September 18th 2012 6:29 am
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Hi my Friends,
As you know, I journeyed to the Rainbow Bridge on September 6th after I lost my fight with CRF. I can't adequately describe how much it has meant to have your love and purrs during my illness these past two and a half years.
Now, my mom could use some purrs. You see, she's having a very hard time working through the grief over losing me after nearly 20 years together. We have so many wonderful memories, but she's not able to recall those positive memories as much as the painful ones of my disease process and my last two days on earth. She just keeps reliving it all and wonders if there was something she did wrong or could have done better.
My mom is having some physical symptoms to go along with her emotional pain. Her migraines reappeared after a lengthy absence, she's irritated with work (more so than usual), and she's all out of sorts. Any purrs you can spare would so much be appreciated.
Our MamaCat will pray for your Mom ♥
Tell her to count her blessings for having had you for so many wonderful years and all the memories she gets to carry and think of that made your love so special.
Tigger - did you check out today's calendar when we had breakfast? I see that we're all getting together today to fly over your house for some angel dust sprinkling. It will be your first major outing, and we are excited to go with you. Your Mom is going to feel the love from you and all your angel pals today!
Sending you our loudest purrs and hugs! Its like you lost your bestest furriend because you did. Grieving takes a long time and it hurts. Be gentle with yourself, cry a lot and visit us because we'll keep sending hugs your way.
Yep! Calvin is right Tigger! Today is major angel dust sprinkling at your house...
See that line at the Rainbow? Every angel is gathering glitter dust on their wings right now!
Purring hard for your mom! My mom says your mom shouldn't be too hard on herself and to let herself feel what she is feeling. She has lost a beloved family member. It took awhile after my brother Garp died for my mom not to cry whenever she thought of him, and she couldn't stop thinking of him in his final days rather than the happier moments. With time, those good memories do return and cast away the bad memories. Now Mom is able to think of my angel brother and smile, but it did take her over a year to get to that point. Migraines are terrible (my mom gets them too), so we'll be purring that your mom's migraines go away soon!
Artie and family
Whoops! Mom and her silly fingers posted the above message from Garp (probably because she was thinking of him) rather than from me.
Calvin and Raincloud ya'll are so right! *looks at calendar*
Today is major angel dust sprinkling at your house :D
*gets in line at the Rainbow...*
It is a difficult time, and your most recent memories are the freshest right now. Tell Mom not to be so hard on herself, she was a great Mom to you and took wonderful care of you. Having you for almost 20 years is surely a testament to her love and devotion. It may be painful, but when she is ready have her go back and look at some of your early kitten pictures. And Mom, by all means, come back and talk with us. Get your feelings out, let your tears flow, and let your friends here offer comfort and support. Hugs and purrs from us, Skylar and Mom Michele
Oh Tigger, my mom is going through the same thing. We both left them in similar circumstances, from the same disease and both older boys who had been with our moms since we were kittens. It's very, very hard on them. Do you know Tasha? She posted a beautiful poem today.
Mom Gina, I wish I could do something. I'm right here with you with with all of this. We care and you are in my thoughts.
Jen and Gumpy
Gina, we are purraying for your migraines to go away, and for you to feel better. Grieving is a gradual process, and it takes time. Let yourself grieve, in your own time and own way. You have lost something very precious to you, and it hurts. Let yourself cry. In time you will remember only the good times you had with Tigger. My heart goes out to you. I will be here if you need me...
Muffy and Meowmy
So hard to see my friends suffering so much grief like this. When we all know this pain all too well. I'm going to ask Alex to bring Tigger to you and have him wrap his angel wings around you.
I am sprinkling you with angel dust and hope you feel better soon. I was with my family for 16 1/2 years. When I had breast cancer, my mommy was so upset with herself that she thought or was her fault that I couldn't get better. She did all she could. I had a terrible surgery and we all thought I would be okay. Mommy was.even more upset that she did something wrong. But I helped her remember that all the care she took of me during and all the happy days we had far outweighed the bad times. It took a while but she knows she did her best. Tigger knows too! No angel wants to be an angel. But when we were here, our mommies were our angels on earth. Tigger was lucky to have a great mommy who was there every step of the way. He would want you to celebrate his life and be happy that you will be a great mommy to his fursiblings. He would want you to feel good about all you did. He will always be in your heart.
there are no words that I can say to take away your hurt. I feel so bad to see a friend in pain. Please do not blame yourself for anything. It is hard to lose a precious part of you. We send you hopes for peace & healing,and many hugs. and ps...Tigger says Tiggers are awesome
All of our Moms agree with one another! this is part of the grieving process, some just having a harder time, but we all know too well what you are going through.
I think of Tallulah's last days sometimes I wish I had the courage to have let her go sooner, but neither of us was ready to say good bye. You can never know what each day will bring, we can only cherish the days we do have with our babies. Memories of the last days will eventually turn to days that were happy...please don't dwell on the bad days, he was so handsome and you have 20 years of memories with him...
Writing and coming here is part of your healing, we are all here for you and when you need comforting and support we all comes together
Do something to honor Tigger, plant something in your yard, donate to a cause for animals...something this is another way to heal...
