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Paw Prints From Pixel

Sad News In Our Home

A dear friend of ours, Bugs Bunny, went to the Rainbow Bridge last night. He was lying on the stomach of his owner when he left..... He put his paw up to pet the boy, and then had to leave..... We are so sad today for our friend, Daniel. Many purrs to you and your family........

And Still Yet, So Sad.......

Our mama keeps thinking that she wants to e-mail Michelle about how sad we all are..... It's the "bizarrest" thing. We just can't take this in........ Losing Michelle, and having so much less contact with Toulouse, is affecting every part of our lives right now. And in the face of so many other kitties and people missing her at least as much as we are, we each feel like we must be backwards or wrong or something, that we just can't quite let her go....... I am so sad, and so is MacIntosh..... and our mama is over the top sad.

Dear Toulouse's Mama, you were so good to us. We talked about efurrything in life; about music, and the Universe, and God, and furry furiends, and kids, and neighbors, and what we needed.... what we'd accomplished and what we still wanted to do, and life, and death, and sorrow, and joy ...... and you gave our mama such deep support when you took joy, over and over, in her music. Dear Michelle, how can we do without you?

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And then we all three think about your daughters, and how devastated they must be, and so many folks and kitties who probably miss you even more than we do...... It's beyond comprehension.

And THEN we think, over and over, about Toulouse..... Mr. Big T who is not as young as he once was..... It's just so furry sad.

Someday, I, Pixel, will write a poem for you. But right now, it hurts too much.......

Rest in the joy you anticipated, dear one......

Still So Furry Sad.......

MacIntosh ~n~ Mama ~n~ me are still so furry sad over the loss of  ♥  Toulouse's ♥  mama,  ♥ Michelle B. ♥ ...... It is a unique kind of grief that we've never experienced any other time. (Mind you, grief is no stranger when you get to be as old as my mama is......)

Toulouse and his mama were so special in our lives. His mama talked with us all the time, and told us about him, and herself, and asked about us.... It's so hard to explain that kind of furiendship. And the wonderful thing about Michelle is, she made every furiend and kitty feel the same. Mama says we shared a special bond for a couple of reasons.... but so what? So did so many purrsons and kitties!

We've never made so many new furiends so quickly, either. Recognizing the wonderful and special qualities in so many kitties & purrsons has been a source of delight since we first tried to let all of Catster know about this ginormous loss.

So...... I guess, dear furiends, the tears still flow freely in our home..... Mama's still trying to even take it in as reality..... It helps knowing that Toulouse is well and cherished, but it's hard to not yet know whether we'll continue to know about him on Catster. And it's just so furry hard, watching life march on....... without our dear Michelle.

Know that we have missed you all so much. We're not sure whether any kitty will welcome us back at all; it's okay if not. It was furry weird to have mama suddenly so completely and passionately consumed by music composition.... and we know that won't change.

But, we've learned anew to cherish our furiends.... life...... love..... and connections. So we hope you are well and happy and content and warm, and that everykitty feels purry.....

Our love, from me ~n~ MacIntosh both,

Pixel

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