until the end. She gave me a kindness like no other.
The Last Battle
If it should be that I grow frail and weak
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then will you do what must be done?
For this -- the Last Battle -- can't be won.
You will be sad I understand,
But don't let grief then stay your hand,
For on this day more than the rest,
Your love and friendship must stand the test.
We have had so many happy years,
Through happiness, laughter, sadness and tears.
You wouldn't want me to suffer so.
When the time comes, please, let me go.
Take me to where to my needs they'll tend.
Only, stay with me till the end.
And hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.
I know in time you will agree
It is a kindness you do to me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I have been saved.
Don't grieve that it must be you
Who has to decide this thing to do;
We've been so close -- we two -- these years,
Don't let your heart hold any tears.
In Loving Memory
Hannibal 2000 - 2016
May 10th 2015 4:14 pm
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...For all your warm thoughts during this difficult time. It means a lot to me and my mom. I'm mostly resting and comfortable; Mom's a basket case. But that's probably because I'm her favorite ;) I sleep in the bed with her, and love attention. And she loves me for it.
She has spent the weekend doing extensive research, like she always does (MOL!), and has found a clinical trial in Gainesville, FL (UF Veterinary School) that is accepting participants with nasal planum squamous cell carcinoma. It's tumor-targeted therapy via injection. No surgery, and nothing invasive. She sent an email for more info, but if she feels the treatment will be worse than the disease or they say I'm not a good candidate, no trip to Gainesville for us.
She has also decided that I can have whatever I want whenever I want it! She even said something about ice cream. I'm not a big fan of ice cream, but I love to drink from the faucet...all of them, actually! So instead of me hanging out by the kitchen sink and waiting for her to turn on the H2O, Mom picks me up and puts me right by the faucet and turns it on. Life is difficult, but life can also be quite grand.
Mom knows SCC can be aggressive and invasive, so we're probably looking at less than 12 weeks. But for me, that's around 12 weeks of H2O from the faucet without asking! And probably some other treats she's been hiding, like fresh catnip from her garden :)
Time to sign off. Mom needs her rest from an emotional weekend and has to go to work to be distracted from the emotional and physical pain at home. She broke her toe 2 weeks ago...OUCH!
Again, thanks to everyone who has given rosettes, prayers and thoughts to my furmily, and especially Miss Hazel Lucy, the heart and soul of Catster. Mom will be in touch soon, Miss Hazel Lucy...just as soon as she stops crying :(
February 12th 2014 3:56 pm
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noun, often attributive kə-ˈmyü-nə-tē
: a group of people who live in the same area (such as a city, town, or neighborhood)
: a group of people who have the same interests, religion, race, etc.
: a group of nations
Full Definition of COMMUNITY
: a unified body of individuals: as
a: state, commonwealth
b: the people with common interests living in a particular area; broadly: the area itself
c: an interacting population of various kinds of individuals (as species) in a common location
d: a group of people with a common characteristic or interest living together within a larger society