Tigger knows you love him and you did the best you could for him...and he will always love you.
I wish I could come help you heal, but we know all of our kitty angels will be gathering around to help you heal and feel better soon. Don't beat yourself up.....we are here for you Gina, you are not alone in the time of your need for comforting and support...catster is the best place to be!
Sending our love, hugs....and your special sweet boy Tigger is sending you a butterfly from heaven, look and you will see, then you will know it is from him to let you know he is OK and he will always be with you in your heart.
QT and family
I hope I’m not too late to get in the Angel line up. We are purring that you feel better. You can see in all your photos Tigger lived a pawsome life.
Sweet Tigger, we wish we could come over and give your Mom lots of kitty hugs and kisses. She is a wonderful Mommy. We looked through your entire Catster photo album the day we heard you went to the Bridge and the first thought that popped into our heads was "Tigger had a wonderful life." It's so apparent looking at all your beautiful photos with your family how loved and cherished you were. A kitty could not ask for a better life than that. My Mom understands your Mom's grief about losing you, but hopes she will begin to smile again when she looks at your photos and remembers all the beautiful memories she has of you.
Love, Luke & Mom Kelly
I agree with Luke. Tigger had a wonderful life, what a lucky mancat to have spent 20 years with such a beautiful loving family that took such wonderful care of him. I want to give your mommy Meezer lovies Tigger, just to let her know it's all right. You take all the time you need Mommy Tigger, you cry if you want to, you smile at the memories, you do whatever you need to grieve. You gave Tigger the best life possible, there's no questioning that.
Please don't feel you have done anything wrong. Tigger lived a long and good life. He would not want you to be sad. But you have to grieve. Some days you don't think you will ever stop crying. But you will. We are sending you many hugs....your Catster family will help you.
Thank you my friends. Your support is really helping me to better cope.
I decided to spend some time tonight looking at my furbaby photo album. It was difficult at first; I felt very sad. But, as I turned the pages and saw all their sweet faces looking back at me, suddenly a flood of happy memories washed over me.
I have precious photos chronicling Tigger, Taylor, Bob and Pippin's kittenhoods and beyond. (Marmelade and Midge's pictures are digital.) Plus, I have photos of Buddy who was an adult when we rescued him, and the best mama cat to Tigger, Taylor and Bob that ever was. Look for some new pictures on their Catster pages soon; I scanned a few tonight. :)
I do feel like I'm on a roller coaster ride with this grieving process. Sometimes I feel okay and other times not so much. One thing I don't feel is alone, and I thank you for that.
Sending your momma purrs.
We're sending your Mom big hugs. Please don't feel you have done something wrong, my Mom felt that way about me also. It took her a long time as well. Tigger always felt the love. You did the best you could for him. It's like your heart was ripped apart to lose such a precious part of you. Our hearts go out to you, sending healing thoughts your way.
Angel Sam & Family XO
aaawww Ms. Gina ((huggs)) and ♥
So glad to see your comment : ) Made us feel better. Can't wait to see new pics!
Platelicker and MC Deb
Hang in there Gina. We are still purring for you and the family to find peace. (We are also purring for Gump's family too. Both you guys and Gump's family has been so great to us) I know you feel raw right now but it will soon pass. Just try to shrug off those irritating moments at work cause more than likely your coworkers don't truly understand what your going through or feeling. To them it's life as usual. (Mom has had experience at looking at people cross eyed and thanking how dare they treat me like this right now in my life!)
Take care of yourself and I'm working on a giftie for you and Jen to help remember. Give you a hint...the queen mentioned the idea without even knowing I've been secretly working on this.
Gina, we're sending angelic purrs your way. I journeyed to the Bridge a week ago yesterday. Mom has spells of tears and numbness along with feelings of disbelief that I'm not around anymore; when she comes home from work, she almost expects to see me sitting near her bed like I used to. Let the tears come; writing poetry, making a memorial scrapbook of Tigger helps. There are also pet loss websites around. Mommy has two of our angels on "I Loved My Pet.com. My living brothers are also sending you many comforting purrs.
Thank you Zoe's Mom! I am looking forward to the giftie. Anything having to do with my Tigger is precious. I'm still having up and down days, still working through the pain of losing Bob and Tigger so close together. Thank you for being a good friend.
Camille Rose's Mom, I am so sorry about your baby Camille. I lost Tigger three weeks ago, Thursday September 6th. I very much identify with all you said. My eyes would look for Tigger in all his usual places for almost two weeks. Of course my brain knew that he wasn't going to be there, but my heart would not accept that yet.
One thing I did so far is I scanned some hard copies of baby pictures of Angels Tigger, Taylor (Tigger's sister and litter mate), and Bob which are not on Catster. In the next few days, I am going to work on getting them up on their pages. I feel somewhat overwhelmed by things, so I need to take it slow for now.
Love to you both,
We hope your Moms pain eases .It takes time.My mom misses me still.It was good for her to cherish the photos of life with you.Sure looked like you had a life full of love.